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I Miss You.
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I Miss You. |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
5/4/07 I Miss You. It begins in the depths of the soul….this longing. It swells and begins to well up and outward….this yearning. It overtakes the body inside and out….this desire. It swallows the very spirit….this aching need. Little things set if off. A tool that was used by only you. A flavor that was one of your favorites. A sound that tap, tap, taps. Behind closed eyes. In pages of still gloss. Tales of time past. These are but replacements. Not fulfillments. And then it breaks free of the very core. It grows hot, trembles, and quakes. Quickly, it surges throughout every atom. Finally, it bursts forward and out. Crashing waves of searing salt crests the brims. Forcing blurred visions. Gasping sobs, uncontrolled. Racked by grief. I miss you. |
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xTr3m3sT Member
since 2008-03-03
Posts 415 |
*edit* OHHHHH.....I apologize :[ sorry bout' that. My mind is cloudy at the moment, I do enjoy this poem a lot though. |
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effjayel Senior Member
since 2007-09-30
Posts 1474At the Crossroads of Infinity |
xTr3m3sT, Might I suggest you take the time to read Tammys other posts before critiquing this one. When you have done so, you may want to delete this post and perhaps even apologise. It is not a poem per se as you will quickly realise and as such, this comment was not called for... Sorry Tammy, he is not a bad kid really. John |
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effjayel Senior Member
since 2007-09-30
Posts 1474At the Crossroads of Infinity |
Good Boy, Now as Sunshine would say " DON'T do it again"  |
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xTr3m3sT Member
since 2008-03-03
Posts 415 |
XD lol, I promise I wont do it again. |
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Robert E. Jordan Member Rara Avis
since 2008-01-25
Posts 8541Philadelphia, Pennsylvania |
Tammy<333, You're doing the right thing. That's good Hon. Bobby |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
xTr3m3sT I am a carpet installer by trade. One with nothing more than a sixth grade education. I had never written “anything” prior to my son’s death. This was my third attempt to express the anguish that burns within me. (You should read the first two. hahahahah They’re terrible.) After a year of reading and expressing my feelings through writing, I do in fact realize that this piece could use A LOT of work, had it been written for anyone other than my own son. However, Larry loved me every bit the way I am, as myself, and so there is absolutely no reason for me to alter this. As rough as it may be, it was the best I could do at that time, and I am happy with it as it is. I just wanted to share it. I do thank you for taking the time to read it though. And I do look forward to your critiques on future writes. Tammy<333 John, You are too sweet and I thank you for the rescue… Tammy<333 |
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xTr3m3sT Member
since 2008-03-03
Posts 415 |
I'm sorry...I didn't mean any hurt! :[[[[ Man I feel bad now... as I am only 14 I make stupid mistakes...I hope you can accept my apology :[ |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
hahahha Don’t sweat it hun… I have VERY THICK skin! Tammy<333 |
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Seoulair Senior Member
since 2008-03-27
Posts 807Seoul S.Korea |
song from heart. felt the emotion. keep writing. Dear Larrysmom, the child will never loss from your heart. Kindly remind you that every child wants his beloved mother to continue living and lives happily for him, for his family and esp, for his little brother.  I love to read your poem. |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Thank you my dear Seoulair. Your words are so very true and these are the reasons I took up writing and sharing my thoughts… To release a bit of the pain that hinders so that I can be the mom I need to be for Darrin (Larry’s little brother). You are so sweet Seoulair and I appreciate your reading of my writings… Tammy<333 |
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effjayel Senior Member
since 2007-09-30
Posts 1474At the Crossroads of Infinity |
xTr3m3sT It is done with, don't beat your self up. You apologised, End of. I know it was only youthful exhuberance. As Tammy said, She has thick skin, you came yay close to a thick lip  John |
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Roniece Dawson-Bruce Member Ascendant
since 2000-01-29
Posts 5689Sydney, Australia |
Tammy... I feel your heartwords and you are in my thoughts.. love RDB Be kind at heart....for everyone you meet has their own battle to fight......... |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Nothing written from the heart is ever TERRIBLE, my friend. Maybe they didn't EXPRESS what you truly wanted to say, but heart-soul-love-words are never terrible. Then again, re-read them, just maybe they said exactly what you wanted to say. But they were wonderful just because they were from Mom. Much enjoyed both this and The Reaper. my heart... jimmy |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
RDB, You are so sweet and I thank you so much for welcoming me and giving of your time to read my writings and sending me your heart felt thoughts… Jimmy, Thank you so much. I had never thought of it that way… I think I will re-read them, heck, with everyone here being as kind to my writings as you all have been, I may even post them… I am glad you liked this and The Reaper… I was actually quite proud of The Reaper for some time as it was my first attempt at…well I don’t know what it’s really called, but I call it vision poems… Tammy<333 |
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Marchmadness Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 9271So. El Monte, California |
