Honey on Her Lips, Poison in Her Heart

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CitiZen-One
Member

since 2000-09-22

Posts 84
New Mexico

0 posted 2000-10-27 03:42 PM

Poem Title: She has honey on her lips, but poison in her heart.
                              -proverbs

You are the sky and I am the ocean,
On the Horizon we meet.

Staring into your eyes, I feel the wind
And the clouds surrounding me.
Your smile shines as a sun and
Your hair, warm fingers of light

I am the ebb and tide, the green marble ocean,
My Spotted streaks are tangled, white and
flowing with life.

Alpha - Omega,
     The Circle of life,
back and forth with the land and tide,
I seek the eternal dance.

Looking into your affectionate eyes
brings me such peace and happiness,
I can sea the mountain clouds soaring
through your sky blue heavens.

My soul is tormented, because I know the truth,
And you have made it clear on more than one occasion.

Yet I live for the chance of your close embrace,
It feeds my starving soul.

I felt that you and I had
something special and unique,
It was my happiness to see you into the night, safely,
that last deep kiss you
always gave me as we said goodnight,

     but our sun went down for the last summer day,
               and on a Thursday none the less.

The Grey storm clouds have come my way, swollen with rain and
truth.

I always long for that one eternal
moment were we kiss and say good bye
And for one last moment,
the ocean meets the sky.

But in stark horror and reality as I went to say goodbye,
I froze in Time as you kiss another man,
the same way you deeply kiss me
     All the time and Just a few
days and nights before,
I have tried to block it from my mind,
because I know you have
done it
     many times,
          kissing other men,
I have seen the signs on your lips.

Some say a kiss is just a kiss, but not me.
     A deep kiss is something special between
two people and it means a lot more to me.
     When a girl stares into my eyes and presses
her lips against mine and then sensually she penetrates me.

As I walk away through the Grey shadows,
the heavy rain falls upon me,
What hurts the most is that I
can not bring myself to cry.
I try. But my tears won't flow.

But the grey storm clouds cry for me,
They rain and pour droplets upon me,
as I walk away towards the shadows and cars.
Alone in the cold humid rain, my only solice.

I don't expect even as much as a call or talk,
I know that guys like me are A dime a dozen to you. You never call me anyway,
What we have here is
A one sided friendship it seems.

But you will always show me
kindness and Glee upon seeing me.
And that is what hurts the most.

I will never be able to look into
your light blue skies again,
without knowing the cold truth of your darkness.

And your joyous and energetic
smile have ceased to shine in the
reflection of my eyes.

Finally, I know where we truly stand,
beyond the token words and smiles.

Today, Tomorrow and Forever I have now accepted what can never
be.
And it hurts.

I am a grandeous dreamer,
I will not deny it.
I dreamed of holding you in my arms.
Because All I want in life is to love and be loved.
     Hah! Wake up from your melodramatic dreams!

Images flashing through my mind at light speed, Like the click of a camera.

Laying on your air matres with your head upon me,
sitting in church your Sensual fingers on my knees.
The delicious dinner you cooked for me, wrestling me to the
ground
And outdancing me.

Never have I felt so good in such a long time.

My heart wants to break, but it can't,
You can not break that which has already been broken to pieces,
Nor can you shatter that which has been crushed into dust.

I want to feel malice, confusion and hate,
I would take anything
other
than than these feelings of empty bliss and truth.

All I ever wanted in life was to be hot or cold!
     To be luke warm?

I would rather be spewed out.

And so I got it and is that is why I feel so liberated.

So in closing it is time for me to say good bye and thanks for
all the great times,
The Summer is over and the times we spent together were very
special to me,
I may never see you again, but I want you to know that I will
never forget you.

With graduate school kicking in, My days of dancing and wine, and
dining on swine
Are over. And with this passing, so are my melodramatic empty
dreams.

But if ever you should ever feel sad or lonely and blue,

     Just Stare into the grey rainy sky.

.And I will be staring right back at you.

Take Care and Good Bye,

Sincerely,

-Mark Alexander Hilton I - Sept 10th 1999

Ron K. Fox
Senior Member

since 2000-10-24

Posts 925

1 posted 2000-10-27 06:14 PM

it takes a lot to face a goodbye such as you did. i felt the pain every step of the way. this wasn't just a poem, it was true heartbreak. i wish you well. in time your heart may find a truer love. it usually does. I speak from experience. been there.

Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

2 posted 2000-10-27 06:49 PM

I too felt the pain throughout this...
And I gotta say Jim Morrison would LOVE these writings.....
Isis

*I believe every time you put your words to paper, you change. Each feeling is set free, and you may follow.....*
~Isis~Goddess~~Sovereign of the Sp

catalinamoon

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-06-03

Posts 9543
The Shores of Alone

3 posted 2000-10-28 10:31 AM

Wow, you have been through hell and around the corner of purgatory on this one. Whew. I am right there with you friend. Heartache is a bad feeling, and you have so very well described it here.

I am a grandeous dreamer,
I will not deny it.
I dreamed of holding you in my arms.
Because All I want in life is to love and be loved.
Hah! Wake up from your melodramatic dreams!

That part described me exactly LOL, we all dream I guess, even men, who have always been heartless to me.

Write on. Great poetry.
Sandra

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