Susan Caldwell
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since 2002-12-27
Posts 8348
Florida
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2005-11-14
01:37 PM
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I am tired Will you not give me that? You must know That I don’t listen to you anymore The little girl grew up
Yelling doesn’t scare me like it used to I walk away from the anger in your eyes Blaming anyone within sight
Our blood is tainted With the dysfunction Of your dysfunction
Not that I claim perfection But that I could at least dream of it While you concentrated on making misery To lesson your own
And now?
My babies fight And I blame you for not being What you were obligated to be The day you called yourself a father
"too bad ignorance isn't painful" ~Unknown~
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Susan Caldwell
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Constance
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since 2001-07-28
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Ohio
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2005-11-14
02:27 PM
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Powerfully painful. Beautifully captured in just the right words and phrasing. Bravo!
Smiles, Constance
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Earth Angel
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since 2002-08-27
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Realms of Light
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2005-11-14
03:28 PM
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Susan, the misery that you have experienced is almost palpable with the power of your words ~ but through them, your strength is shining through.
A fine example of a cathartic spill from a newly empowered solar plexus.
 Linda
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inkedgoddess
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since 2002-11-19
Posts 7392
Ohio
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2005-11-14
03:29 PM
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full of pain and no punches pulled as always feeling it over here...sorry for your anguish, glad you are free of him somewhat
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Kaoru
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since 2003-06-07
Posts 3892
where the wild flowers grow
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posted
2005-11-14
03:50 PM
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It makes me think a lot about my own father..I understand the pain in this.
Thanks for this, S. Really.
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Greeneyes
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since 2000-09-09
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In Your Poetic Mind
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2005-11-15
11:16 AM
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and then some.....I hear the ache with in this.... ~~**~~ There are moments when speech is but a mouth pressed lightly and humbly against the angel's hands ~~**~~
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stevebrklynnyc
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since 2004-01-04
Posts 292
GA, Camden
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posted
2005-11-16
09:35 AM
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Strong words from a strong woman.
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Nightshade
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since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962
just out of reach
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posted
2005-11-16
09:54 AM
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Right on and .. write on Susan !! hugging you in understanding, ChrisPoetry is an echo, asking a shadow to dance. ~Carl Sandburg
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Gentle Spirit
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since 2000-10-09
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posted
2005-11-16
10:11 AM
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more than understand this Susan...
you know I know hon. Hugs you, and peace....
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1slick_lady
Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088
standing on a shadow's lace
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2005-11-16
01:24 PM
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very good !!! very very good
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Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis
since 2002-12-27
Posts 8348
Florida
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posted
2005-11-17
10:11 AM
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Thank you everyone!  "too bad ignorance isn't painful" ~Unknown~
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Mistletoe Angel
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2005-11-18
07:10 PM
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(angel comforting hugs) Oh Susan, I can understand ever soooooo much that we all hurt and have demons in life, but I pity those like the man who speak of who, rather than positively fusing the frustration into determination not to repeat the past and be good parents, to instead only inflicting the despair and apathy and neglect on their own children! (sad sigh) God Bless You, sweet friend, you speak with a golden, gentle heart, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Susan, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!
Love, Noah Eaton "If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other"
Mother Teresa
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dreamdc
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since 2005-11-11
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Utah, USA
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posted
2005-11-18
11:51 PM
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Wow, this really touched me, much more than most would know. Thank you for sharing it.
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MGROVES
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since 2004-02-01
Posts 3802
california
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2005-11-19
07:48 AM
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good strong writeMy spirit will rise above the sea~ There will be no drowning of my soul or me~
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SmartChick
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On A Journey To The Unknown
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2005-11-19
07:57 AM
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I understand.
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Sunshine
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Listening to every heart
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2005-11-19
08:36 AM
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JesusChristPose
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since 2005-06-21
Posts 777
Pittsburgh, Pa
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posted
2005-11-19
06:35 PM
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Well done, Susan!
I enjoyed this and you described your feelings in words very well, but then of course you would. 
This means much to me, too. I would change the ending to, "mother."
Thanks for sharing!
Mike
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Balladeer
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posted
2005-11-19
09:57 PM
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Ouch! 
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Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis
since 2002-12-27
Posts 8348
Florida
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2005-11-21
11:08 AM
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Thank you everyone!!
"too bad ignorance isn't painful" ~Unknown~
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luminosity
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since 2005-11-18
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2005-11-21
02:10 PM
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i know 'this place' that you write of, i know this person, sometimes i think...that i have been near this person so long that i have become this person...sigh
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garysgirl
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since 2002-09-29
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Florida, USA
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2005-11-21
02:21 PM
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Susan, I understand this completely!!! All of it...... And, you wrote of it perfectly!!!! Some very Tender Hugs to you, my friend, Ethel
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Aenimal
Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350
the ass-end of space
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2005-11-23
01:08 PM
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yeah, this is the one i was looking for. this one digs deep. hugs beautiful
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Martie
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California
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2005-11-23
01:36 PM
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Susan
Strong words....not easy to be so strong always...I admire you! 
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Larry C
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United States
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2005-11-23
04:02 PM
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Susan, Insight and courage too! The sorrow is palpable in this write. Peace.  If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.
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Enchantress
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since 2001-08-14
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Canada eh.
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2005-11-23
04:06 PM
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*Hugging you tight*~ Trace my body with your words.. in doing so, you touch my heart ~
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scorpio
Member Ascendant
since 2002-10-02
Posts 5178
right...there
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posted
2005-11-23
04:12 PM
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Poignant!believe in what your heart feels...
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