A strange feeling sturr's
When I come near.
I know it isn't love.
Just lust.
But this lust is wrong.
Ur a guy.. I'm a guy..
Something's wrong here I can feel it..
Lurking deep inside is the desire again..
But I feel a pull on my heart everytime I'm with you.
I wish to be with you.
But morals tell me "no"..
Why is this?

I feel a tug on my heart for there's also another girl in my life.
I love her unconditionally..
But no lust is found in her.
Only you..
I can't say this is love.
What's happening all power up above?
I'm left in tears wishing I was someone else.
Why am I like this?
Did I do something wrong?
Is this punishment?
I desire for guys.. but..
My emotions still cling for a girl.  
Who am I.. I don't know the person in the mirror.
Realized on who I am..
Scared to tell the world.
Let this pen scribble the pain down..
How can I tell them who I am inside..
Will they reject me.. will they cast me away?
Will they throw stones or shun me for eternity and forever more..?
This is the character that I play..
Another mask for me to shatter.
I can't bare the burden held like a knife to my throat.
People need to know.. But it scares me and breaks me down into tears to  see their soul die.
To see the light in there eyes go out.
Like a candle in the night.
But they put up a smile and say "Its okay. I always knew something was different."
What's that I hear? A window broken? No.. it sa heart breaking..
This is my fear.
I hope they'll understand on where I stand.
I hope they care that i'll be gone.
Because I can't stand to see them cry or lash out..
I need to this.. It might be social suicide but This knife is cutting in deep..
So good bye old self.
Hello the real me..


"In this passage that you read was more me venting then writing poetry. Sorry if you were hoping for a poem but I needed to get things of my mind. Sometimes I think I spend to much time within my own mind then I should .. In this passage I am speaking the whole truth.. I decided to "come out of the closet." I am bisexual at the age of 15. Yes I know what I am so don't ask me if I'm sure of not. Trust I am. If your against things like this its okay. I'm not one to force people into believing/accepting something they shouldn't or don't want to.. People are free to their own opinion as do I have that right too. So I hoped at least this "venting write" kept you entertained for a while... *sigh* Okay I'm done lecturing my case. *hehe* Leave a comment or run off and go searching the rest of the amazing poems here on Piptalk..

C'ya later,

-Zachary B.  

"Only in darkness can we see the stars.
And only there is it darkest before the dawn."

Zach ... and all other readers of this piece~
My heart goes out to anyone with an issue that disturbs them to the degree that you and others wrestle with this part of your life~

It is such a difficult time of discovery of who and what you are ... a time of not only admitting to yourself about who you might be, but hoping to try to present the idea to family, friends and others~

Be not ashamed of who you are ... take pride in the fact that you live in a society where all facets of your personality are YOURS ... when you live your life free from guilt about yourself ... you begin to live~

Walk slowly through life ... it is quite a journey to be savored~

Blessings to you~
*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*The sound of a kiss is not as strong as that of a cannon, but it's echo endures much longer*~
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"Only in darkness can we see the stars.
And only there is it darkest before the dawn."