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Open Poetry #37

I no longer know

Kellie_Cantrell
Senior Member

since 2002-05-22

Posts 1667
New York

0 posted 2006-03-31 06:55 AM

I've lost them.
All to my own captivity.
Fear. Hides beneath this false tranquility.
Now. It's my reality.

I no longer know,
my own joy.

I no longer know,
my own hopes.

I no longer know,
my own desires.

I've lost them.
All to my own shame.
Lost. Hides beneath this mask I wear.
Now. it's my share.

My share to revel in.
To bind myself and then. Possibly,
let myself free.
Or sit tormented in my own captivity.

I know longer know,
my fate, or even who I am.
Lost. Where can I find me again?

Toerag
Member Ascendant

since 1999-07-29

Posts 5622
Ala bam a

1 posted 2006-03-31 07:56 AM

I know where I'd like to find ya..but that's for another thread on the "mature" board......maybe next to my "Pond That Has No Ripples?"....

JL
Member Ascendant

since 2004-04-01

Posts 6128
Texas, USA

2 posted 2006-03-31 11:39 AM

"Or sit tormented in my own captivity."

NO!
Don't go there.
It isn't worth it.
Enjoyed the write, but stay off that stage.

JL

Honeybunch
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-29

Posts 7115
South Africa

3 posted 2006-03-31 12:56 PM

"Where can I find me again?" I guess we all find ourselves in different places but sometimes the finding can seem to take forever. Perhaps in the silence of introspection you will come across a queen and say, "Hey, is that me?"

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

4 posted 2006-03-31 02:18 PM

I know these feelings so well Kellie...more than I can say.

One day we do find ourselves though, it just takes some time and elbow grease.

Midnitesun

Member Empyrean

since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

5 posted 2006-03-31 02:34 PM

I remember finding a piece of myself once when I should have let it stay lost.

Does that make any sense? Sigh, sometimes we like what we find, sometimes not, but we can only move forwards anyway, not backwards...I think.
Nice introspective write Kellie.

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