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What Will They Think?
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What Will They Think? |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania 
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What Will They Think? Will they think me a coward? That is my greatest fear They don’t know the truth The truth walks in whispers Slowly, ever so slowly Not wanting to be noticed, but it’s there I know its there Can’t anybody see? Doesn’t anybody know? Ah, these masks of deception How they hide the truth But I know the truth And I tremble I’m not one to be afraid I wear the mask But I know the truth It’s in the waking hour It comes ever so quietly Like creatures foot on fresh snow It passes unnoticed, but leaves its mark It changes as a growing child changes So slowly and so quickly Why do I tremble? I’m not one to be afraid I feel the change It’s in the sleeping hour Even in sleep the muscles speak The truth never goes away It consumes me I tremble at night on the inside It must be fear And I’m not one to be afraid It never stops creeping towards me It devours my brain In slow pieces It’s not insanity It’s only a nightmare That doesn’t go away I am consumed by fear And I’m not one to be afraid It’s hard to swallow But I don’t know why My muscles cramp They torture me with pain Or is it only my brain that is tortured? I am dizzy and weak Is that my imagination? Is it fear that consumes me? Is that why I tremble? How will I tell them? The little ones How will they ever understand? Will they think me a coward? That I couldn’t fight this devil That scares me more than anything And I’m not one to be afraid How will they remember me? Will they know who I am? I am a person, you know I am trembling I am fighting I am weeping I’m not one to be afraid Look at my past Look how I fought Look what I did I overcame barriers I won victories I gave all I had to give I loved with all my heart Look how I fought I was never one to be afraid But they don’t know that How will they remember me? Will they think me a coward? Elizabeth Santos [This message has been edited by Elizabeth Santos (edited 03-20-2000).] |
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Pepper Member Elite
since 1999-08-19
Posts 3079Southern Florida |
You are a woman of great courage and beauty Liz ... The grandchildren will have their parents rememberences to keep this fresh in their minds .... and they have you.. now ...... Beautifully written Liz ....... Love ya, Shannon |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Elizabeth, The poem is well written and I understand what you are saying. We all have the same fears. Some more sensitive then others. No mail from you and I am a little worried. Love Sy |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Dearest Liz, it is not shamful to be afraid...and it is certainly not the sign of a coward...the unknown is frightening, and things that rob our bodies of their blooming youth. What a wonderful heart-felt poem you have written...ah, and free verse. You are a wonder, and everyone that knows you believes that, even the little ones. |
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Denise
Moderator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
No one would ever think you a coward. You are one of the bravest people I know. You have great endurance. Great poem, Elizabeth. Very expressive of your inner self. I wish I could take your pain from you. HUGS Love ya Denise |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania |
Pepper, Yes, that is why I live for each day. Thank you, dear. Sy, No need to be concerned. I am doing well. This is just a poem on a screen. Thanks for reading and commenting Martie, How sweet, and hey, how about this free verse. I think this could be alittle smoother, but you know me and free verse. It's very tough. Thanks for your remarks Denise. Thank you for your support. I know this poem sounds depressing, but I am not depressed, though I do have thoughts about how my grandchildren will remember me. Thanks, dear. Liz |
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RainbowGirl Member Elite
since 1999-07-31
Posts 3023United Kingdom |
Liz: How can you be a coward when you face things head on? How can you be a coward when you care so much about others? How can you be a coward when you make the most of what you have? How can you not be afraid? Because I would be.. I think you handle your situation with courage, beauty, defiance and strength and on top of all that, you give the gift of love! That is how I think of you now..  HUSG |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania |
Cindy, I'm trying to write through my tears, but honestly, I can't even see the keyboard. Because I know what you have been fighting so couragiously. I will never give up fighting, but I have a hard time explaining things to my grandchildren and wonder how they will remember me. You, Cindy, are a friend and an inspiration. Thank you I love you HUSG Liz |
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Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Oh my fair Elizabeth~ You do not cry the tears alone. I cry them with you. They will remember you for the beauty in your smile, the oomph in your hugs, the challenge of your spirit, your words of sweet beauty. Oh, they will remember the woman who gave more than she took ... and most of all they will know that she was 'not one to be afraid'. The courage you display ... they will be honored to remember. So much love to you, my friend. Love ~*Marge*~ |
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Dr.Moose1 Member Elite
since 1999-09-05
Posts 3448Bewilderment , USA |
E. One with such eloquence of spirit will be remembered for the strength they have shared with others . Have no doubt . Doc |
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RainbowGirl Member Elite
since 1999-07-31
Posts 3023United Kingdom |
Liz: You crazy loveable lady....you have me in tears now... Where's that flipping cognac...I think we should have a toast to courage, love, friendship and honesty.. I understand about telling the children, well, in a limited way.. much depends on there age but if ever I have had to tell a child something sad, I tried to be as direct as possible and encourage any questions and they seem to accept it and then run off and play, the tiny ones that is but the older ones seem to appreciate that you tell them and encourage them to ask questions, share many tears and hugs...don't know if that helps, it's something I have never had to do with children of my own..but they will love you anyway, regardless, they just don't see parents or grand-parents the way we seem to relate...I think I would prefer to live amongst children and their innocence...ooops, I rattled on, must be bedtime.. HUSG and sweet dreams [This message has been edited by RainbowGirl (edited 03-20-2000).] |
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Balladeer
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Liz, the only possible coward you could be would be Noel Coward, maybe, since he is also a gifted writer. Your courage puts others to shame. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Once again, reduced to tears...I do so admire how the style of this followed the emotion...(something I am working on...) Pure Perfection, Liz! |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania |
OK, Marge, Doc, Cindy, Balladeer, Serenity, Pepper, Sy, Martie and Denise, here is a toast, offered by Cindy, for courage, love, friendship, and honesty, those things that help us through the challenges of life. I'll drink to that, and add that the friendships I've gained here on Passions are the best gift that I have been given. There's nothing I can't do when I have the support of friends like you. Thank you for your beautiful responses, and thank you, Cindy, for your ramblings Love Liz |
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