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danni Senior Member
since 1999-11-20
Posts 688wisconsin |
Daddy... What did I do to make you not want me? Everything I've ever done Was to make you proud of me I only wanted to help you see How much you are a part of me Is it because I am a reflection of you? Am I a constant reminder Of the mistakes you've made And the consequences you could not bear? Or am I to much like my mother? Is that why you don't care? If that's the case Then I am sorry It's something I can't change Just like the way I can't make you love me And I can't make you care I can only accept the realization That you will never be there [This message has been edited by danni (edited 11-22-1999).] |
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Thaddeus Member
since 1999-11-16
Posts 78MA |
very powerful,direct and sad. The ending is a little nebulous... is the realization you accept is that the his love and care will never be there, that love or care in general will never be there or that he will never be there. Each answer leads to a slightly different, yet equally sad resolve. have you ever heard the song "The Things We've Handed Down" by Marc Cohn. It is from a different point of view, but is kin to your thoughts "I wonder who you'll look like Will your hair fall down and curl Will you be a Mama's boy Or Daddy's little girl Will you be a sad reminder Of what's been lost along the way Maybe you can help me find her In the things you do and say" There are things within each of us that are reflections and gifts and likenesses, that are because of an once act of love, because of DNA whether it is recognized by the giver, you can find things within to hold on to and things to let go |
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danni Senior Member
since 1999-11-20
Posts 688wisconsin |
I accidentally left out a word in the end. No Thaddeus, I have never haerd that song. Thank you for bringing it to my attention. There is a difference though, My dad was in my life until six months ago. Though obviously not very involved in it. He turned his back to me more than one to many times. So I chose to turn my back on him that last time. It may have been better if I did not come to know the man he really is. |
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Deep Blue Me Member
since 1999-11-04
Posts 396By a big lake |
Always a brutal situation when the people that we should be able to trust implicitly are not who they should be. I wish he'd handled himself better for your sake, and I resolve now to be better for my boy. You both deserve better fathers. DB |
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danni Senior Member
since 1999-11-20
Posts 688wisconsin |
DB- You have given quite the compliment, if I've aided in your resovle. Thank you. |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
So sad for you Dannii, he should've done his job. Obviously he can't be too good a man to have let you down so, if you think this way maybe the hurt will be a bit less. ((HUGS)) my friend. ------------------ The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there IS to celebrate. ~Isis~ (Daughter of Mystery) |
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FreeByrd Member
since 1999-11-03
Posts 267 |
danni this is a fabulous piece. A situation you did not create.Dad has to come to terms with it himself. We all make mistakes and unfortunately they always seem to affect others. I know he thinks about you. He just may not know how to fix it. Don't give up. -RS ------------------ |
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JOY 14 Senior Member
since 1999-09-22
Posts 1419Wisconsin USA |
I'd like to say I'm sorry. But I don't know if you want or even think you should have pitty. It wouldn't be that though. Because even though I've never been through the ordeal of a uncaring father, I still feel for you. Keep strong. |
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danni Senior Member
since 1999-11-20
Posts 688wisconsin |
Thank you for the for your response and support. And an apology is never unwanted and doesn't always equal pity. Thanks again Joy 14 |
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lostboy Member
since 1999-11-21
Posts 275New Hampshire, USA |
If some parents could only be knocked over the head and given a clue!!! I'm lucky to have had (still do) great ones but know so many who were bailed on and they always thought it was their fault. It isn't!! Very touching danni, his loss for sure. |
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danni Senior Member
since 1999-11-20
Posts 688wisconsin |
Thanks lostboy. I must also add that there is a wonderful man who chose to take on the father role. So I do have two wonderful parents. I just can't help but be haunted by the question why. Why couldn't the man who helped create me find some pride in me. Thanks again! |
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Stevia Junior Member
since 1999-11-25
Posts 28 |
Danni, although there are problems times when you think not too much of your father,you should think of the other stuff too.I lost both my parents when I was very young, and I know that although this may not say something now , it will later.We all make mistakes,a better person is he who forgives.If you need anything email me. |
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ThUnDeRkYsS Senior Member
since 1999-09-23
Posts 727Wisconsin |
Such a sad, heartfelt piece. I am glad to hear that somebody as wonderful as you deserve has replaced him... but you can never rule out the possibility of people changing, and your real father comming to a harsh realization that he has pushed away something so special, a piece of himself, and come back a new person. I wish only happiness in whatever happens though danni!! Wonderful job!  ------------------ Life is what you make of it... Not what you let it be |
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danni Senior Member
since 1999-11-20
Posts 688wisconsin |
Stevia- I am terribly sorry about your loss. Believe me I have forgiven him the best way I can. I just can't forget how he's made me feel. Thunderkyss- If he should come back a changed person it would be an answered prayer. But they hope grows dimmer with every passing month. Thanks to you both for your best wishes and support. |
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Deverone Member
since 1999-10-13
Posts 136San Antonio, Tx, USA |
Danni....I know the way you feel and I think I understand this from the bottom of my heart.....My mother was the one I was left without and it can truly make a child or an adult feel helpless sometimes. I never got to know her and was very resentful towards her. I never wanted the chance to talk to her and when I did have the courage to finally want that chance, she was lost to me altogether.(she died) I have a lot of questions I want answers to and a spot in my heart that may never truly heal, but as I try to forgive her more and more each day I feel those answers to the questions I have/ had are being answered within my heart. The pain will subside and you will feel better for trying to forgive someone that may not know how to begin to forgive themselves just yet. By the way GREAT POEM. ------------------ Deverone "We are cups, constantly and quietly being filled. The trick is, knowing how to tip ourselves over and let the beautiful stuff out". ----Ray Bradbury--- |
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