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~ Measuring my Emptiness ~
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~ Measuring my Emptiness ~ |
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poetFemmeFatale Member Elite
since 1999-07-25
Posts 2646Arkansas 
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Not even realizing, how empty I'd become Living as two strangers, yet supposedly as "one". Funny how the weeks turn into months & then to years... Funny how it's all a haze & I've run out of tears. Isn't it amazing, to be blinded holding on - To something that died long ago - love that seemed so strong? How could I not notice all the emptiness around - Were my own ears deaf to my cries - does blindness have no sound? It's been a year now gasping for - each and every breath Trying to give life to love while shivering close to death. Living as two strangers, yet supposedly as "one" Not even realizing just how empty I'd become. Then it happened, someone in my life for just awhile - Reached into my frozen heart & warmed it with his smile. His eyes alive, his laughter rich, he breathed life into me... Just a few days with this man - - like sweet insanity. Funny how with him I feel alive and I can laugh - Funny how complete I feel, instead of only half. Isn't it amazing how the emptiness can be - Measured merely with his touch, I breathe again, I see... Lying there beside him with our fingers interlaced - I felt his breathing, heard his sleeping, a knowing on my face... I hadn't felt that in a year - that warmth and tenderness, So just before I turned to go, his forehead I did kiss.... "It only takes a spark - to make a fire burn" Within this young man's arms, that's the one thing I did learn... I know that soon he will be gone, but I'll always hold him near - And once again, I do believe, I can reach out without fear...  ** Dedicated to Chad W. by poetFemmeFatale June 4, 2000 [This message has been edited by poetFemmeFatale (edited 06-04-2000).] |
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Irie Senior Member
since 1999-12-01
Posts 1493Washington State |
pFF.. Have you been peeking into my life? The first half of this poem fits my life to a "T". I can relate to this all too well. Now if I could only find happiness as you did!  Excellent! ~Sheri |
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MagnoliaBlue Member
since 2000-05-12
Posts 367 |
Oh pFF, this is wonderful...such sweet emotion expressed here. Yes, reach out without fear...a good lesson learned, in love. MagnoliaBlue  |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
To reach without fear indeed. . . to touch that which cannot be seen. . . to show faith. . . a lesson well learned. . . Just wonderful Gen, glad to see that all of you is now one. . . ----------------------------------------------------------- That which gives light must endure burning --Victor Frankl |
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Balladeer
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Wonderful thoughts expressed here, Femme. Makes me curious as to who this person is and the reasons for your comments about him being gone soon. That could place him anywhere in between a traveling salesman and someone with an incurable disease, hopefully neither one of these. Or perhaps your child and the "soon" is relative to when he grows up and goes on his own. AH, sometimes I try to read too much into something and goofily miss the point completely. At least your poem did make me think and it's really excellent writing |
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sea_of_okc Senior Member
since 1999-06-15
Posts 568Oklahoma City, OK, USA |
Arghhhhhhhh! Say it isn't so! Someone else stole your heart whilst I was away??? I am very jealous if this guy is real! As always your expressions touch me. Good to read you again, missed it. More personally, thinking of your response to one of my efforts in the adult forum ages ago I have posted one you might enjoy... Steven Seaman To thine own self be true... |
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brian madden Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374ireland |
poetFemmeFatale an excellent read, thanks for sharing something obviously close to your heart. ------------------------ "I've been too honest with myself I should have lied like everybody else"-Richey Edwards "Take nothing but pictures. Leave nothing but footprints. Kill nothing but time". Baltimore Grotto "Libraries gave us power Then work came and made us free What price now for a shallow piece of dignity" Nicky Wire, A design for Life. manic street preachers "Rock 'n' roll is our epiphany Culture, alienation, boredom and despair" "To be nobody-but-yourself-in a world which is doing its best night and day, to make you everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting." E.E Cummings. |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
