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Rosebud1229
Senior Member

since 2000-04-05

Posts 1813
North Carolina

0 posted 2004-09-07 07:15 PM

Numbness, use to be a calming effect,
Something I couldn't quite detect,
Even though the tears fall down my face,
I didn't blink
,for fear of reality setting in,
Reason: use to be a way to sort it all out,
Even though I see only a shadow of demise,
Looking through this blur of a dream,
It all seems so hazy, in this demure of obscurity,
Yet I can not react to this light, my vision
is dim. My skin doesn't react to your touch,
Though I wish there were a sensation,
All I feel is numbness seeping through my veins,
As if the mind has control over the heart,
Yesterday I had a dream about the tenderness,
The reaction of your fingers tenderly touching mine,
Now all I have is today with traces of pain,
seeping deeply where I can not allow
Yet I am caught up in a web of deceit
Gathering the torment for tomorrow,
As the ashes burn deeply inside my soul,
Numbness saves my heart once again.
For now.

Kristabell
Senior Member

since 2003-11-29

Posts 678
Portland, OR

1 posted 2004-09-07 07:56 PM

Very sad, but very well written. You will find feeling again. It will be in a place where you least expect.

ShiningWindHaze
Member

since 2004-09-06

Posts 138
California, United States

2 posted 2004-09-07 08:08 PM

Heart cold, but warm. I think never knowing what to think, but I feel everything you felt cause I know. The depths life can't hold, but does cause we hold it. Numb. Still longing to feel. Awesome write.

- Haze

MGROVES

Member Elite

since 2004-02-01

Posts 3802
california

3 posted 2004-09-07 08:09 PM

yes my heart goes out to you
good write, but sadly felt

Rosebud1229
Senior Member

since 2000-04-05

Posts 1813
North Carolina

4 posted 2004-09-07 09:55 PM

thanks, it's nice to hear replies and know that someone is there to listen, even to hear the words in the way they are meant to be heard, and this was a sad write for me.
So much does hide beneath the core, yet through writing it helps in some way. So thank you

milkweed
Junior Member

since 2004-09-07

Posts 42
fields of gold

5 posted 2004-09-07 10:06 PM

This is sad. I guess, numbness is a good things sometimes.

Magnus

Member Laureate

since 2001-10-10

Posts 14135
South Carolina, USA

6 posted 2004-09-07 11:24 PM

Yes, it is so much easier to write those
things we have in our mind that are painful
to us. And the more we express ourselves,
the less likely we are to not be able to
cope with them. Well said.

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

7 posted 2004-09-08 12:39 PM

Nice writing...James

Rosebud1229
Senior Member

since 2000-04-05

Posts 1813
North Carolina

8 posted 2004-09-09 04:10 PM

thx again for your comments they are always appreciated, sometimes the heart has a mind of it's own which we have no control over.

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