Hi Larrysmom. I just want to tell that I think you have a wonderful talent, You can work out the details as you go along. Spelling, grammar even styles of writing can be learned but you have the ability to touch others with your poet's soul, a rare gift. You just keep writing and we'll keep reading and I think we all learn from each other. Love, Ida |
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Robert Frazier Senior Member
since 2003-02-06
Posts 1014 |
your pain is well spent in your beautiful, suffering words. Many Hugs, Robert |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
Larrysmom, Welcome to these blue pages. May your stay be long and rewarding. This piece requires no apologies. It reads as it was written... from the bottom of a broken heart. My dad got to the seventh grade and I know for a fact, after finishing college, that learning isn't only done in school. Take confidence in what you know and press on. My son is Larry Jr. and my daughter died five years ago at the age of 28. I do indeed feel your pain and wrote tons on these blue pages to stagger my way through my grief. So I admire your brave heart and your willingness to share. Larry C (Larrysdad)  If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Ida, You have given me the greatest of compliments. Thank you. I will keep writing and I will be honored for all of you to keep reading… Tammy<333 Robert, Thank you so very much… And I will take all of your hugs. Tammy<333 |
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sewasham Senior Member
since 2006-09-11
Posts 714Oklahoma, USA |
I'm very sorry for your loss. Your son sounds like a very special person to have earned your heartfelt words. Very nice. Take care. Steve |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Thank you so much for the warm welcome, ease of my mind, and wonderful invite “Larrysdad”  . They are very much appreciated…I am sorry you have to know my pain personally, but I am glad you also found some release in writing. Tammy<333 |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Fine writing...keep telling Larrys story and sharing your love for him...James |
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Margherita Member Seraphic
since 2003-02-08
Posts 22236Eternity |
Dear Tammy, you brought again deep emotion with your touching write of longing. I found it was absolutely perfect when I read it, don't change a thing. It is you and it is Larry, the way you feel and it reaches out to other's hearts powerfully. Love and hugs. Margherita  |
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A Romantic Heart Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-03
Posts 5496Forever In Your Heart |
You write from the heart, and that is all that matters! Writing is good for the soul, your poems have helped us to open our eyes and see what we should be seeing, feeling.... good to see you have thick skin...so do I...life keeps adding layers... Never apologize for bearing your heart and soul! Love ya! You know you're in love, when you can't fall asleep,because reality is finally better than your dream~Dr.Seuss |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Steve, Thank you so very much… James, Thank you so much and I will take your advice and share Larry’s story for as long as I breathe… Margherita, You make me smile and feel uplifted… Thank you my friend. ARH, You are truly awesome and I thank you so very much… Tammy<333 |
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Virtual Abyss Member
since 2008-04-09
Posts 52East Coast - USA |
Larrysmom, I just ran across this poem and this is the first I've read of yours. Then I read all the replies and I see there has been some tad-do over it and then a lot of encouragement. I am not going to sit here and claim I am some great poet or anything considering I'm new to this world and this web site. I have been convinced by a very close friend and member of this site (Hardrock) to join and post my writings. I don't have any style, formal training, or have read any books on this stuff. I just began writing one day based on how I felt. My stuff is really raw and it came from inside me. When I finally begin posting, it's more to share it with others (as Hardrock as guided me) vice looking for notoriety or whatever. This is me and a lot (not all) is a snapshot (or photograph) of what's inside my head vice the physical world on the outside. So, to some up this long Reply, when I read your poem... the WOW factor came into effect!!!! I was blown away! This is right up my alley of how my points come across. I hope your new coping mechanism is helping you to release your pain! I am very sorry for your extraordinary loss! Keep Smiling! V/r, Virtual Abyss |
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K-K Member
since 2008-03-13
Posts 153Indiana |
I fel your sorrow deeply, hope you find comfort in your writing. Bless you |
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K-K Member
since 2008-03-13
Posts 153Indiana |
I just read some of the postings, and I would like to say it doesn't matter how you write or what you write in a time of loss. What matters is that you find some sort of release through your writes. I too suffer a loss and I must say if I were to have received negative comments of any sort, it may have discouraged me from posting. Just needed to tell you, don't be discouraged because some people appreciate the emotion of others dealing with the same type of loss. Deeply sorry for your loss. Keep writing and posting, I will be reading!! |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
My dad's education was limited... but he's the one who instilled a love of poetry in me. And when words come from this deep inside a heart... they're beautiful... and they speak directly to other hearts. I haven't been very active on PIP for some time now, but I welcome you! |
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peppermint35 Senior Member
since 2000-05-28
Posts 1106Texas, USA |
You know, I don't think this is terrible at all.. it's so hard to write these feelings. I truly know; I lost my daughter 4 years ago this last April Fools' day.. keep it up; I think it helps. I know this one spoke to me very eloquently. Pepper |
