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Sunshine

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Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

0 posted 2019-04-23 03:19 PM

Approval

She never quite went gray
All the way
Not with the cancer
And chemo
Which stripped the natural
From her soul

Had she gone gray, had she taken
Time from the mouth of death
I can imagine her with tendrils
Of silver ringlets

But the ladies who managed her
And manipulated her thoughts
Implied that a wig of her “natural”
(Read “her 20s”)
Implied she would “look fine.”

But cancer and chemo
are insidious beasts
And in the 90’s of the time
no one thought
To embrace the idea
that skin changes tone
And to look 20 at 60 plus
Is slightly ridiculous
And the wig never fit right, anyway.

I’ve since passed the age of her passing.

I embrace the silvers and slivers of age
And try to hear her,
And the golden tones
Of her approval of my thoughts
Even when they are gray.

© KRJ 4-23-2019

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

1 posted 2019-04-23 04:21 PM

Karilea,
This is so warm and wonderful. The last stanza is my favorite. ~L

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

2 posted 2019-04-25 02:59 AM

You said what needs to be said so beautifully, Karilea.

Michael

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-08-13

Posts 7666
California

3 posted 2019-04-28 11:35 AM

"I’ve since passed the age of her passing.

I embrace the silvers and slivers of age
And try to hear her,
And the golden tones
Of her approval of my thoughts
Even when they are gray."

I recently passed the age of my father's passing. He too, died from cancer, and had his appearance changed by chemo. His approval was all I lived for up to that point in time. Still was afterward I think, but I was completely lost without his guidance.

Your heartfelt words here have evoked strong memories. I am sure "she" both approves and understands your thoughts, even when they are gray.

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