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James_A_Fraser
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since 2003-09-03

Posts 972
Out Making Anticlines

0 posted 2004-09-02 11:34 AM

Just A Folder

It’s just a folder
and not even that, really.
Faint magnetic traces
on a spinning disk,
no more than this...

Mere traces
with your name on them,
an imaginary place
where I would put
little notes that passed
between us,
memories of things
that we had shared,
our common thoughts
and blushing revelations,
those pictures of your
new apartment,
your ocean themes
in every room
except this one...
touch-me pink
the color there
of course....

But there are no more
little notes, no sharings,
and seeing your name
there every day
no longer brings
a smile.

Still, my finger
holds off from the key.
Though you’re gone
I simply can’t
delete you.
I’ll have to let it stay
for now,
maybe forever,
if only because
it matches my heart:

empty.

Sunshine

Administrator

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since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

1 posted 2004-09-02 11:39 AM

Don't you dare delete that folder...
this is too tender to lose...

Enchantress
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since 2001-08-14

Posts 35113
Canada eh.

2 posted 2004-09-02 11:44 AM

Such an ache to this...but wonderfully written.
Much enjoyed the sentiment here.
Hugs~

~ Summer can't be over...
I still have sand in my shoes. ~

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

3 posted 2004-09-02 12:35 PM

you write empty well

James_A_Fraser
Senior Member

since 2003-09-03

Posts 972
Out Making Anticlines

4 posted 2004-09-02 01:25 PM

Sometimes I AM an empty well....

~~J

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

5 posted 2004-09-02 01:40 PM

My friend... if you are ever an empty well, it's only a temporary situation... an artist's sacrifice for his craft... because you've poured everything you have into a beauty like this. *S*

What an incredible capture of yearn and ache... this is superb!!

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

6 posted 2004-09-04 12:26 PM

There will be the time inbetween...and then new folders...James

Susan
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since 2004-03-27

Posts 5104
walking the surreal

7 posted 2004-09-04 11:27 AM

I understand this- and the analogy is excellent - well written

Susan

Happiness isn't something that happens to you, it's created from within you. Joy is a state of mind.

BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

8 posted 2004-09-05 12:03 PM

James_A

I loved the way you spun your words together,
they truly moved me in the nicest way.
Life is like that, it keeps on keeping on,
while holding close those people we couldn't ever forget.

Smiling at you, hugs Meeester!

iliana
Member Patricius

since 2003-12-05

Posts 13434
USA

9 posted 2004-09-05 12:52 PM

I feel the ache of this.....those folders. Good write, Mr. Frazer.

......jo

miscellanea
Member Elite

since 2004-06-24

Posts 4060
OH

10 posted 2004-09-05 01:14 AM

James,

"It’s just a folder
and not even that, really.
Faint magnetic traces
on a spinning disk,
no more than this..."

   No, Sweet James.  The traces are spinning within the convolutions of gray matter.  This is a heart breaker... If this is fiction, it is encompassing.  If this real,
well, my heart goes out to you.  Excellent writing.
               miscellanea

James_A_Fraser
Senior Member

since 2003-09-03

Posts 972
Out Making Anticlines

11 posted 2004-09-05 09:40 AM

Well, Misc....like icebox said a while back, sometimes it just doesn't pay to have friends -- there's too much hurt in it when things go wrong.

~~J

Dark Angel
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since 1999-08-04

Posts 10095

12 posted 2004-09-05 11:43 PM

The clouds never expect it when it rains, but the sea, changes colour, but the sea, does not change.
~Stevie Nicks~

Martie

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since 1999-09-21

Posts 28049
California

13 posted 2004-09-14 11:32 PM

Jamie

Bittersweet. As always such an honest piece of heart.

miscellanea
Member Elite

since 2004-06-24

Posts 4060
OH

14 posted 2004-09-15 02:02 AM

James,
I'm glad to see this reach the top again, reminding me of its quality. In rebutal to your response, I still think it's better to take a risk on friendship. I've found that each time I've made a friend, they have added something special that I didn't have in my total composition, a complementary color, if you please.
miscellanea

James_A_Fraser
Senior Member

since 2003-09-03

Posts 972
Out Making Anticlines

15 posted 2004-09-15 09:35 AM

You're exactly right, misc -- and that's how I feel most of the time....but there are times when it hurts too much, and I'm not strong enough to say the price was worth paying.

~~J

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