»
Archives
»
Open Poetry #9
»
I Am Lost,...So Lost...So Now It's So Long.
| Open Poetry #9 |
|
I Am Lost,...So Lost...So Now It's So Long. |
|
|
SpitFire Member Elite
since 2000-04-19
Posts 2396
|
I Am Lost,...So Lost. (And this is more of a purge than a poem). I'm not sure when but at some point, I was robbed of all my strength. And I don't know exactly what happened or how to change it now. I try to make you see my way, to tell you about my shaded gray and strangled days. I whisper soft and tear internally and fear what lies ahead. I'm lost today and tongues are tied and words are falling dead. I can't tell you why or when or even if I'm there. Images steal my attention from knowing enough to care. From moving or speaking or letting me be. Can't you see, I'm lost today and far away and scared of what's to come. I just wish that yesterday could be back with the little bits of me that run, from voices and visions, to return, to aid in fixing what's left. I have doubts and cry alone and fight with every ounce. But times are going and constantly moving and each day I'm more inside myself than I've ever been and I can't hear anymore, I can't see the light of days, it's evil ways have captured my fire, my desire, my me. I'm wandering in nights and crashing through the dark wall, through the grips and pulls. I struggle for pastnights time and pray that today won't be the day. It's there and heavy and I fight it but it's there. More now than ever before and it's got me good. I'm lost and I'm right here. Next to you but alone. With my thoughts, my fear. It's loud inside of me and I wear it everyday, I walk past your smile and think a while about times when I was free. Before the slip of me and all I am. It's so close this time and I wonder about tomorrow's hour. I'm running from it and it's catching up and I can't run much anymore,... I am lost,...so lost and I just can't see things any other way. It's inside me now and today is just another day. [This message has been edited by SpitFire (edited 09-12-2000).] |
||
| © Copyright 2000 SpitFire - All Rights Reserved | |||
|
Alicat Member Elite
since 1999-05-23
Posts 4094Coastal Texas |
Spitzie!! How you is, girlie? This here is a very tripindicular cathartic rant, and a fine one at that, filled with paradoxical schisms of helixical subterfuge. But I must, through meanderal musings, query I, 'How can one be lost when one knows where they are?' No worries...just need another cuppa.  |
||
|
serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
sigh...and I've been following YOU!!! but seriously, I do understand...y'know that I do...but I'm blaming mine on hormones... Hugs to you...I've been looking for you. |
||
|
insect Senior Member
since 2000-04-22
Posts 1014 |
For you Hot one _______________________________ Oh! You just spit some fire my way Let's give you a smile today  You flame that burns oh so bright Sweet fire bringing day to night Hot as love in passion's mood The most delicious of tasty food A fire spitting of love's flame Losing you we'd never feel the same _______________________________ How are you my little Bunsen burner [This message has been edited by insect (edited 09-12-2000).] |
||
|
Gemini Senior Member
since 1999-12-15
Posts 1203Wisconsin, USA |
SpitFire-Very nice purge, I enjoyed the line about I walk past your smile and think a while, I can relate. |
||
catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
SF, this is very complex. I hope you are ok, my friend. Sandra |
||
|
jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Ah...purges are good, my friend, they keep us healthy and sane (almost sane anyway). I've had many; maybe more to come...who knows. So purge away... & S M I L E! Let's hear the happy, tripping spirit again..... jwesley |
||
|
doreen peri Member Elite
since 1999-05-25
Posts 3812Virginia |
some very good lines in here... really succinct phrasing... it's got truth running through it and i must come back and read it again when real truth is not has hard to deal with as it is this very moment... but hey, girl! this is some hard hitting stuff!~ thanks for sharing |
||
|
Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
GAWWdddddd girl...do you feel better yet after all that. WOW...when you purge you really purge. Excellent write and full of power punched line after line. |
||
|
Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
SpitFire-- You do know how to spit fire...must be where you got your name...duh..and you do it so well...hope you are okay...just in case..a hug here. |
||
|
kynder Senior Member
since 2000-04-11
Posts 537Tallahassee, Florida |
next to you but alone........... what a line, my dear friend. i know the feeling well. i hope you feel better now?? is that even really possible? love ya!! kynder "Full is not heavy as empty, not nearly, my love, not nearly...." Fiona Apple |
||
|
|
⇧ top of page ⇧ |
|
| All times are ET (US). All dates are in Year-Month-Day format. | ||
