Susan Caldwell
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Florida
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2006-04-10
01:37 PM
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I keep my burden close So nothing spills out upon your shoes This darkness I prefer Has nothing to do with not wanting you
I carry a weight on my shoulders Drags me down and I can’t pretend This world will every be what I want and I won’t let you waste yourself Or feel sorry for me
It doesn’t mean I don’t love you With every little tiny part of good I have But this illness wears me out and in No matter how much I want you There is no place to begin
With me
I wish so much more for you Then I am capable of giving It kills me to have to pull away Yet I know if you stay This shroud of impossible and eternally doomed Will engulf you too
I wouldn’t be able to handle Seeing the light go from your eyes I couldn’t bare the thought of your dreams dying Because of the lack of mine
It doesn’t mean I don’t love you With every little tiny part of good I have But this illness wears me out and in No matter how much I want you There is no place to begin
With me
--------------------------------- For a friend, because it must be hard.
"too bad ignorance isn't painful" ~Unknown~
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Martie
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2006-04-10
01:47 PM
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Susan
I understand this feeling from my own life. You wrote it very well.
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Earth Angel
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Realms of Light
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2006-04-10
02:04 PM
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Susan, from the poems of yours that I have had the pleasure of reading, I gather that you have had a wide range of life experiences. It is from this well (and your compassionate heart) that you are able to draw your understanding of what others are going through in their own lives.
You have a caring ~ and poetic! ~ soul.
Hugs with love, Linda
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1slick_lady
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standing on a shadow's lace
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2006-04-10
02:10 PM
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this just aches i love you enough...to let you ...go
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Susan Caldwell
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Florida
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2006-04-11
08:57 AM
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Thank you, Martie, Linda and Helen.
I couldn't get this out of my mind when a friend told me this is what they had done...
I kept wondering if they saw the irony of thinking they are lost, with no redeeming factors (or very little) and that they cared so deeply for someone else that they put that person before themselves....
"too bad ignorance isn't painful" ~Unknown~
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icebox
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in the shadows
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2006-04-11
03:46 PM
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"This darkness I prefer Has nothing to do with not wanting you"
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...OK...no words in my head...did you take them all?
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inkedgoddess
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2006-04-11
10:59 PM
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No matter how much I want you There is no place to begin
*********************** and so it goes sometimes, its just best that way...too much work for some people to hold on
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Greeneyes
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2006-04-11
11:25 PM
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Susan~
firstly
secondly
I could read you for hours on end....you have so much truth within you and it shows when you write.... And so it those we live with and should know who elude us But we can still love them we can love completely without complete understanding
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Susan Caldwell
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Florida
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2006-04-12
08:59 AM
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Icy, I doubt that you are ever out of words..and I for one could listen to you forever.
Michele, not too much work, but rather an illness they have little control over and they don't want that burden on the other. It's the ultimate sacrifice.
Lauren, thank you, "too bad ignorance isn't painful" ~Unknown~
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Ericc
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2006-04-12
01:33 PM
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Wow...very, very powerful.
Eric
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StevenS
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2006-04-12
02:11 PM
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I can say for sure that feeling can be overcome! You describe it hurtfully well Susan. Something that is hard for the person experincing that sort of pain to do. Your friend is in my prayers! :-)
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Enchantress
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Canada eh.
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2006-04-12
02:15 PM
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Such an ache in your words Susan. You have such a caring soul. Heart hugs, Nancy~ Trace my body with your words, in doing so, you touch my heart ~
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lyricpoet
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2006-04-12
02:19 PM
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Very powerful write with alot of emotional depth! www.freewebs.com/kevinbrianwright
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Honeybunch
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South Africa
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2006-04-12
03:01 PM
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A most impressive write but so very, very, sad. Life isn't just unfair - it's downright despicable at times.
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sweetberry
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2006-05-24
03:40 AM
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I enjoyed this write...very touching!
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Susan Caldwell
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Florida
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2006-05-24
11:23 AM
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geez...so many replies I was remiss in thanking!!
Thank you! "too bad ignorance isn't painful" ~Unknown~
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