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LeeJ
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since 2003-06-19

Posts 13296

0 posted 2006-11-19 10:00 PM

Wait…invades my privacy
always on the edge
what have I been doing lately
within these years of 10
surprise obviously, all gone
my form of fashion
listening to the refrigerator
turning on and off, off and on
despite character break-ins
a shriek of silent feet rob me of
stacks of correspondence
taking their position
in a dead bolt stance
voices dash up the stairs
and down the hall screaming
“come home, come home”
clandestine nights, weather winter
have I turned cold?
covering me with perspective
from a hundred years ago
finally
I find the courage to shout out loud
“just what is my role in this community”
have I literally thrown away a life story
that could have been a best seller?
well, at least on the shelves of
Barnes and Noble?

ahhhh these autumn years seem
like freshly brewed dark coffee
keeping me awake, even though
I struggle to sleep
curiosity eventually neuters
an independent streak

now I know why older folks can’t sleep
while wondering around that question
Have I Done Enough?

Self exploration can sometimes be
dirty words....

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

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displaced

1 posted 2006-11-19 10:02 PM

I'm getting to that point myself Lee

The Lady
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since 2005-12-26

Posts 7634
The Southwest

2 posted 2006-11-19 11:51 PM

"Self exploration can sometimes be
dirty words...."

ooohhh
hard hitting
so good!

wredgranny
Member

since 2006-11-18

Posts 493
Ky. USA

3 posted 2006-11-20 01:15 AM

ahhhh these autumn years seem
like freshly brewed dark coffee
keeping me awake, even though
I struggle to sleep
curiosity eventually neuters
an independent streak

now I know why older folks can’t sleep
while wondering around that question
Have I Done Enough?

Self exploration can sometimes be
dirty words....

Siyo LeeJ sigi for this sharing we are so hard on our self,yes,worrying did we do enough,the right things,but they are done dear one like explore a sore tooth sometimes best to leave be maybe?I like very much how you say this,our Autumn years we fear so long when finaly they are here we feel nothing but relief?
blessings

granny!

HopeS
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since 2000-12-22

Posts 4596
Perth Western Australia

4 posted 2006-11-20 01:28 AM

Awake at night , struggling to sleep , Lee that descibes me

Hope

Interloper

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since 2000-11-06

Posts 8369
Deep in the heart

5 posted 2006-11-20 09:35 AM

"have I literally thrown away a life story
that could have been a best seller?"

I love it all and love the above most of all

Fool, said my Muse to me, look in thy heart and write.

Martie

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since 1999-09-21

Posts 28049
California

6 posted 2006-11-20 10:21 AM

LeeJ....Some times self exploration is forced upon us...it may not feel so good but I think in the end it changes the way we appear. Deep poem, my friend...truth in words.

Angel4aKing
Senior Member

since 2006-09-27

Posts 1372
USA

7 posted 2006-11-20 11:36 AM

This is very good...something we have all thought about a time or two....take care...Julie

kingsangel

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since 2002-08-27

Posts 40215
Realms of Light

8 posted 2006-11-20 01:22 PM

M'Dear, I hope that when you look inside, that you see the beauty that others see!

Your ability to look within and without enables you to be the wonderful writer ~ and woman! ~ that you are.

Sending you a big, healing, hug-o-love,
Linda

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

9 posted 2006-11-21 04:54 PM

Nice writing...James

JL
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since 2004-04-01

Posts 6128
Texas, USA

10 posted 2006-11-26 10:12 PM

Don’t we all suffer this examination of self worth?
Some do it with pity on their mind.  Some with a closet filled with repentance.
Others look to the sunrise with hope, the knowing that life continues, and will forever.
Heaven and the universe are next to be explored.  Melancholy.  Take away the l a n c, and you are what is left over.  Melancholy will fade away; suffering, death, tears, testing, and strife will all be past, and someday forgotten forever.
“To Much Time for Contemplation” I know that story you speak of.
Wonderful write Lee J.  Enjoyed.

JL

Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed:
blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed.
~Jesus Christ

miscellanea
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since 2004-06-24

Posts 4060
OH

11 posted 2006-11-26 10:32 PM

too much contemplation? just right for me and maybe Barnes and Noble, too!

I haven't been here much lately, but at the few times I've been here, I've missed your name, and wondered if you were still writing. It is a pleasure to find that you are in full force! I liked your poem A LOT!

misc

Honeybunch
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since 2001-12-29

Posts 7115
South Africa

12 posted 2006-11-27 01:16 AM

LeeJ - once again you so masterfully speak for so many of us but I guess we just need to remember that we did the best we could with what we had at the time. When the "who we are now" looks back it is perhaps to know that we could have done and been so much more ... if only.

I too have missed your words although I myself haven't been around much lately. Wonderful write, LeeJ! Thank you!

CharmedOne615
Junior Member

since 2006-11-22

Posts 12

13 posted 2006-12-04 09:14 AM

ah ok...found ya.
This is really good.
As a young person I cant relate to whats going on here, but at least I DO know.
I have alot of family that would really appreciate this poem.
Excellent work.

Seymour Tabin
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since 1999-07-07

Posts 31720
Tamarac Fla

14 posted 2006-12-04 09:38 AM

LeeJ,
You cook the brine of appear
And dine on its fear. Sorry I'm late.

trutodaraiders
Senior Member

since 2006-12-02

Posts 820
CA

15 posted 2006-12-04 12:42 PM

I am only 27, but I know even if I was 77 that I would reflect back, and ponder about more things that I could have done; or the things that I would have done differently. You did a great job on captureing your thoughts. I liked this write. Thank you for the read.

Poetry is just the evidence of life.
If your life is burning well, poetry is just the ash. "
Leon Cohen~

latearrival
Member Ascendant

since 2003-03-21

Posts 5499
Florida

16 posted 2006-12-06 03:41 AM

We are all often too harsh on ourselves.We don't see ourselves as others see us. We should look deeper into their thoughts and might find ourselves to be surprised.. How do we know whose life we may have helped, or caused to change? love ya, martyjo

Roniece Dawson-Bruce
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since 2000-01-29

Posts 5689
Sydney, Australia

17 posted 2006-12-06 03:45 AM

just lovely! RDB

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