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JerryPat Senior Member
since 2010-10-30
Posts 1991Louisiana/America 
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Written last year five months after my wife passed on . . . Being alone is not so grim, I do what I want on a whim, There is no one to answer to, Then why do I think about you. Four walls seem closer than before, They make me want to loudly roar, But I find I temper my zeal, There are times it's so hard to feel. I peer through the mirror at me, Wonder whose face it is I see, I continue to look and stare, That’s not me I solemnly swear. I’m trying my best to be strong, Sometimes I feel I don’t belong, My aloofness hides my despair, It’s almost more than I can bear. I am losing the "who I am," To some long-lost spiritual scam, I've given up on who I was, To thunderous, vulgar applause. . . . and the Raven said, %!~#&(&#!$! |
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latearrival Member Ascendant
since 2003-03-21
Posts 5499Florida |
Understanding this. Widowed a long time now. Work helped but I finally had to give that up as the new task masters changed what was a pleasant position to one that almost took away one's diginity. You have your poetry and books at least an acomplishment. I am just a reader. Keep writing.You have a lot to give. best to you,latearrival |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
quote: But as for the "who I am" part of your poem, I'm afraid, dear Sir, that if you continue on at this pace, you'll find yourself before you know it. I'm sorry for your loss...it is never easy.  |
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JerryPat Senior Member
since 2010-10-30
Posts 1991Louisiana/America |
Thanks Sunshine, February of last year was not a good time. I lost my wife on the ninth. Two weeks later my first wife, who I was on good terms with died from brain cancer. Two months to the day I had to put my much loved dog to sleep. But time does blunt, if not stop the pain. thank you for stopping by and saying such nice things. . . . and the Raven said, %!~#&(&#!$! |
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JerryPat Senior Member
since 2010-10-30
Posts 1991Louisiana/America |
Latearrival, you are so right about the writing. I honestly do not know what I would do if I didn't have writing to fall back on. It is my life now. . . . and the Raven said, %!~#&(&#!$! |
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Andrew Scott Member Elite
since 1999-06-24
Posts 2558Redlands,CA,USA |
Can't say I know the pain, but I can respect it. Your writing shows you have much to offer and that there is more to you than the loss of those you love. I bow to you and yours. Peace. "We'll chase them like rats across the tundra." |
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JerryPat Senior Member
since 2010-10-30
Posts 1991Louisiana/America |
Andrew, thank you so much for your kindness. We do what we have to do. So that is what I do. Nothing profound about it, it is just making what is left palpable. . . . and the Raven said, %!~#&(&#!$! |
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Winter Junior Member
since 2010-11-01
Posts 10On the autumn wind |
Oh that is sad. I`m sorry for your loss. |
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Andrew Scott Member Elite
since 1999-06-24
Posts 2558Redlands,CA,USA |
Yep... I understand that mentality... said those same words many a time. "Ya just do what ya gotta do." But hopefully we can make it more than just palpable. I like to keep a bottle of hot-sauce in the cupboard for certain occasions. "We'll chase them like rats across the tundra." |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Jerry The sting of death is never pleasant but the strength of the gift of life helps us grow stronger even as your despair in this piece is slowly gaining realistic acceptance. Well put down in words my friend!! Eric |
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JerryPat Senior Member
since 2010-10-30
Posts 1991Louisiana/America |
Thank you Winter. When that poem was written it was tough, I've found some measure of peace over the year. . . . and the Raven said, %!~#&(&#!$! |
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JerryPat Senior Member
since 2010-10-30
Posts 1991Louisiana/America |
Andrew, a little bottle of hot sauce in the cupboard sure doesn't hurt, huh? . . . and the Raven said, %!~#&(&#!$! |
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JerryPat Senior Member
since 2010-10-30
Posts 1991Louisiana/America |
I quite agree Eric. Attitude is the most important part in situations such as this. . . . and the Raven said, %!~#&(&#!$! |
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s1nfully_1nn0c3nt Senior Member
since 2003-10-26
Posts 1105Watertown, NY |
The sadness and loss is weaved in with your words. I don't think the pain ever goes away - we just get strong enough to bear it. Sorry for your loss. -Trina. |
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JerryPat Senior Member
since 2010-10-30
Posts 1991Louisiana/America |
You know what you speak of. The intensity of the pain gradually gives way to a dull ache. Sometimes I feel I prefer the intensity, at least then I knew I was alive. Thank you, Tina. . . . and the Raven said, %!~#&(&#!$! |
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Eusta B. Mae Senior Member
since 2010-05-03
Posts 903 |
just tears here...ebm |
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