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Ardonida Member
since 2000-05-18
Posts 76 |
I wish to write about my daughter, who else? She was born August 7th, 1997, as blue as the cold of ice.... From day one she was the strongest little creature that I have known...My Amber. Named so because she is mine, and I chose it to be. Named so because she shines a little amber light on my whole life, covering it in a hazy shade of softness and peace! She has changed my life a great deal! Before I had my little Amber, I was on the wrong track through life. Drinking my money away, moving from one place to another and mixing with the wrong kinds of friends. Then I met her daddy, and we fell in love, yet nothing has changed, we were just the same ol' two people on the same ol' track. When I discovered I was pregnant with Amber, I considered abortion. Even though it was against all I believed in, I did. But, since I had cancer, and was told years before that I would never have a child again, I could not let my little baby be killed before it had a chance to survive. And that she did. We started calling her "Tinkerbell" while she was in my womb, and the changes in both dear hubby and me started to take place. We got jobs, and stopped drinking. We lost many a "friend" along the way. Yet, we told no one about the baby I am carrying inside me. We hardly spoke off her at all. But we both knew that she was special. We changed even more. We became proud, and directional, we became clean and whole, we became the parents of the most beautiful gift ever...to us. The family got to adore her, all be it a surprise having little missy in the home! And. I started living my path again. I started paying attention to little things through my baby's eyes. I noticed how my life has changed and how I became a mother myself. I still have that cancer, but now I am not scared of it anymore, I really cannot have another baby, but I am glad I had this one! She is my little Amber-light! I chose this little person to write about, because she is so big. I admire her complexity yet her total simplicity. My daughter has the wisdom of old, combined with the knowledge of new! She made me who I am today, and one day, I hope she can also smile and say the same about her mom. She has more than magic surrounding her. She has the Goddess herself guiding her from within. She made me whole and filled in all those little spaces than sometimes get forgotten until it is too late to remember! We have new friends now, hand-picked if you will, by our Amber. She is stronger than the strongest, yet weaker than the weakest. She is my Daughter, she is your friend, and she is her own true companion. She is Amber. A. |
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WolfsMate Member
since 2000-01-14
Posts 121New York |
This is lovely!! Amazing how one so small can change your life forever. Well done!!  "You never have to worry...Never fear for I am near" |
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Dawn Eclipse Senior Member
since 2000-01-31
Posts 637The Horsehead Nebula |
Ardonida, That was a wonderful story. It's amazing at how even the smallest child can make the biggest difference. "Even a fool knows you can't touch the stars, but it doesn't stop a wise man from trying." Harry Anderson, "Night Court" *Cassandra Roseen* |
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Dusk Treader
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since 1999-06-18
Posts 1187St. Paul, MN |
*wipe tears from his eyes* Such a sweet story Ardonida! So beautiful I admire you for your strength in the face of the horror of cancer and for changing your life to give that brilliant soul you call Amber a chance at a better life Great writing, truly beautiful. My prayers are with you and a hug for a strong, beautiful person!((HUG)) Abrahm Simons "A dream unthreatened by the morning light Could blow this soul right through the roof of the night" - Pink Floyd, "Learning To Fly" |
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Sudhir Iyer Member Ascendant
since 2000-04-26
Posts 6943Mumbai, India : now in Belgium |
Your strength flows from this one, Ardonida. Cheers to you and Amber! Proud mommy of an even more prouder little girl... Regards, Sudhir. Life is like a painting, That in an art gallery is left hanging, Though many come just to look at it, A very few actually come to enjoy it. |
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Ardonida Member
since 2000-05-18
Posts 76 |
Thanks everyone for the kind words!! I think I found my way of writing...lol, guess as long as I write what is in my life, nature and heart, I will always write the "right" way... I am glad that you thought it good. Thank you. Now how about my attemt at some almost shakespeare? A. |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
beautiful, love filled tribute to your little MIRACLE... as that is what she did...came into your world and worked a miracle and look how she changed you. wondeful writing. take care of your self... jm Some things cannot be explained by verses that rhyme, They are not measured by the commitment of time. Some emotions run too deep to be described by words, Forgiveness and understanding-remain the most beautiful words ever heard. ~Janet Marie~ "What the caterpillar calls the end ... The world calls a butterfly" ~Lao Tze Tao~ ~Butterflies are meant to be free~ |
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Irie Senior Member
since 1999-12-01
Posts 1493Washington State |
Isn't it amazing the changes that a child can make in our lives. This is so beautiful and heart warming. I'm glad that it put you on life's better path. For so many people would have continued on a distructive path. I have a cousin who is now in this same type of situation and I have been some what worried about it. This gives me a new out look and a sense of hope. Thank you so much for sharing this! I'm so proud and happy for you all!  This is excellent Wonderfuly written, challenge well met! [This message has been edited by Irie (edited 05-23-2000).] |
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netswan Senior Member
since 2000-03-28
Posts 1369Washington |
This is precious, A. I have seen babies change so many women's lives and the direction that they choose. It is like watching a new story unfold. Hope you can get rid of the cancer. Glad you have a "tinkerbell" ~netswan |
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Mysteria 
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
I read this and wondered how you were both doing today? So, therefore I ask - "How are you doing?" Merry Christmas! |
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miscellanea Member Elite
since 2004-06-24
Posts 4060OH |
It's a delight to read how she, herself, created life in you and your hubby. Kids have a way of doing that, don't they? A wonderful story! miscellanea |
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