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Juju Member Elite
since 2003-12-29
Posts 3429In your dreams 
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Lately, My life has been strange none the less. So I have become more inward in consequence. I have a really hard time deally with my friends lately because they are extreemly socailly immature. Sometimes imature all around. They are so bad that one whom used to claim she was my friend is now not letting me speak really to other poeple. I am just there really to make her look better and to set down and listen to her and the guy she was dating talk. And this is not interesting stuff either. No it is things they have already talked about like repeating a comedian they heard 300 times or some internet movie song they memorise and start singing. Then if I don't sing along I get shunned. Completly forgetting that I am ADD and I am complety not interested in watching some comedian I have watched for the tenth time or so. They get mad when I bring my homework to DND even thought they don't start for an hour and a half and durring DND I am not allowed to make my own decisions. I just sit there and roll the dice. I am not allowed to ask questions to poeple and I get interupted when I try in the game as well. So out of anger I quit. not just the game, but everything. Thats right I quit. I can't take it any more. Even if it is all me (as they say, but I have witnesses on my side) I shouldn't be around poeple that treat me horrible. I feel used and sad. So even though I still want to be friends with them over all I am going to back away from the poeple that hurt me and still talk to the others, but i can't be with them as much I gues since the group as a hole sticks to gether. I guess you know that I have this problem of letting poeple do this stuff to me. Because I have fallen prey to it many times in my life. And honestly I am afraid of my future. I am glad though that I can always read from you guys you all have such wonderful wisdom that I need in my life, because I guess I am alittle ignorent. I went to a counceler(PHD) about my problems and she told me that I would me more likely to fall prey to people turning on me and hurting me. Its because of every thing I had gone though. so I am resisting it. It hurts becuase I know part of me let it get this bad. I am afraid of relationships becausee of this as well. because I am in this endless cycle. I refuse to become my mom. Where every one she loves hurts her. I refuse to let it keep going. -Juju -<>-~-<>-~-<>- * Juju * -<>-~-<>-~-<>- |
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skyshine 
since 2002-02-07
Posts 3058Beneath the northern stars |
Hi Juju--I have been in the same position. I don't have much time now but I will reply with more to say when I have more time. Take care!  ~sky I hope someday you get the chance to live like you were dying.... |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
juju why would you want to be friends with people who use you for their own purposes and who do not make you feel good when around them. If you just reread your words you will see you are better off making new friends or joining a new group and other than that why be in a group at all...why not just make a variety of new friends so when you want to do one thing you have someone to share it with and if you choose to do another you have a friend to do that with. I decided long ago not to be in a group that excludes people. SoI have many friends from all over with a variety of personalities and interests. It makes life more interesting.  M |
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Juju Member Elite
since 2003-12-29
Posts 3429In your dreams |
You know it kinda happened by accident, they all met and became friends though me. But yes I have other friends. -Juju -<>-~-<>-~-<>- |
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Not A Poet Member Elite
since 1999-11-03
Posts 3885Oklahoma, USA |
Juju, I believe you are a beautiful and intelligent young woman. You have no need to associate with people who would use you for their own entertainment without concern for your own wellbeing. University is a large and diverse place. There are many there who would love to be your friend. Go out and cultivate more relationships. Here's wishing you the very best of luck. Pete |
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skyshine
since 2002-02-07
Posts 3058Beneath the northern stars |
OK, here I am with a more in depth reply. It is weird that everyone got to know each other through you, and now you are the one being excluded. I haven't had exactly the same thing happen to me, but I've had something similar: when I was the passive one whose friends came first, everyone just loved me, but when I picked other people over my friends (like my family and my fiance--he's my husband now but anyway) I was selfish, I was "letting a guy change me," etc. Never mind that the people that said those things to me would pick their families, boyfriends, and their other friends over me ANY day. Yo know, it is really sad that we are in college and people want to pull the same childish actions as a grade schooler. I guess human nature never changes, does it? I hope someday you get the chance to live like you were dying.... ~Tim McGraw |
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Juju Member Elite
since 2003-12-29
Posts 3429In your dreams |
Well, I think it is that I let them do it. Once they started doing more things together I should have started going with other friends emmediantly just to diversify. Idont know. I was talking to a friend and they say when I get mad I become irrational, but now it seems I agree more with what I have been doing. -<>-~-<>-~-<>- |
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Juju Member Elite
since 2003-12-29
Posts 3429In your dreams |
to make it seem like that last sentance flow a little more some of the other ones think I am over reacting. so that is what the comment was reffering to ... 200 at night ... Juju |
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latteaddict213
since 2006-02-17
Posts 523Colorado |
i haven't been exactly where you are but kinda close. all of my friends every single one of them met and became friends through me. then they started getting in to these huge fights and a few friends blamed me. they stoped hanging around with me or any other people who even had contact with me. eventualy they got over themselfs (and also forgot why they where mad at me) and we all started talking again. if your friens are realy being that selfish start hanging out with some of your other friends that aren't like they are. you should never feel used its not right. Jessica |
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