Open Poetry #35 |
I Am (for the challenge) |
James_A_Fraser Senior Member
since 2003-09-03
Posts 972Out Making Anticlines |
I Am I am nobody it seems, faceless, nearly voiceless. I wonder how this came to be, when I hear my own voice, taste this wine, smell my pipe smoke; I see my hands, this smooth white ring, isn’t that enough? I want to believe in me, to be someone, but still I am nobody it seems, faceless, nearly voiceless. I pretend too well, put on the perfect face, I feel the same as you, my friend, my brother, I touch your hand, then involuntarily I grasp it, afraid. I worry that this non-existent existence will claim my soul I cry out in mute frustration but I cannot change; I am nobody it seems, faceless, nearly voiceless. I understand too well the limits of my life I say I accept those things that hold me apart, yet I dream, I pray, for resolution knowing there will be none. I try to find a way to reach out to you, to everyone I hope my verse will some way, somehow help, though I am nobody it seems, faceless, nearly voiceless. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
Nobody???? I must beg your pardon here. *S* For you're a fantastic poet... but better... you're a fantastic person... a wonderful friend... a man I'm proud to know. This is a wonderful answer to the challenge... but I hope you know you are so much much MUCH more... |
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James_A_Fraser Senior Member
since 2003-09-03
Posts 972Out Making Anticlines |
Aye dear lady, I'm aware of it -- but those lacks I have, those things that I am not and seemingly will never be, I feel them so keenly at times that they blot out everything else. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
I was going to say... I have a great big bottle of Windex here if it will help clear your vision? *G* But now... I'm tempted to say that a dour Scot has been cosying up to the Blarney Stone. *S* But... I know how often what isn't overwhelms what is... I just hope you know that what is... is very special. *S* |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Jamie I agree with Suthern! You are a wonderful poet and a great friend and many many other things as well. |
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James_A_Fraser Senior Member
since 2003-09-03
Posts 972Out Making Anticlines |
It's true, lass...I manage a fair number of things, but somehow there is the haunting knowledge that I am less in some of the ways that truly count, though in others I know I'm much more than some I could name. |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
If the tree falls in the woods, and no one is around, is there any death-rattle as the limbs fall victim to earth? So you're a figment of my imagination, then... so all I ask, is write on, and I will read what is not there. |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
James? *nodding head* I feel like that too. We all do . . . its why most of us write, I believe. We feel some sort of something missing . . . this was way beyond well met. |
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James_A_Fraser Senior Member
since 2003-09-03
Posts 972Out Making Anticlines |
For me, it's more than feeling. I'm nothing, untouchable -- and the response to this poem shows it well. Here are the last dozen new, full-length poems I've posted -- I dare you to read any one of them and tell me that, strictly as poetry, it got the response it deserved. I Am (for the challenge) bee What Will The Rock Say? When Is Enough? Zen And Del ready for more With A Smile Like The Moon Clown In Touch Candle, Hand Brave Lips, Wax ~~J [This message has been edited by James_A_Fraser (03-19-2005 11:14 PM).] |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
"I try to find a way to reach out to you, to everyone" and I believe you succeed in doing just that |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
James, you may be "faceless" here at Pip (would love for you to post a photo of your poetic self!) ~ but you most definitely are not "voiceless". You speak volumes and your words resonate within several layers of meaning. EA |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
James, you need to realize that many people read without replying. You should write for yourself, not for others, I mean I have many things maybe only two people replied to. But you know what? Two people replied. That made me smile. |
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J.Samm Member
since 2004-01-12
Posts 415Iloilo City, Philippines |
wow,james...this is very intense...powerful write...it moved me |
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James_A_Fraser Senior Member
since 2003-09-03
Posts 972Out Making Anticlines |
The dead-pan truth is, it's not just about responses. I've known for a while now that I've been "out" with the "in's" of PiP, and it doesn't usually bother me. The people I care about reading my poetry, do read it. I had something lousy happen with regard to my participation here, and it didn't hit me for most of a day, just how lousy it was. I don't feel free to talk about it here, but I lost something important -- more important to me than the good graces of most anybody around here. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
Whatever it is you've lost... I sincerely hope you find... or find a way to go on without it. And remember... if you're on outs with the ins, you're in some good company. I will continue looking for your work and hoping I find it... knowing I'll find excellence. |
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