well ma'm..you know i loved this one even before i read it... perfection my dear, perfection, written from your soul for sure. you know i relate way too much to the first part of the poem... and WAY too much to the second part*smile* why do they always have to go... *sigh*but im always grateful for the imprints they leave behind on my heart... find your contentment in you girl... the rest will follow. love ya-gen-gator jm I think I could need - this in my life I think I'm just scared - that I know too much I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling ... If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home There's an awful lot of breathing room But I can hardly move If you're gone - baby you need to come home cuz there's a little bit of something me... In everything in you. ~MB20~ "What the caterpillar calls the end ... The world calls a butterfly" ~Lao Tze Tao~ ~Butterflies are meant to be free~ |
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SpitFire Member Elite
since 2000-04-19
Posts 2396 |
~PFF,...so glad you felt this again. This is such a wonderful piece of poetry. I enjoyed this read,...I enjoyed your descriptions. Thank you for sharing it. *Peace. |
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EagleOne Member Elite
since 2000-03-07
Posts 2829Between a laugh and a tear... |
Wow! there is just so much in this that I relate too, wonderfull work! God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me. ~Unknown |
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poetFemmeFatale Member Elite
since 1999-07-25
Posts 2646Arkansas |
Irie - - I'm sorry you can relate. I always wondered what makes a person stay locked into an obviously unhappy relationship...? And then I found myself doing just that. I heard something once, "It's better to have an old broken down, ugly sofa in the house, than to have nothing to sit on at all..." Well, I disagree. If the sofa's not worth sitting on, get rid of it, and stand tall while you look for that perfect piece that compliments your decor! You get the picture. LOL MagnoliaBlue - - Thank You! How sweet it is indeed...Many lessons learned lately, but that's a good thing!  Sven - - I am so near "whole", it scares me!! LOL Balladeer - - Uh...thank you for your in-depth thoughts, I think!  ROFL For obvious reasons, I keep my life on a more discreet level now, so I don't share alot of details...however, I will say, this man is far from a traveling salesman with disease! ROFL He is someone who at this time, is only briefly in my life. I think we crossed paths for a reason. He has given me hope, and touched me in a very tender way, I had forgotten. He makes me laugh, and holds me tight. That's all...In my mind, he's someone I'll run into again, in the future.Sea of OKC - - * Running * to Adult! Hi Sea!! So glad you're back, hopefully for awhile this time??Brian madden - - *curtsies* Thank you sir. This is very close indeed. So glad you enjoyed reading. Janet - - I've found myself believing lately that people come into our lives for many different reasons - most of which we'll probably never understand...To influence us one way or the other. Maybe for just inspiration, maybe to "teach" us a hard lesson, or maybe even to just breathe new life into us for awhile to keep us alive a bit longer....which is the case here. I think you've had some of that yourself recently. You have to see the good in everything bad that happens...you just have to girl. SpitFire - - Thank you! So glad you liked it! Thank you for reading!EagleOne - - I hope you relate to the positive side of this, and not the emptiness...? Unfortunately, many more know the sadness, and not the elation. Thanks for reading, hope you enjoyed! ** Thanks again for the replies. We are all so lucky to be surrounded by so many wonderfully different people in our lives. Don't be afraid to make eachother laugh and smile once in awhile. I've always feared being close to someone, reaching out. Now that I do, I've found so many others out there are wanting to reach too, we're all just afraid, and we've built shells around ourselves in fear. Don't be afraid...reach out. -pFF |
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RSEvans Senior Member
since 1999-10-23
Posts 1147Tulsa, OK, USA |
Once again you astonish me...Chad is indeed a lucky man to be able to provide you that which you so badly needed. We all owe him a debt of gratitude. I hope you know that you can reach my way in times of need, sister. Here's hoping that you life as you knew it is forever changed and will never be the same. Rob |
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First__Knight Senior Member
since 1999-11-08
Posts 678 |
You bring so many feelings with so little words....The mark of the great in poetry PFF A man does not love a woman because she is beautiful...But she is beautiful because he loves her. |
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