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nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

0 posted 2004-08-12 08:33 AM

Hard Put

There is pain
and then there's pain,
sometimes not discernable
from one another.

Then there is the pane I see through
and linger my thoughts,
none of which rests against time,
a commodity hard to grasp
and taken for granted too often.

The aching travels, its steadiness
pulsating, wounding
the morning's rise.

Too hard some days, the effect of
the days before, being force-fed
innuendoes and messaged
with judgements harsh-voiced.

I can't be ransomed nor redeemed,
my qualities innate and my paining extrinsic.
If you press me I become de
(so soft the inner me, that the bruising holds on)
and the injury sustains.

I have had enough fill and
prefer the dressing to cover the exposed,
the vulnerable of me.

And saying so much,
is an afterthought,
knowing perfection exists not,
as my ink runs dry and
the pain seats me here
in the pretense of another write
trapped in-between the lines
of communication, where
only I reside.

M

"Love is not blind - It sees more and not less, but because it sees more, it is willing to see less."
(Will Moss)

LeeJ
Member Patricius

since 2003-06-19

Posts 13296

1 posted 2004-08-12 08:42 AM

hey sweetie, good morning...this was painful to read...and why I am single, and believe I will be single for the rest of my days, I don't ever want to cause anyone pain or lose ever again...and so, chose to live in solitude, as these feelings you descibe I greatly fear....

But what is good for me, is not for you and I'm not suggesting you should do like me...just thinking out loud and saying this one, really touched a chord...

Hugs and smiles sent your way

Lee J.

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

2 posted 2004-08-12 09:31 AM

Maybe once I am single (legally) I will feel as you...but it's what has been instilled in me, brainwashed if you want to call it that, so that you are made to always doubt yourself and all you do.

You are so very insightful and I appreciate your responses.

M

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

3 posted 2004-08-12 12:48 PM

I'm like Lee...

gawd M, my heart hugs you

Marge Tindal

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since 1999-11-06

Posts 42384
Florida's Foreverly Shores

4 posted 2004-08-12 06:26 PM

MsWynter~
And YOU are a strong force of poetic thought that continues to flow in honesty-ink~

Through the years I have learned so much from your insightful pennings~
Honest Injun~
*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*When the heart grieves over what it has lost,
the spirit rejoices over what it has left.
- Sufi epigram <))><

Email noles1@totcon.com

Magnus

Member Laureate

since 2001-10-10

Posts 14135
South Carolina, USA

5 posted 2004-08-12 06:36 PM

Yes M.  you are an exceptional lady,  part
of this very extended family of ours....and
when you or another has pain,  we often feel
it, for we too have walked our miles of
dusty roads...

Excellent write,  expressed better than most
ever will.

Contabo
Member

since 2001-11-21

Posts 159

6 posted 2004-08-12 06:37 PM

wow....you tore off all the layers.

iliana
Member Patricius

since 2003-12-05

Posts 13434
USA

7 posted 2004-08-13 12:27 PM

"And saying so much,
is an afterthought,
knowing perfection exists not,
as my ink runs dry and
the pain seats me here
in the pretense of another write
trapped in-between the lines
of communication, where
only I reside."

Oh, but you say it so well, Maureen. Much appreciated your ponderings and sharing of the pain/pane.

....jo

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

8 posted 2004-08-13 12:34 PM

Nice writing...I have to believe that pain comes and pain goes...James

Aimster
Member Elite

since 2000-02-19

Posts 4297
Charlotte, NC

9 posted 2004-08-13 02:56 PM

Maureen

though this hurt so much to read, I also see strength in it. I don't know what divorce or ending a marriage is like, but I know what it feels like to have your heart breaking and to have to start anew...and my heart goes out to you. I wish you the best, and enjoy reading your writing so much!!
Take care,
Amy

"When life gives you sorrow, may you experience the spirit of laughter"

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

10 posted 2004-08-14 05:21 AM

I appreciate all your thoughtful comments...

M

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