The Dark Horse of Depression

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melroseg
Junior Member

since 2000-09-29

Posts 16

0 posted 2000-09-29 03:28 PM

A dark winged horse carries me
To the furthermost descentions of the internal hell I create.

Heat pierces like knives
Into my eyes so that I am blind.
I cannot cry or weep during this perilous journey

My thoughts are mixed with the wind
And concentration is but a memory I no longer have.

Unconsciencly I am tormented
Even in my dreams
They are distorted and disfigured in this nightmare

Complete, unexlplainable lonliness
Lost so deep within myself that the warmest
Touch turns cold upon contact.

All of the greatest love and strength
Cannot rescue me as I drown
In this sea of despair.

My heart is paralyzed by the ice that attack it
My every breath is filled with misery

The only wish I have is of death,
So my mind can
Rest In Peace

Honeybee
Member Ascendant

since 1999-12-26

Posts 5372
Ontario, CANADA

1 posted 2000-09-29 03:34 PM

Wow - you express depression phenomenally. You must have suffered from it or still do. I have known this feeling well. A truly sad piece to see anyone go through the hell of depression. Hugs to you

I hope that in writing poetry, it will become solace for your soul to lessen the torment

Take care,
Melissa Honeybee< !signature-->

The beauty of poetry gives my soul wings to fly free within dreams

[This message has been edited by Melissa Honeybee (edited 09-29-2000).]

inot2B
Member Elite

since 2000-09-18

Posts 2205
Arkansas

2 posted 2000-09-29 03:39 PM

I have had those feelings. Thank God I have climbed out of that depression. Of course I do have to admit it was with the help of hormone pills. Getting old is hard on the mind. Hopefully writing out your feeling will help you release your depression.

Ethan Halo
Senior Member

since 2000-04-28

Posts 793
on the roof again

3 posted 2000-09-29 03:48 PM

"you remind me of myself when i was a younger man."
i used to own thoughts like these. death seemed like such the beautiful answer. but it's not. fighting is. you have to fight your way out. and it's not easy.

this is a wonderful free verse, chock full of the raw emotion that haunts our insides, but never seems to make it outside.
well penned.

Everyone's got their demons.
We all got somethin' to atone for.

jlocke
Member

since 2000-09-10

Posts 169
CC,TX

4 posted 2000-09-29 05:43 PM

Ethan_Halo is right death is not the answer. I spent a lot of time in psych wards trying to recover from depresion and learn that truth. I did not find my answers there, however. If you truly feel this way and want some help please e-mail me. It can't hurt.< !signature-->
This is a beautiful free verse. I would enjoy reading more of your work.

Love is the law, love under will.

[This message has been edited by jlocke (edited 09-29-2000).]

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

5 posted 2000-09-29 05:55 PM

Your poem is great. These feelings are very familiar.

anonymousfemale
Member Elite

since 2000-02-02

Posts 2797
Limbo

6 posted 2001-09-27 02:14 PM

This is amazing. I can totally relate to this. I always think that death is the answer and probably always will. You've written a piece that is just brilliant.

Thank you very much for the read.

~AF~

"Reality is only a feeble rendering of the energy brought forth by the imagination"

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

7 posted 2003-01-27 09:27 AM

I do agree!

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