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Just Let Me Cry Them
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Just Let Me Cry Them |
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Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores 
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Just Let Me Cry Them ~*Marge Tindal*~ Little did I know, some 25 years ago, this night when I laid my head down to sleep the morning would break with tears to weep~ So in remembering my little brother, Mike, I take liberty in telling you just what it was like~ ~*~ ~If you don’t want to cry … don’t read any further~ ~*~ Mike, fourth child born in this family of five Red haired little darling … so alive Tiny little tyke … always such glee His laughter, his smile … his personality~ Bright bluish eyes that twinkled so, a spattering of freckles that we came to know Sandy red hair and a grin from within Mike, my brother … Mike, my friend~ From tot to teen in what seemed a flash off to serve in the Army he did dash Came home safely … married and then only born son came to join them~ Little Mikey, look-a-likey filled his father’s heart with pride but on this fateful night Dad had a job to take a ride~ "I’ll be home on the 3rd … and then we will all go see the fireworks, your mom, Aunt Margie, you and me." Took his 18 wheeler to Georgia Then a run through Alabama Interstate 10 in the dead of the night Mike met with disaster … that just wasn’t right~ A tractor-trailer driver too drunk for the road Stopped his rig on the right of way footing it to a motel to sleep off his load~ No flares to mark the disabled vehicle there Mike rounded the curve … unaware Struck the abandoned rig full on Flipped, crashed, burned Mike … gone~ A family broken … for the loss we all felt Mike was no longer here for us to love He’d gone on to join his Maker in the Heaven’s above~ Little consolation over the years of missing Mike … of shedding our tears Mikey look-a-likey … no father here 25 years … 25 years of tears~ For this sister I know that personally it took me 16 years, and that’s not stretching it, to be able to read the autopsy report without retching~ Somehow it’s hard for me to envision Mike with his feet cut off, partially decapitated, burned beyond recognition with only his wedding ring surviving the crash~ I’m hurt … my heart still aches I have an anger that surfaces every anniversary date So while I take the time to remember Mike I also MAKE the time to constantly speak out at the over use and abuse of alcohol~ My brother died because some jerk cared more for his bottle of Jack than he did for his responsibilities as a valid licensed driver and lives to this day~ How many Mikes will it take ? How many tears … how many years ? It’s been too many … Mike, I miss you we all miss you~ And so … Keep Of Time ~*Marge Tindal*~ A quarter past a heartache half-an-hour beyond the rhyme Clouds-in-cast of shadow upon the sun dial of time~ Hour-glassed sands have drifted to the bottom of my soul Calendar pages flipping backwards to the days of old~ Wristing watch in rested tick no longer sweeps in seconds measured Faced with keep of recorded time in diary pages treasured~ Alarm-of-remember shatters the keep of broken dreams The silence of your heart no longer touching mine screams ..........~ and screams ...~ and screams..~ ~Oh Mike .... another July in cry~ ~*~ David Michael Cowart June 20, 1946 - July 3, 1980 So missed are you, my little brother~ ~*When the heart grieves over what it has lost, |
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Trillium
since 2001-03-09
Posts 12098Idaho, USA |
Dear Marge: There are no words to offer for the kind of loss you suffered. I'm so sorry for you and your family. It's a 25th anniversary for us too, as we lost our only grandson to a speeding driver on that same date! The past floods back every year for those of us who have had that kind of trauma! Love Betty Lou |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
I'm so sorry, Marge/sis...heart hugs to you!  |
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sandgrain Member Elite
since 1999-09-21
Posts 3662Sycamore, IL, USA |
Oh yes, we always wonder what would it be like if only... Time insists we march on but that doesn't mean we don't still hurt. Thanks for sharing your feelings. The greatest consolation is knowing they're now in heaven because they believed in our Lord's finished crosswork for all of us. Have a safe weekend. Rae |
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PatAngel Member
since 2004-04-05
Posts 451California |
Oh my dearest Marge! How my heart aches with yours at the loss of your little brother Mikey; as I too, mourn the loss of my beloved son Michael who passed away nine years ago. The heart never forgets the pain of loss, even as the years pass by. I believe in my heart that Mikey is smiling down on you from heaven. May you be comforted in the knowledge that you are deeply loved by so many of us who have been gifted by your God-given talent for poetry. Your words have touched me so profoundly, that I have no words to express how thankful I am to God that you are in my life, even though we have not met in person. I love you dear friend, Patricia 'When you find a dream within your heart, don't ever let it go. |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Damn, Marge....but this one made me cry. I do so understand your pain and anger and agree, it's far beyond time to keep the deadly effects of alcohol off the road. hugs |
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Justbleu Member Elite
since 1999-08-31
Posts 3329Oregon, Originally From Alaska :) |
 LOVE, Bridgette "Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." A. Brink |
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Tndeer1 Member
since 2005-06-24
Posts 87TN. USA |
I also am so sorry for what you must be feeling. Death is never an easy part of this life that we live. With being around it so much myself and now at any time I could be facing it again, I have to remind myself that he belongs to God and he'll be taken care of for Eternity. God Bless You Marge on this Holiday. Such a beautiful Tribute to your precious brother. Tndeer1 |
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exhale Senior Member
since 2003-06-13
Posts 646Alberta,Canada |
theres a saying time heals all wounds but there are some wounds that won't ever be healed and will always remain fresh. i understand your pain all to well and i believe that as long as he's in your heart and in your thoughts he's never really gone no matter how much time passes however cliche that sounds. i'm so sorry for your loss. |
