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A Mothers Love
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A Mothers Love |
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twinkyfl1 Member
since 2006-12-15
Posts 133florida |
A mother's love is heaven A mother's love is hell She can let you go and free you Or she can lock you in a cell. A cell where you'll remember All the love she didn't give And you'll search the whole world over For that love so you can live. You'll think you've found it everytime That someone says "I love you" But eventually you'll come to find They put all else above you. The path you walk is strewned around With broken hopes and dreams And yet somehow you're holding on When all inside you screams. How could you do this to me? Just turn your back and go? I love you, yet I hate you Still God I need you so. I will not fight you anymore I've given up, you've won Your worn out, played out memory No longer will be sung. For now that I have grown up I no longer need the child Who bore my childhood grief for me And caused me to run wild. I'll say hello to women-hood And the life that lies before me A sad goodbye to my inner child Will free me and restore me. To be what I can finally be To reach for skies of blue To find the love inside of me A rainbow shining through. To thy own self be true [This message has been edited by twinkyfl1 (12-18-2006 12:38 PM).] |
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Roniece Dawson-Bruce Member Ascendant
since 2000-01-29
Posts 5689Sydney, Australia |
ah dear sweet June... a Mother's love is always there... we may differ on our views but it's always there.... enjoyed this write of yours - be well RDB |
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twinkyfl1 Member
since 2006-12-15
Posts 133florida |
Roniece, I'm sure she loved us as much as she was capable of. Unfortunately her capabilities were practically non-existent. If it was just her short comings in regards to myself, I could maybe forgive her, but it's unbearably hard when I remember that she was directly responsible for my favorite brother's suicide, and then laughed at his funeral, but it's even harder, when the son (my nephew) of that same brother took his own life, 20 years later, using the same method that my brother used. My mother was dead by then, but it almost seemed to me, as if she reached out from the grave for him. The reason I tell you this, is so you don't think that I'm petty enough to feel the way I do about her just because she may have grounded me a few times or something trifling like that. All six of us kids have physical and emotional scars that we carry to this day because of her. None of us escaped unscathed. But the fact of the matter is I still love her. A perfect example of the resiliency and tenacity of a child's love for it's parent. Forgiving her is, to this day an on going process because of the love hate thing I struggle with towards her. But how could you be expected to know what my mother was. It isn't the image that most people think of when they hear the word Mother, and all that that image implies. Your assumption was perfectly understandable, and no harm done. However, your words stirred some unrecognized feeling up in me, compelling me to write this explanation. You or others may find this a bit strange, but oddly enough, for some stranger reason, I don't. I would like to thank you for commenting on this piece, and I hope you will forgive this rant or rave. I'm actually at a loss for words as to what to call it. It just came spilling out. For that I am sorry, even though I'm not quite sure just what it is that I'm sorry for. Hopefully you'll understand what I don't. To thy own self be true |
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trutodaraiders Senior Member
since 2006-12-02
Posts 820CA |
*HUGS* |
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twinkyfl1 Member
since 2006-12-15
Posts 133florida |
Oh, you give great hugs. |
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Roniece Dawson-Bruce Member Ascendant
since 2000-01-29
Posts 5689Sydney, Australia |
Dear sweet June... I have just now read your response... you are a very brave and courageous young woman... thank you for sharing your emotions and your pain with us here... we value your writings very much.. I am sorry for your loss of loved ones... I wish I could give you a hug to take some of the pain away for a little while... you are in my thoughts. Love Roniece xx |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
I give good hugs too com'ere you  |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
June Marie, I cannot seem to find words that express my feelings. Having been a Child Protective Service Caseworker there is little I haven't seen or heard and much I won't repeat. But each of us must tell our story as much as the rest us need to hear it. My heart aches for your pain but is mostly impressed by your resiliency and endurance. May God continue to grant you peace, courage and strength. Personally I have found writing to be incredibly healing. If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. |
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Interloper
since 2000-11-06
Posts 8369Deep in the heart |
gr8 write |
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twinkyfl1 Member
since 2006-12-15
Posts 133florida |
Larry, I feel the warmth of your support flow over me like a golden benediction, as I sit here at the keyboard of my computer (my lifeline). What gives me the strength and courage to go on, is the love of one who recently came into my life, and resides in my heart. The One I know that will never let me down. There were two times in the past that I briefly found him, only to lose him in the ensuing chaos and turmoil that was my life. Since then I have fled him even as I sought to flee my self. But still he wouldn't abandon me. He was at my side unknown, sometimes weeping copiously as I sought to destroy all that might have been good in my life, and yes even my life itself. Through it all He had His hand over me, saving me from myself. All the poems I have posted so far, with the exception of one that I wrote for my daughter recently, are from my past, and the few remaining ones I'll post in the future, are from my past also. So when you view these poems, don't be concerned, because they no longer concern my now, but only my yesterdays. I don't 100% know why I'm posting them here, but somewhere within myself I feel that there is a good reason why I do so. Well, let me end this mini novel. It certainly wasn't intended to be such. Again thank you. To thy own self be true |
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twinkyfl1 Member
since 2006-12-15
Posts 133florida |
Thank you Interloper. Glad you think so. |
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