Open Poetry #39 |
i still remember |
um_idk Junior Member
since 2006-09-27
Posts 32minnesota |
since i was little ive kept this all botled up inside but now ive gotta let it all out and let you no how just i fell even though years have passed since you have been that person i still remember all the things you use to do and i still feel the pain i use to feel now after all this time of keepin it inside of me i am hateing you for it and paying for it each and everydayi still remeber those nights when i would lay on the bathroom floor and cry cry while hearin you yell and beat my mother i still remember wakin up the next morning and seeing bruises around my mothers beautifullbrown eyes i still remember how the fear i felt fear to come home and go trough another night of abusing and you think everything is ok now but it will never be ok these scars will forever be in my mind i will always remember what you have done ive tryed to get over the feelings i feel but the more i try the more hate and pain i feel every time i try to talk to you you push me away you say the past is the past but for me father the past is my present and my future and i will never forget it i wrote this for my step dad not for my real |
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Kira Aso Member
since 2006-09-26
Posts 351Closer to Hell... |
This brought tears to my eyes. I can't say I relate to it on the same level but I really understand the feeling behind your poem. Very moving...Kira. |
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um_idk Junior Member
since 2006-09-27
Posts 32minnesota |
thank you much |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
No one was born to be a punching bag, and no child should ever have to see or hear such abuse. And if this is your personal experience? I offer you warm heart hugs; but don't let your anger eat you up, fill you with hatred...it's better to talk or write it out. And hopefully, someone took legal and physical steps to stop this abuse. |
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um_idk Junior Member
since 2006-09-27
Posts 32minnesota |
awww thanx but its all over now i hope |
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aziza Member Elite
since 2006-07-09
Posts 2995Lumpy Oatmeal makes me Crazy! |
You know, your poem was sad -- but I am glad you are writing. It takes so much time to move on. Maybe you will never forgive -- and if you do, you will never forget. The fact is, I think we wear these memories like battle scars. Each one hurts sometimes when it rains, but we know in time the pain will grow less and, though we will always know those scars are there, we will move on a bit more from them. Please, please, please keep writing. One thing that helped me as a victim of family molestation was to write and talk. I freely speak to people about how I grew up. Not everyone, but I speak out at events like "Bring Back the Night" to let people know that we are real victims. But, that does not make us weak. It can make us powerful. Your writing is power. I say keep writing. Don't hide how you feel, let that feeling be heard -- that is a step to moving on. That's how I see it anyway. Just remember one thing, he does not control you. You control you and you can make it with or without him in your life. Only you can decide which it will be. I wish you all the luck .. and sorry for the letter here. Your poem moved me on many different levels. Alison |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
to you |
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anwaarhassan Member
since 2003-07-09
Posts 181Menifee, CA |
Hope the present and the future hold great promise for one who has suffered much...Wish you all the best. YOur poem was written with great feeling and depth !! |
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um_idk Junior Member
since 2006-09-27
Posts 32minnesota |
thanks dont even no yous but that ment alot |
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