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Cancer 05 (Pain In My Heart)
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas 
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Cancer 05 (Pain In My Heart) I thought you would always be there, you'd be looking at me, when I closed my eyes for the final time. I just thought you would always be there. Sometimes one has to hold the bridge of his nose in a pinching manner trying to avoid letting the tears flow. And I was the someone getting his finger tips wet when, out of the blue, while watching a tv movie, my wife spoke those words in a tone that sounded so lost, empty, and alone. I thought you would always be there - What does one say - What does one do - I don't know. All I could do was put my chin on my chest, squeeze the bridge of my nose, tighter and tighter trying not to let her know I am as lost, as she. @wesley james beard, jr. august 27, 2020 |
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Marchmadness Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 9271So. El Monte, California |
I have been there. This makes me cry. |
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Paul Wilson
since 2002-07-07
Posts 4711United States |
James...Very touching write. I'm sure you know but 9 months ago I lost my only daughter to cancer. Thankfully she went fast and I know she is better off where ever she is at. Take care my friend...Paul ~~To share my poems with you is to share my heart with you~~ |
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augustsky Senior Member Posts 828 midwest US |
I've always been left with a keepsake to my spirit after reading you. Very few can touch like that Poet J. Sky~ ~ Cherish Everything ~ |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
I've been, and am now, very upbeat and light hearted about this disease of my lung and liver (thus far, as the first four Cancer pieces show). But when Terry said what she did in so distressed and quiet a manner, it tore my heart like nothing else has ever done, and I suspect, will ever do. I've been trying for weeks to write the song of my pain - hopefully this is it. Thanks my friends, each of you, for always being a sounding post for the words I write. j. |
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Kit McCallum
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Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Oh my gosh James, this gripped me. You have captured a pain that is deep and allowed me to feel it through your lines. I am so sorry for the diagnosis, but appreciated that you were able to share the pain so intimately. Very well written. Best wishes, /Kit |
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Michael
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666California |
This one rips the soul, James. “I've been trying for weeks to write the song of my pain - hopefully this is it.” You captured the moment…her pain and yours, in a very beautiful and heartrending manner. There’s a song that says "you never know just how you look through other people’s eyes." This poem, in my eyes, was the realization of the moment you saw everything you are to her, and all she is losing, and how cancer wounds the hearts and minds of not just the victim, but of everyone who loves them. I applaud you bravery, and feel your pain. Michael |
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Poet In Pink Senior Member Posts 1066 MI |
So sorry to hear this Jimmy. A heartbreaking and tender rendering from your very soul. My thoughts and prayers are with you both my friend Blessings Alana |
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Starmcneil 1955 Member Posts 174 Alberta, Canada |
As my tears flow for you both my soul sends a prayer on your behalf...know you will never be alone nor will she...our Savior walks with you both...Pain in my heart for both of you |
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2islander2 Member Ascendant
since 2008-03-12
Posts 6825by the sea |
I feel sad and sorry, I lost my dad a few months ago for that "reason", hope there is no pain, continue to share deep thoughts for you yann |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
"What does one say What does one do" If you find these words, my friend, please let me know. . . Your work speaks volumes these days. . . I am honored to hear them. . . -- That which gives light must endure burning. |
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Temptress
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-06-15
Posts 7136Mobile, AL |
And this is love. I can feel it. Everything is conveyed so poignantly. You've torn at the strings of my soul with this one. I'm feeling much respect for you right now. "How much is real? So much to question |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Jimmy. You have learned to master painting love with a palet knife. It has a very sharp edge that cuts tears from our eyes as we read. The song may be sad, but that doesn't take away from its beauty, that is part of it. |
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