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MMoonchild Senior Member
since 2000-07-13
Posts 1715PA 
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* after reading someone's poem when I first began posting..I felt it was my life and I had a need to respond (one of my first poems ever on a responding forum) These Words Give me such an eerie feeling. I know not why, I feel this way. I remember chasing rainbows, chasing them, until this day. I feel like you, enclosed in walls... four of them surrounding me. Knowing not a single answer, what the future seems to be. Stayed inside for several months now, so determined I would find those lost feelings rising in me, caused from meeting here on line. More than once, my prayers were answered. But the first denied me when, promised to fly out to meet him, must have scared him off again. Yearning, churning my heart grieving, for the loss of one so sweet. In the walls that now surround me, crying, sighing...no heart beat. Still adjusting to my losses, writing words expressing how feelings come and leave so swiftly, like the years, that pass by now. Words come flowing fast and often. Can't control my thoughts inside. Three a day and I'm exhausted, words of hurt, no longer hide. One more time I find a haven. One so friendly and that cares. Poets writing, loving, venting, questioning the world out there. Some words of comfort, light yet loving, coming stronger by the day. Mind is spinning, turning, yearning, for a new love comes my way. Like arms that hold me warm, exciting, passions rise from words embraced. Then one day my wall comes crumbling. Now I lie here in disgrace. A faerie dancer, I once was, on my tiptoes reaching high. Lights were glowing, I saw Moonbeams and stars ashining, in the sky. I feel the anger, feel the hate, that seems to rise inside of me. I'm trying hard to lay to rest, the anguish that's been dealt by thee. I was once so sweet and loving, child at heart, a lovers dream. You could mold me, love me, hold me. Now there's naught, it has been deemed. Many thoughts, so wild and crazy, entered in this brain of mine. Happiness abound forever, so I thought, when all was fine. Joyful days of teasing, laughter, gone forever in its place, lost and lonely, twisting turning, nightmares now fill up the space. Once there was this child in me, that trusted each and everyone. But now, not ever can that be, the trust is gone, as day is done. Somewhere lurking in my soul, hiding deep inside of me, there I know, but cannot find... the me, that I so want to be. I cloak myself in dark surroundings, never out to see the light. Darkness is befitting madness. I'm in my darkness, day and night. M/M *99 [This message has been edited by MMoonchild (edited 08-13-2000).] |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
This is a great place for sharing feelings, isn't it? I've found in my life that trust can come again...it just takes lots of time. I wish you well. Denise |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
MMoonchild... See the moonbeam up in the sky, soft and precious as it comes by. It hits the ground I know not where, but MMoonchild will always be aware. A pleasure, as always to read what you have written, and to see your thoughts. |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Don't know how this slipped by me Maureen... this may be sad but it's also a poetic work of art. I would'nt worry about a thing Lassie with a heart as tender as yours you won't be able to keep your gaurd up all the time. When the gaurd goes down and a smack of love hits ya in the heart...it might be the one to cherish forever.....ya just never know now do ya!!! |
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MMoonchild Senior Member
since 2000-07-13
Posts 1715PA |
Denise yes it is a wonderful place to share feelings....this I wrote a year ago..I just wanted to show how I have changed..but this was a very heartfelt write back then I was just learning my way around the nnet ~~soft thanks Maureen |
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MMoonchild Senior Member
since 2000-07-13
Posts 1715PA |
Bill ..i love poetic responses... ~~soft thanks M |
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MMoonchild Senior Member
since 2000-07-13
Posts 1715PA |
E. I wrote this over a year ago...but it's still a favorite of mine because it tells so much of me...I have grown a lot since those first internet days...and it's not really sad..just that someone had written a poem like this and mine is the companion to it..I thought someone stole my life and 8 of my poem ideas and rolled them into one of hers and it had to be a joke....it's amazing how different we all are and yet how many things we have in common no matter what part of the world we reside in...*s I learned never to read too deeply into other's poems anymore ~~soft smiles and thanks, E. M |
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