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ThUnDeRkYsS Senior Member
since 1999-09-23
Posts 727Wisconsin 
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How can I tell you what I feel when you're so far away you're sitting here right next to me but still I cannot say I feel as though I hurt you so when you said what you said and I just sat and let you wait while nights I thought in bed You see I promised someone else that I'd be there for her but we got really close and what "we were" was so unsure I did'nt want to hurt the one I made a promise to I knew that there was much between us and that it was true I was'nt about to give that up and push myself along while she was thinking I was keeping true and staying strong That would've been unfair to me, to her and also you because if her and I had grown I would've hurt just you Now its clear with her and I where we are 'gonna stand and I believe I made you feel like you are second hand You've no idea how I felt while you were there for me holding out so patiently for something you cant see I cant explain the way I felt that night you came to me and said you knew just what you want, and what you want is me I searched for words but my lil' head was spinning round and round I did'nt know how to respond, I could'nt make a sound I've always liked you ever since the first time that we talked but never thought that day would come when my way you would walk But now you're leary of the truthfulness in what I say because you think I looked at you, and threw my chance away Not one day has passed me by that I dont feel I've failed to show you that I "want you" back and that I have'nt "sailed" I've tried to move so carefully and slow to reassure and build a friendship with you that is in the heart so pure The more I try, the more I feel that you think I'm just playing If I could just have piece of mind that you know what I'm saying That you could know just how I've felt with every passing day and that I'm trying my best to show you that I want to stay I know I waited somewhere else, but I was staying true I made a promise and held up, and I'd do the same for you I cant explain how much I care, I think I've hurt you so I want to be there, hold you tight, and wanted you to know. This is for somebody I'm in a very awkward position with because of the past... and am trying to convey more than I am comfortable putting into words...  (Why is this stuff so hard sometimes!!!) LOLOLStrive for higher levels, if they seem out of reach... Grow, and they will get closer. |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
I think you found just the right words! Very lovely! Denise |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
Thunderkyss, I hope she hears your heartfelt plea. This was beautiful and I think you said a lot here. Best wishes to you. Lone Wolf Poetry should surprise by fine excess...it should strike the reader as a wording of his own highest thoughts and appear almost a remembrance. -J.Keats |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
Why is it so hard......hmmmm that ranks right up there with the meaning of life  You said what was in your heart...that's not always an easy thing...but there is always beauty within words as pure as these. |
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ladysixstring Member
since 2000-07-27
Posts 374 |
Sounds like a lesson in not dividing your loyalties!! Wonderful heartfelt piece. -jaimie Website: www.ladysixstring.com |
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Paula Finn Member Ascendant
since 2000-06-17
Posts 5546missouri |
this was so...so...so very real to me...you could have been writing my story, except I am the other person...waiting. This is a lovely heartfelt write. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
thunder, you make a hard thing seem easy, ya know...I have one particular guy waiting on me and this is exactly what I feel twards him...I now have the thoughts to try to explain to him what I want for him to know. thank you so much! |
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JulieAnn Senior Member
since 2000-06-12
Posts 754Earth 3rd Rock from the sun!! |
I ahhmmm..I think this is very puzzling...left me a little speechless....I think there is a much bigger story here hhmmm....very well written though....  < !signature-->Julie [This message has been edited by JulieAnn (edited 08-21-2000).] |
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ThUnDeRkYsS Senior Member
since 1999-09-23
Posts 727Wisconsin |
dsnyder ~ I'm not sure yet... lol Thank you. Lone Wolf ~ Who knows... anything is possible these days I find, never get my hopes up too far LOL Butterflies_dont_cry ~ Thank you for your kind words, my dear ladysixstring ~ A lesson I did'nt need I stayed true, as hard as it was... now deal with what I've been dealt I guess.Paula_Finn ~ It is a difficult situation, I know... best of luck to you Thank you.passing shadows ~ I'm glad I could unknowingly help in some way, hope it works out for the best. Thank You. JulieAnn ~ Did'nt mean to puzzle, dear... There is more, obviously, but this is what it boils down to I guess. A difficult situation, as are all my situations lately. I HATE hurting people, I feel as though I hurt her by making her feel not good enough because I was'nt technically in a "relationship" when she came to me... but cared very much for someone and was'nt sure what it would turn in to. I wish I could could explain all this and make it clear... to her and you LOL Thank you.Strive for higher levels, if they seem out of reach... Grow, and they will get closer. |
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Irisheyes New Member
since 2000-08-22
Posts 4 |
I may be new,but I know an honest heart when I read one.I hope it all works out for you.Great post!  ) |
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poetFemmeFatale Member Elite
since 1999-07-25
Posts 2646Arkansas |
You did very well with expressing the honesty in your heart. Sometimes what our heart tells us inside, isn't exactly easy to explain to others - but it's the truth to us nonetheless. You can't really expect others to be able to look inside you, and know just what that is, or understand it. I think you have done a really good job attempting to explain, and being as up front as possible. Don't ever try to mask or alter what your heart knows or wants, just to appease someone else. It's your heart, and your life - and only YOU know what's best for you. You are a true gentleman though, not wanting to hurt anyone...a truly kind and thoughtful soul. Good Luck in this! This was a heartfelt read, for sure... |
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ThUnDeRkYsS Senior Member
since 1999-09-23
Posts 727Wisconsin |
pff ~ I know, I dont and did'nt mask anything. Stayed true to the one I promised to and explained everything at the time to this girl. I think in the time AFTER I made her feel "unwanted" because I did'nt make any sudden moves. Just wanted to spend time with her and get to know her for who she really was, and that seemed to be very difficult for her. I think she was under the misconception that because I did'nt make a move... yet... that I must have been politely "shuting her down". I DONT KNOW!!! LOL Frustration! lol Thank you much, babe. Strive for higher levels, if they seem out of reach... Grow, and they will get closer. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
I am feeling many of these same feelings right now...I care for three different women but none have committed to me and I have committed to none of them...it is very confusing sometimes...but if any one would offer a committment I would give my heart to her...I would be only hers...til then I keep looking for the one that needs me...James |
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susanbartee Member
since 2000-08-15
Posts 119Channelview, TX USA |
I, too think you found just the right words. Some situations can be very difficult and through these poems we can say exactly what we are trying to say aloud, without speaking a word. |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
Wow,loved it. |
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Jenn E Senior Member
since 2000-08-02
Posts 589Kelowna, BC, Canada |
Your words say all that needs to be said and I am sure if she reads this she will understand. I loved the flow this had, gently moving from one to the next. Enjoyable read. Jenn E |
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