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DreamEvil
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since 1999-06-22

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0 posted 1999-07-11 04:25 AM

How did it begin? With puberty I suppose.
That's when I switched to poetry instead of prose.
When exactly did I start to hate and rage against the unseen,
My God, I don't know. Seems forever I've been unclean.
After a lifetime of denial, my need for understanding and compassion, screams at me, crying and dying to be free.
All my life I rage against the light, blindingly bright, I pray
For a darkening of my Night.

Hate and rage have kept me alive, in the darkness of my
Soul they thrive and drive me to hellish ecstasy.
Inflicting pain was my only refrain, the true chorus of my song,
I ache thinking of all those who did me wrong.
For them I have no pity or sympathy only numbing pain, back we go, to my refrain. Loving light steals my sight as I pray for a darkening of my Night.

Lately I find a greater sense of my crimes has crept into my mind,
How could I have done such vile things, yet all the while, the thoughts make me smile. Now I find in my life people that care have come out of thin air, in spite of my lack of light. Now I wrestle with guilt and sorrow that makes me hollow with understanding
Of another's plight and for different reasons I still pray for
A darkening of my Night.

©1999 DreamEvil

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I am not responsible for how you choose to interpret what I say.
DreamEvil©

wayoutwalt
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since 1999-06-22

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TEXAS (it's all big)

1 posted 1999-07-11 04:31 AM

i really like your style dream

leelew
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since 1999-07-10

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highmount,ny,usa

2 posted 1999-07-11 04:38 AM

Oh ...I love being engulfed in the Darkness...for there lies my true heart,my soul.Understanding....compassion...only for you my friend...only for you!

~one voice~
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since 1999-07-08

Posts 664
Billings, MT USA

3 posted 1999-07-11 04:38 AM

As you know, dear Mr. Evil, I know of the rage you speak of, and the pain as well. This is a fabulous expression of those emotions! Good work!

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~one voice~

For Myself, I live,
Live intensely and am fed by life,
and my value, whatever it be, is in my own kind of expression of that. *Henry James

DreamEvil
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since 1999-06-22

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4 posted 1999-07-11 04:46 AM

Thanks to you all, needed to vent a little gall.

azblond
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since 1999-07-01

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The Steamy Desert

5 posted 1999-07-11 05:31 AM

DreamEvil, your call for the darkening is something I believe we all do from time to time. The reasons you shared are one, but let me tell you, for others, its because they are forced to live in the sun. By day I smile, and offer hope, find ways for others to somehow cope. I'm the light they seek to find, when darkness has left them blind. (Or so I have been told) But inside of even me, lies the need for darkness to appear, And thankfully, with a lot of support from you, I've found my solace here. So write of the night, or the dark of day, but let your voice be heard. One thing I think you've come to know...I hang on every word.

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Let my words fall first upon deaf ears before a closed mind...

DreamEvil
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since 1999-06-22

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6 posted 1999-07-11 05:59 AM

Quite a burden you've placed on me, we shall see if I'm up to the task.

Poet deVine

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Hurricane Alley

7 posted 1999-07-11 09:35 AM

Your poem is excellent! Sometimes with all the light, humourous, romantic poetry we forget there is another kind. The kind that exposes the inside of a dark soul. We need all kinds of poetry here. I applaud you for posting this! Bring on the dark any time!

DreamEvil
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since 1999-06-22

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8 posted 1999-07-12 12:35 PM

Thank you, Lady deVine, anytime.

Nicole
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since 1999-06-23

Posts 1835
Florida

9 posted 1999-07-29 03:07 AM

This is much too good to stay at the bottom, back to the top you go! Your conveyance of emotions is amazing, and your talent is inspiring.

Gentle Soul
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since 1999-07-12

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Vinton,Ohio USA

10 posted 1999-07-30 12:03 PM

I love your work DE... you are the best all around brother.. *HUGS*

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Phantom
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since 1999-08-03

Posts 18

11 posted 1999-08-03 05:37 AM

For some Darkness comes much too soon.I like the way you expressed your emotions.

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Open your heart to the Darkness,set your soul free.

WhtDove
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since 1999-07-22

Posts 9245
Illinois

12 posted 1999-08-03 09:16 AM

This is very well stated Dream! But sounds if that Light is knocking! God is our revenger! You seem to have quite the fight going on within. We war within ourselves. The flesh fights against the spirit.

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