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peppermint35
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since 2000-05-28

Posts 1106
Texas, USA

0 posted 2005-10-19 04:05 AM

My muse remains silent
Though there's a murmuring,
A soft whisper inside me
A private communication
I cannot interrupt
No words can explain this
nothingness, this emptiness
this pain without end

Part of me went with you
Into that great unknown
whose name we speak with
trembling and trepidation
If we dare speak it at all

Though I know it's rebirth
I cannot hear you or hold you
I am desolate and alone
"Shall I see you soon?"
whispers that little voice
"Not just now, not just yet"....

So here I sit, silent
Apart from this life
Waiting until then.

Pepper
"Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." Unknown

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

1 posted 2005-10-19 05:32 AM

a beautiful, tender write...feelings I have known~~

M

Marge Tindal

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since 1999-11-06

Posts 42384
Florida's Foreverly Shores

2 posted 2005-10-19 08:35 AM

Lavenia~
There is a soft beauty in the poignancy of this penning~

Nice to see you~
*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*No matter what I search for ...
let me know when it is LOVE that I find*~ <))><

Email - [email protected]

HopeS
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since 2000-12-22

Posts 4596
Perth Western Australia

3 posted 2005-10-19 10:46 AM

You expressed those feelings so well , I can relate

Hope

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4 posted 2005-10-30 10:18 AM

Sometimes while I read a poem, I catch myself saying "Oh, if only I had written this...."

I just did.

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SEA

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Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

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with you

5 posted 2005-10-30 10:48 AM

loved this...

Magnus

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since 2001-10-10

Posts 14135
South Carolina, USA

6 posted 2005-10-30 11:16 AM

I feel your muse is firmly standing and
helping your thoughts quite well.

peppermint35
Senior Member

since 2000-05-28

Posts 1106
Texas, USA

7 posted 2005-12-01 10:49 AM

Thank you for your replies.. but my muse is not really kicking it, only because it is broken.. for reals.. oh how can I say it.. there are no real words.. I always tried to write from my heart, from my feelings, from the depth or me, exposing the throat, even, being vulnerable, at least, but now.. I feel only like the walking wounded, stunned by these feelings that threaten to overwhelm, that do overwhelm, how many times.. I do not know...

I am silenced, I suppose, also by the reality that all the times I have thought I felt grief, and I suppose I did feel it, how stupidly I assumed that this was the worst grief.. but it was not. Is this the worst grief, then.. I do not know.. but I cannot imagine one worse.. and I do not want to .. I truly do not want to...

I am no longer complete.. I have written of heart breaking, of pain beyond words.. of agony.. but never truly felt them until now.. I may have used those words, but never thought you could truly have a wounded heart.. a heart that bled because a big hole had been ripped in it.. until I lost my daughter in that car accident.. and now.. words seem .. there are no words..

and so the muse remains silent.

Pepper
"Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." Unknown

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