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Aleta Member
since 2005-04-17
Posts 102Louisiana |
“another July in cry” and we’ll cry with you, Marge….. prayers sent for you and your family…. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
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Ceinwyn Member Elite
since 2000-07-09
Posts 2175VA |
my heart goes out to you and your family If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
 just hugs |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
I greatly appreciate the kind and caring replies to my pain of loss ... pain of missing~ Those of you who have shared your losses via your replies here and to me personally in my email account ... I shed tears for you too~  Praying ... just praying that this holiday will pass without others knowing the pain of losing a loved one~ God bless you all for the kindness you've shown me~ I do find comfort in knowing that you let me know you care~ *Huglets* ~*Marge*~ ~*When the heart grieves over what it has lost, |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
My heart hurts so for you, my friend. |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
SuthernSweetie~ Thank you ... you mean the world to me~  *Huglets* ~*Marge*~ ~*When the heart grieves over what it has lost, |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
I am so sorry Margie, wish there were words and gestures that could take away the strong heartbeat of henous memories as such...the saddness of loss...but offering, and yet stating that I could never know...yet, hopefully, letting go of the lost times, the ugly thoughts, and replacing them with the fond memories of the marvelous times...those times of happiness... the only thing I can offer, is this...my foster father dies very abruptly...my father-in-law suffered so for months...right up until his very last breath...and the memories of my foster father remain in good standing, while the memories of my father-in-law, are of those last suffering days.... We need to understand that, and let them go...we must, so that both the soul and mind of all parties may heal...and move onto the plain of true wisdom and understanding for all things.... Your brother is and alway will be intact and in full bloom in your heart and soul... God, I wish I could take this pain, and throw it to the crows.... Hugs to you, my friend...hugs to you |
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Greeneyes
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
so sorry Marge....I have read and re-read this, and still it tugs...peace to you....I keep a fragrance bottle my |
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Paul Wilson
since 2002-07-07
Posts 4711United States |
Marge...Your loss is beyond compare. I am with you 100% on the drinking and driving. My oldest son owns and drives an 18 wheeler and I worry about him all the time and what it would do to his wife and 2 daughters if he were to suffer the same fate as your brother Mikey. All I can do is hope and pray that it doesn't happen...Paul ~~To share my poems with you is to share my heart with you~~ |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
I have lost to many friends to this very type of tragedy. It seems that it never matters how many there are, they just keep taking more. Heart hugs Margie. Luv ya. |
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Betty Senior Member
since 2002-08-13
Posts 1159Virginia |
My dear friend how horrible this was & so senseless. I'm so sorry for your loss all those years ago & all the yearly reminders. I too speak up about drinking & driving. {{{Marge}}} Love you, Betty |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
I didn't want to cry but I read and I did! Life can be so cruel sometimes and we don't know why but I do believe there will be a time of understanding. So very sorry to read of your loss. |
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Bodger Senior Member
since 2005-06-12
Posts 1260Tolerance for a short time |
It needs saying Bodger |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Marge these are beautiful words for your little brother Mike...hugs for you...James |
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SoundWaves Member
since 2005-06-22
Posts 113Center Stage |
I'm so sorry for your loss. The spotlight can only get brighter. |
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Dee Member Elite
since 2000-08-19
Posts 2330Queensland, Australia |
Such a sad read Marge. Something no one should have to go through. I hope the smiles when you remember him help you through the rough patches (My Colin is a truck driver and I worry about this sort of thing every time he goes away.) Dee Stand straight and tall, not the reflection as others see you, but as you truely are. Clearwater |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
....jo |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Yes, I am crying. Crying for your loss ~ and for my own. My cousin was also decapitated in a car accident that was caused by a drunk driver. That was during the week from hell for me. My brother had a near-fatal heart attack and my ex was leaving for greener fields over a septic tank ~ to paraphrase Erma Bombeck. Plus my sister's son had disappeared and neither his or the bodies of his five friends have ever been found. Gosh, life sure can suck at times. Your description of your brother Mike were so vivid that you brought him to life for your readers. I deeply feel your pain and loss. When we lose someone ~ especially so tragically, so senselessly, there is anger added to the sea of swirling emotions. Marge, I am wrapping my arms around you and giving you one of my tissues (a fresh one!) Loving you, Linda |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
How many times must we cry when remembering a loved one that has gone ? Enough ... enough so that we KNOW they are so worth remembering~ Tears and all~ ~*The sound of a kiss is not as strong as that of a cannon, but it's echo endures much longer*~ |
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Artic Wind Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 8080Realm of Supernatural |
i am sad for you ARCTIC WIND |
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Desirer4New Member
since 2008-04-23
Posts 57basketball soccer writting and anything to do with art |
I cant imagine that, you are a very strong woman, and your poetry is beautiful. the way you described the years that it has taken and still taking to deal with something like this. it is an inspiring piece of art. thank you for it. i hope others are just as inspired by it as i am. |
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