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I Suffer In Silence
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I Suffer In Silence |
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Cat Junior Member
since 2000-05-26
Posts 12 |
I suffer in silence The last few inches that are me I hide away, and won't let you see How can I tell what there is on the inside I don't want to be a burden, instead I hide My thoughts I keep in a box A place where no one will look I keep the key to myself You could ask where it is But I won't tell I'm not sure if you mean what you say And I suffer in silence I will never ask you to stay I feel so alone when I can't even explain How the betrayal of him awoke my pain One thing at the time and then it happens Depression hits me as hard as before I once thought it would end, but not anymore The sadness will pass Like it always does But just like it disappears It will come back and be here I suffer in silence Because how can I say The thoughts I have All night and all day My silence is deeper and it gets so every time Can you really not see that I'm not at all fine? I want you to show that you actually care I want to say that, but I would never dare And how can I know Maybe you would rather be with her than me I'm not as smart as you I would never be able to see I just feel like such a burden To trouble you with all my pain And the problem with me is that I'm going to do it over and over again I suffer in silence Because a little I might tell But how can I explain something I'm not even sure about myself I feel so sick and I want to cry But I'm not smart enough or certain about why It would be so much easier if I weren't around You could have your life back and get rid of me It wouldn't have worked anyway, we could never be Don't tell me tales about that I make you happy I can't suppress feelings like that, I'm not sappy I just pretend as if nothing's wrong And often you don't even notice I suffer in silence And I'm unsure. I don't know If I want you to flatter me with what I call lies Or ignore me as if I don't exist It makes me feel worse But what can I do? I never want to be a burden ruining it all for you I just go on as if everything's all right And I don't always tell you when I cry at night I find it impossible to tell what it is that hurts And I can't even say what might make it better Perhaps I know, but often I don't And even if I did, I won't It's easier for me to leave it all up to you It hurts me more not knowing who to turn to I want to be appreciated But how can you make me feel that It's so difficult, when I'm sad You say that you like me And that you're sorry I feel this way But it doesn't work for me I do so many awful things, I need to pay I just want to tell you to shut up Because I can never believe I ignore it whenever you say so And have to focus hard not to go I don't want to talk to you But yet again, I don't want to be alone I need someone with whom I can share my pain Someone who can dry my tears, which fall as rain If you have an idea about who I am and what I need Then you know more than I do Because I suffer in silence ~*~ Can you honestly say you don't love her? ~*~ |
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Night Chica Junior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 39Vermont |
Cat - This poem hit right at home with me. It describes perfectly what it's like to feel like you have to keep many things to yourself. It saddens me to see that people feel like they must keep things to themself. I have lived a part of my life like you are now and it was a dark period for me. Trust me when I say that you will never be a burdon to someone if you share your feelings with them. If they are a friend, or a lover, they will appreciate you opening up to them. Very well done piece. ~* Megs *~ I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived. -- Margaret Mitchell |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Cat, welcome to passions and the dark forum!! What a wonderful first posting. We all suffer some things in silence from a lack of guts to share, or embarrassment, or fear etc. I know the feeling. BUT......... here in Passions you need no longer be silent, you can share your feelings and fears and your passions family will not judge or incriminate only offer sympathy and understanding. There is nothing like a good venting - I can tell you. Again welcome  I'll tell you this...... No eternal reward will forgive us now for wasting the dawn..... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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Mary j New Member
since 2003-03-27
Posts 1Canada,Mtl |
I was just browsing and i read your words. I liked it alot. I know what it feels like to keep what hurts so much to myself. And sometimes it hurts even more to talk about it. And besides, if we told the world how we felt... then would the world know who we are? Nice poems. You wrote this poem a while ago... i will now go look for more of your work , take care Mary |
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teenpoet Member
since 2001-10-17
Posts 280Michigan |
I know how you feel. I went through a similar part of my life about atwo years ago. I still don't confide much to others. A friend or two of mine have only just found out I slice my arms or legs sometimes. But then I found out that one of my friends does the same thing. So we're both trying to help each other. No matter how bleak it may seem always remember that someone will care enough to listen and that you wouldn't be a burden. it's a hard lesson to learn but learnable nonetheless. ~Keep dreaming~ |
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penpen New Member
since 2003-08-14
Posts 3brazille |
I can really relate to you with this poem. especially at the begining. It was like reading about myself. Keep up the good work! every step i take |
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