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Atrocity Of Silence
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Atrocity Of Silence |
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Jonas Senior Member
since 2000-03-03
Posts 796Oregon 
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Based on a nightmare I had shortly after the death of my father. Atrocity Of Silence sterile blue hallways gunmetal gray doors clash a hospital; sinister potted flowers everywhere sepia shadows green scrubs, white coats emergency entrance why am I here? waiting, not sure why behind a door mistakenly unlocked a familiar form but different steps falter "no!" blood turns ice water in my veins i know you no, not really you but what's left of you gaunt radiating agony hurting me… stop! it's too much no words from your mouth haunting, sunken eyes plead with mine terror; i can't breath… "no, you died!" this can't be real refuse to believe reject it i sigh same horrible stare freezing to the core (gasping) head drops to your chest. silent resignation to fate? sadness at my unbelief? a nightmare for a reason unfinished thoughts beg between he and i thoughts question all my years of silence must be why didn't you tell me? "dad, because I never spoke of it, doesn't mean that I didn't care" my own pain how difficult to talk to a dying man? we knew… he knew… what could I say? "dad, I always cared, i just didn't know how to talk to you" still i cannot move sorrow wells up within me wracking soul "you know now?" (nod) disappearing 5/31/00 Gary Pence |
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Jana Tovey Member
since 2000-05-30
Posts 257USA |
This is one of the toughest things to deal with, I feel. We think our parents are always going to be around, or maybe we don't allow ourselves to think otherwise. This is an exceptional piece. I appreciate how hard it was to share it. |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
How sad hon!! I will say it is also harder for father and son to communicate feelings, it doesn't feel manly to say 'I love you Dad' too often... but he knew at the end. He just needed to know before he could go in peace. You gave him a gift remember that! *hugs* I'll tell you this...... No eternal reward will forgive us now for wasting the dawn..... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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brian madden Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374ireland |
I am always quite philosophical about death, that I know things happen for a reason, and it is a cycle in life. But I know my beliefs will mean nothing if a loved one dies, especially one of my parents. I am aware of the fragility of life but yet I don't want to accept the fact that day will come. They say time is a healer. I know that you will always miss your father, but I believe there is a better place beyond this life. A powerful poem. Thanks for sharing ------------------------ "I've been too honest with myself I should have lied like everybody else"-Richey Edwards "Take nothing but pictures. Leave nothing but footprints. Kill nothing but time". Baltimore Grotto "Libraries gave us power Then work came and made us free What price now for a shallow piece of dignity" Nicky Wire, A design for Life. manic street preachers La Tristesse Durera (Scream to a Sigh) "Life has been unfaithful And it all promised so so much I am a relic I am just a petrified cry Wheeled out once a year, a cenotaph souvenir The applause nails down my silence La tristesse durera Scream to a sigh, to a sigh I see liberals I am just a fashion accessory People send postcards And they all hope I'm feeling well I retreat into self-pity, it's so easy Where they patronise my misery La tristesse durera Scream to a sigh, to a sigh I sold my medal It paid a bill It sells at market stalls Parades Milan catwalks The sadness will never go Will never go away Baby it's here to stay |
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Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
They are not truly gone my friend. this is very touching, my dad get's older each year he's 78 now, and starting to slow down, I visit him often. Thank you for your inner thoughts & dreams. Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
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Jonas Senior Member
since 2000-03-03
Posts 796Oregon |
Thank you so much everyone. My dad passed away in 1984, after suffering from cancer off and on for 10 years. The last year of his life, he knew, and we knew that he was dying. It became hard for me to to talk to him, and he to talk to me. But I do have peace in my heart that he does know how I feel.  |
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