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To Ignore and Heal
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To Ignore and Heal |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA 
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I posed questions To myself tonight As I went searching Through my heart. To thine own self Be true, right? What am I passionate about? Why is my clock still ticking? What keeps me here anyhow? Given the chance, Is there anything I would shout, Or call out for in the dark? No, I think there’s not. Or, perhaps it’s stuck In my memory. Oh, there’re the kids, practically grown; They want to raise themselves. Now, what do I do To come alive? Age takes it toll, And so does life. Is there no secret spell I can cast myself To make me care enough To explore, To leave these four walls I hide behind Go out into the world, Find new words for my appetite? I admit I do go roaming Through the clouds of distant times, Those former scenes, defining me, Making me who I am, and Who I am not. For want of something stimulating, I dance in dreams with you. Life could be boring, but I think, ignoring, is probably What I do. Or, perhaps it's fear Of too much feeling That keeps me healing here. [This message has been edited by iliana (07-24-2004 06:44 PM).] |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
I've been here five years, honey... once the healing is done, they start pushing you out of the nest... because they know you CAN fly...  but they let you come home...again, and again, and again...  |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
Jo - I think many of us can relate to your words here. However, I think "ignoring" only works for a short time - one day we will have to acknowledge it all and take responsibility for all but I would say perhaps put it on the back burner for as long as you can. |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
SIL -- I will trust you on this! Thank you for your encouragement and kind words! *hugs*......jo |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Helen -- Thanks for your thoughtful post. Are you psychic? I've often gotten that impression. .....jo |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Lily gal, I believe that the very writing of this poem shows that you are not "ignoring" the issues! ~ You are thinking about them! ~ and that's the first step in making the changes that will really make you blossom and bloom! I was engaged with every word I read that spilled from the very core of you and down the page. Perhaps it is time to plant some more flowers in your life's garden.   With much affection, Linda |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Earth Angel -- I am listening to the universe and I have been planting seeds. *winky wink* Thank you for keeping an eye on me and posting such encouraging words, dear one! KBHBLY......lily |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
Jo - I have found myself in some difficulty these last few years as I've tried to understand some rather obvious changes that have taken place with regard to myself. Psychic? Yes, to some degree and that degree doesn't afford the privilege of sight but rather of emotion, movement, and a sense of knowing. I've also realised that I am, and here again I add to some degree, what is commonly known as an empath - I pick up feelings from those around me. Now that I understand it is easier to cope. Through it all life remains somewhat confusing but how insightful you are to have thought to ask. Psychic perhaps?  Take care of yourself - healing is a long slow process. |
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GG Member Elite
since 2002-12-03
Posts 3532Lost in thought |
Don't worry Jo, there are plenty of reasons your clock is still ticking. I think we're always healing from something. Life has that way of stabbing us in the back... and when it does, it's alright to patch the wound and come to health again. It's just that you have to remember, it takes another's help to patch the wound, and they need helping patching theirs too. And you are helping them. Doesn't look to me like you're ignoring anything... you're letting the healing happen.Love the poem Always, Alyssa Poems are made by fools like me, |
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Patricia Member Elite
since 2003-04-06
Posts 2160Missouri |
Hi! I loved this poem because you have expressed much of how I feel/see things at times. Perhaps the most important question one should ask is, "What do I really, really want?" I have been exploring many ideas regarding attracting what it is I want in and for my life. I think once I figure that out, I can go to work manifesting it into my life. I think we share a common place in this universe, based on this reading. A great write. I am glad I stopped by to read! Take care, Patricia |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Honeybunch -- Know what you mean. You be well, too, & thanks, again! *hugs* ....jo |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
GG, you are so sweet. You saw right through some of the ____ and got right down to the real me. I'm okay...I just get moody sometimes (a personaity flaw, maybe), but really, as we get older our roles change and I am having a slow time adjusting. You're a doll, thanks for posting, sweetie! ....jo |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Patricia, I think we do share a similar space. Maybe many of us do. Thank goodness we have this common place to share; I am so grateful for that & for your very sweet post. ....jo |
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miscellanea Member Elite
since 2004-06-24
Posts 4060OH |
