As the confusion begins to set in
I know not whether I deserve it
Could I have done something to prevent the break
Or did I give until it was all I could take
No one truly knows what went wrong
I must have just lost strength when I thought I was strong
Did I deserve to have my emotions destroyed
Or was it all just to serve a point
Who really knows what was meant by this strife
What doesn't kill me can only lead to my demise
I have begun to actually savor the pain
Instead of being killed I was brutally maimed

The permanent damage is what I fear the most
The memories of my past days, are as transparent as a ghost
I no longer know if I can love again
I no longer know if my heart will mend
Just when I think I have found someone new
I destroy my chances almost as soon
I hate the way I am present tense
The stones I have placed make an unpentratable defense
No matter how long I try
There will always be a part of me I hide
All because of the one that said she "loved me"
No longer will I be so trusting