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swampguy
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since 2013-08-04

Posts 83

0 posted 2013-08-09 07:34 AM

she was a mean woman
she died slowly
without my love
gritting her false teeth
like she had just caught a chill
but it was the pain
lying there unable to move
she doesn't recall how mean of a woman she was
as she feels the cold hand
of death

©July 25, 2013 / Jerry Pat Bolton

~*~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~*~

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

1 posted 2013-08-09 09:14 AM

Cold would have been another good title.
I hope that this distilled spirit of your pain is the dregs. Of all your memoir pieces this was the for me the most powerful.

Lori

swampguy
Member

since 2013-08-04

Posts 83

2 posted 2013-08-09 09:18 AM

Thank you, Lori, and yes, I believe this could be considered the dregs of my thoughts on my mother. Yes, again. Cold would have been a good name for it.

~*~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~*~

EmmaRose
Senior Member

since 2011-03-02

Posts 1376
Midwest

3 posted 2013-08-09 11:18 AM

this stings with life and death.
sorry you must wear this badge of pain.
the writing is glorious though.

swampguy
Member

since 2013-08-04

Posts 83

4 posted 2013-08-09 11:48 AM

I appreciate your comments, Emma. Hopefully I can put it all to rest sooner than later.

~*~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~*~

Sunshine

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since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

5 posted 2013-08-10 10:24 PM

I've known many a man who had a terrible mother. I've known a few men who were born from such wonderful women.

It is admirable that those who had such terrible mothers, found some awesome treks to follow, far and away from the madness.

And why, when those born of such good, could turn into such louses.

Nature, a funny mistress, she.

swampguy
Member

since 2013-08-04

Posts 83

6 posted 2013-08-11 04:22 AM

I understand and know you are correct. I would like to put it all behind me, but it still lingers. Thank you for your input Sunshine.

~*~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~*~

Juju
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since 2003-12-29

Posts 3429
In your dreams

7 posted 2013-08-11 09:09 PM

Mean people wouldn't reflect on such things, their too busy feeling sorry about themselves. Such lives are sad. Yet it was my experiences with mean people that I learned to love and treat others with love. So I guess some times people change (:

-Juju

-"So you found a girl
Who thinks really deep thoughts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts " Silent all these Years, Tori Amos

swampguy
Member

since 2013-08-04

Posts 83

8 posted 2013-08-11 09:16 PM

I'm sorry, Juju, my mother is the one person in the universe that I cannot forgive. Thank you for reading and commenting on this decidedly hard poem.

~*~ . . and summer's lease hath all too short a date. ~*~

Juju
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since 2003-12-29

Posts 3429
In your dreams

9 posted 2013-08-11 09:31 PM

I understand that feeling pretty well. The last 6-7 years I have spent being screwed over by people some, who are suppose to help me. I got so depressed and sad I just snapped and then I saw things in a different light. Funny how life is. I understand those feelings and I don't judge you for having those feelings.

Juju

-Juju

-"So you found a girl
Who thinks really deep thoughts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts " Silent all these Years, Tori Amos

swampguy
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since 2013-08-04

Posts 83

10 posted 2013-08-11 09:37 PM

Thank you, Juju. I have someone I admire who is trying to influence me into the forgiving mode. At least I am thinking about it, because of my friend. I refused to say "I forgive her" when in my heart I don't. Still, I am mulling it over, and that is something I've refused to do for the last sixty-three years. I really appreciate you thoughts on this subject, and that you have had similar experiences also means much.

~*~ . . and summer's lease hath all too short a date. ~*~

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

11 posted 2013-08-27 10:59 PM

Ncie writing...James

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

12 posted 2013-08-28 07:32 AM

Thanks James.

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s1nfully_1nn0c3nt
Senior Member

since 2003-10-26

Posts 1105
Watertown, NY

13 posted 2013-08-29 12:57 PM

This must have been hard to post - A glimpse of your life, your pain, the anger, and the sadness.
I think just acknowledging all of your feelings is a step in the right direction.
Thanks for sharing.

-Trina
I'll keep these dreams hidden
inside these eyes of mine
until my tears fall
unto my tainted hear

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

14 posted 2013-08-29 12:59 PM

Thanks Trina. Yeah, it was difficult, but necessary I believe.

~*~ If they give you lined paper write sideways. ~*~

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