Hey Big Sis, It sounds like you ARE exploring, observing, and growing. I'm glad you're still writing, sharing here so others can empathethize and grow with you. I, for one, am asking the same questions, and by Gemini Cricket, I'm going to find something worth shouting about. I know you will, too! Love ya, Cathy |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Misc'e, thanks for the post. I'm glad to hear that. Hope all's well. Love ya, jo |
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muted
since 2004-01-15
Posts 2949Elapsing, Eclipsing, Evolving |
Alot of us know this feeling, including me...and sometimes ya just have to jump..Im talking just eyes wide open fling yourself into it all...and see what happens. and no matter what, at least you know you tried, and truly lived. But i think you might suprise yourself   |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Muted, cuted one! -- Hey there! I know you are right about this. I just have to get up the courage; I guess it's like jumping back into the swimming pool after you bumped your head. At least, this time, I know how to avoid that, maybe. Thanks for your sweet thoughts and post. .....jo |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
I go roaming too but never really go anywhere I loved this write! |
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ice Member Elite
since 2003-05-17
Posts 3404Pennsylvania |
Iliana/Jo Think of what Jenny Joseph says in her poem "Warning" Maybe think of wearing purple "With a red hat" and "run your stick along fences" "go out in slippers in the rain" "pick the flowers in other peoples gardens" etc, etc... ( try different things) And as she suggests in the last stanza: "But maybe I ought to practice a little now? So people who know me are not too shocked and surprised When suddenly I am old, and start to wear purple." This is from a mans point of view, on the subject of the poem...I am 60 years old and still cannot (with clarity) understand the complexity of a women's mind and heart, although I have tried, and continue to do so. My feelings are that you have branched into the world much further than the revelations in this poem, I believe that if you continue writing poetry the path of words will take you where you want to go.... -------ice ><> |
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Susan Member Ascendant
since 2004-03-27
Posts 5104walking the surreal |
Very interesting thoughts expressed here, dear jo. You know, I felt this once. Then I found my Arnis, a new family of friends, a passion, and my life finally became incredibly stimmulating. I also found competative shooting. Put together, knives and guns, what else could a girl want! But in truth, having found this passion, I feel as I once did when just setting out to explore the world. Just last night at an after party (doing big M.A. seminar this weekend), I told Tiny from Canada that sometimes I couldn't believe how old I was, I did not feel it. He asked my age, I told him -- it's 39. He was shocked, I was pleased. I know it is because my life has become filled with passion once again. Find that passion, jo. Don't miss out. And I gaurantee you you'll feel young again. Hugs to you -- susan Happiness isn't something that happens to you, it's created from within you. Joy is a state of mind. |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
For want of something stimulating, I dance in dreams with you. Life could be boring, but I think, ignoring, is probably What I do. Or, perhaps it's fear Of too much feeling That keeps me healing here. Awesome articulation Jo...very much enjoyed Jo, life has a silly way of taking two steps forward and throwing you 4 steps back, but, in the lieu of it all, perhaps the 4 steps back are the really signficant ones, which we should recognize to be our airlift out of an angry sea?????? Love ya Me |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
You are passionate about LIFE, my friend.  and have within you all the colors of the rainbow. Some days, the darker colors shine the brightest.Does that make sense to you?  hugs, Kacy |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Perhaps...there is a time for healing...James |
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Snow
since 2000-10-16
Posts 1170desert flower looking for rain |
being moody isn't a flaw.. it's a reminder we're alive. :-D i felt like you were in my head/heart during this read... ((hugs)) to you. ~s "Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless." |
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Juju Member Elite
since 2003-12-29
Posts 3429In your dreams |
Like always I liked your poem Juju |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Jo I have felt this, feel it often now....it's not a bad thing to search outside the front door...there is so much to learn from everything. I'd like to share a poem I wrote about a little trip of mine, if you don't mind. I have a feeling that you will be just fine! /pip/Forum47/HTML/000889.html |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Thank you, each one of you, for your very thoughtful posts to my meanderings. Martie, you are a doll. luv ya....jo |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows |
"Age takes it toll, And so does life." ...uh...yup. *smile* |
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MGROVES
since 2004-02-01
Posts 3802california |
i totally understand this one. i seem to be in the same place, asking myself same questions over and over. only i did go roaming. left my four walls. now i have more questions and alot of healing to go any further. wish you the best :luvya: |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
MGROVES, sorry we share a similar boat but I do appreciate the company, and your kind post tonight. Thanks. ....jo |
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