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hiddensmiles Senior Member
since 2008-02-07
Posts 514at the beach... i wish |
Im sorry about your loss JJ |
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hiddensmiles Senior Member
since 2008-02-07
Posts 514at the beach... i wish |
and i wish i could give you a big hug JJ |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Virtual Abyss, Thank you so very much for your kind words, your care, and for sharing some of yourself with me. It is appreciated so much more than you could know. And for you to say, “the WOW factor came into effect!!!!” just blows me away… Thank you so much. K-K, Thank so very much my friend… I hope to see you on Otrib. Peppermint35, I am so very sorry for your loss of your daughter. Thank you so much for your kind words. Your right, it does help, so very much to release the pain in words. Hiddensmiles, Thank you my beautiful friend… You have given me a big hug, I could feel it through your words. Tammy<333 |
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CMGrimm Senior Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 685USA |
just wanted to add my 2 cents here Tammy... The way a poet writes, when thier actually feeling the words for real... IS real.. REAL poetry comes form the heart, not from the textbooks... the critics sometimes think that everyone should adhere to certain rules or conventional techniques.. and thats fine for them and for many others.. But when your writing what you feel, WHEN YOU FEEL IT... sometimes the textbooks just don't have a page for that and you have to make it up as you go along.. I loved this piece Tammy, not because of how it was written.. but because of WHY it was written...... Never be a carbon copy of anybody...make your own impressions. - ANON. |
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CMGrimm Senior Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 685USA |
Me again.... Kurt Vonnegut said, "The only voice you can truly believe in is your own" By that, I think he meant that writers shouldn't try to "reach for" a voice to make themselves heard...or read.. That they should be themselves and write in a tone and use words and grammar that they would use themselves... You've done that here... and I think your message came through loud and clear and heartfelt and most of all REAL... thanks... Chris Never be a carbon copy of anybody...make your own impressions. - ANON. |
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NeonKnight Junior Member
since 2008-04-12
Posts 36New South Wales, Australia |
That was quite a powerful poem, I really liked it. |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
Tammy - I'm so very sorry for your loss but I would most certainly encourage you to continue writing because I feel your pain through your words. I believe we grow more through our feelings than through academic studies. Feelings must be known to exist and you have made them known. A sign of a true poet I would say. A belated welcome to pip. May your stay here bring healing and enlightenment. I don't think we can ever have enough of that. Hugs Helen |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Chris, I do not know what to say… You have just blown me away and thank you just doesn’t seam like enough. Your words have truly made me feel good about my writing as so many here have and, well, just know, that they mean more to me than you could ever imagine… Thank you so very much. Tammy<333 ______________________ NeonKnight, Thank you so much… you have no idea how that makes me feel. __________________________ Helen, Your words mean more to me than you could ever know… Thank you so very much. I have been blown away so many times since finding these pages and I believe I truly have found some of the worlds warmest, caring, and loving people here and I hope to stay around for a long time to come… Tammy<333 |
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Joyce Johnson
since 2001-03-10
Posts 9912Washington State |
Dear Larry's Mom, I have just found your poetry. I am so sorry for your loss and I hope that writing about it brings a bit of healing to you. I too have lost a son. My one and only precious son. However, I was privileged to have him longer than seventeen years and each of those years he lived brought me much joy and pride. I started writing my poems after I lost him and am still composing them. May your younger son bring you nothing but love and happiness. Joyce (Cliff's Mom) |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
there is life after loss...though, life is never the same...although I do believe, to find passionate meaning in his life, will be your solence...it is necessary, so necessary to express, your feelings...your pain, sorrow and believe you me, these friendly faces in these blue pages will not ignore you, but much more, encourage you, lift you and warm you. Please know, that when you hurt, we hurt... I will light a candle tonight...for you... in hopes that find strength and understanding thru your writing...you have a family here at PIP.... I truly am so sorry God bless you and yours... Lee J. |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Cliff’s Mom, I am so sorry for your loss of your son Cliff. Thank you so much for your kind and caring words. Larry also brought me so much joy, happiness and pride each and every year he was with me and his memory still does even though his physical absence brings such pain and sorrow… Darrin (my youngest) is my strength and he continues to be my reason. _______________________________ Lee J., Thank you so much for your warm and kind words and for lighting a candle… As you said, I have already found many a new, kind, caring and compassionate friends here in these blue pages and they truly have encouraged, warmed, and lifted me. They so truly have. I have found much comfort in writing and even more in sharing what I write, and I am truly happy I found these blue pages. You are right though… life will be…just never the same again without Larry. Tammy<333 |
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