Sinners Can Be Forgiven.. But Heart Breakers Go To Hell!!

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RevengeIsMine
Senior Member

since 2006-07-08

Posts 820
Australia

0 posted 2008-01-29 01:47 AM

Okay Guys.. I guys my prince charming it seems only loved me while he had concussion.. So for you to understand this poem you need to know the story so here goes.. I fell in love with a guy i didn't know.. we met like 2 years ago.. When i met him (Via here btw) he and grew close we spoke on msn all the time and i had no real friends so he became my light at the end of the tunnel.. I shared with him the truth about everything.. that i had a daughter and that she was conceived by me being rapped i told him about my family and how they didn't approve of Ella.. I got postnatal depression with Ella and he was my councilor i told him everything.. i trusted him.. We lost contact after a while and things got worse for me.. when Ella died he tried to contact me again but i disappeared from the world cause i didn't know how to control my grief.. Now we were in contact again and so much had changed.. So he found a myspace page that was under my account it's not mine, it's my cousins (also my best friend).. My cousin has been living with us and she used my hotmail account to save her creating a new one because i refuse to use myspace or any other online blog because i don't class them as safe.. now he's annoyed at me over it and thinks everythings a lie (Her name is the same as mine and yea she's a member here too (Heaven'sLilAngel).. (she's 16) I'm almost (18) I've sinned in the past but this aint one of my sins and i'm done trying with him.. He doesn't know how bad it is to hurt like i do.. yea everyone has a rough go but I'm done with being hurt.. by my dad, him or anyone.. So this might be my last post in here for a while.. it's a good poem don't get me wrong but i wish i didn't have to write it..

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Sinners Can Be Forgiven .. But Heart Breakers Go To Hell!!

Seems like just yesterday
The first time we met
It seemed like true love
But now it’s something i regret

I shared the world with you
Stuff nobody else knew
But instead you tore my heart away
Just to see the view

You know sometimes
I’d sit by the window at night
I could see you smile
In the stars bright light

I was stupid to fall in love
With a guy who made me feel great
I guess I didn’t deserve happiness
And karma was running late

We had something special
But we got lost in the better dissent
Couldn’t escape the jungle
Of love and resent

I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
You stabbed me with a piece of glass
You left me bleeding while you ran away

I’ve made my mistakes
But this isn’t one
So if you could trust in only me
I wouldn’t have to run..

Where was the trust
When we needed it the most
Where was the map
When we got lost

You said you hated hurting me
I guess u found it fun
You’ve hurt me so much
That now i have no choice but to run

I can’t stick around
Everything reminds me of you
And I can’t keep being sad
If i’m trying to get over you

Ella would be turning in her grave
If she knew what you did
This time it’s really over
This time I can’t forgive

You can keep crying
Because you won't escape this cell
Sinners can be forgiven
But Heart Breakers go to hell!!

young_blood
Senior Member

since 2003-09-19

Posts 1115
Indianapolis, IN

1 posted 2008-01-29 12:48 PM

all that I can say is that I'm sorry. no one should have to experience these things. I truly am greiving for you. I pray things grow better for you.

XxForever.BrokenxX
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since 2008-01-20

Posts 891
Neverland

2 posted 2008-01-29 06:22 PM

I can't say I know hwo u feel but for some reason, while i was reading this, my heart was aching. Okay maybe i know a little but not from a situation like yours. You will and can get through ur problems, as long as u have faith... (haha if only that would work for me!)

FoReVeR.BrOkEn

RevengeIsMine
Senior Member

since 2006-07-08

Posts 820
Australia

3 posted 2008-01-29 07:21 PM

Thanks guys.. it's like each time i tear down a barracade another one gets built.. and it is just too much for me atm.. i know its all about being strong and getting through it but before now every bad thing that happens in my life i run from...So this time i'm trying not run.. i have nothing to hide and i'm not a fake.. if every bit of emotion i pour into these poems are fake then i won't write.. But i know i'm real god everybody is real. nobody is fake..
So thanks again,
Jess

hunnie_girl

Member Elite

since 2006-06-18

Posts 2567
Canada

4 posted 2008-01-29 11:13 PM

Wow Jess hunn this wuz the most amazing and one of the most meaningful poems I have read... really... I can't believe he is doing this, but it is definately his loss. I hope things get better for you and if you need to talk just drop me a line... talk to you soon sweetie
Best Wishes
Krysti

RenaissanceRomanceRunsRed
Senior Member

since 2007-06-11

Posts 1062
In Love <3

5 posted 2008-01-30 05:23 PM

umm guesses are only half of life- the other half is the truth.

But instead you tore my heart away
Just to see the view

that was the most heart wretching thing i'd ever read- believe me, i really understand your feelings here- even if i haven't had the experiences.

-Kate

and in the daylight i miss the nightmare- but deathly fear it in the dark of night

I am the arch angel
Member

since 2008-02-02

Posts 167
nowhere,illinois,USA

6 posted 2008-02-03 04:43 PM

jess i'm deeply touched why is that this is the poem that sticks out to me, maybe becuz ive been in a situation somehwat like this but vice versa i actually was tear drawn this was beautiful

~-Keagan-~

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