WHY DOESN'T ANYONE UNDERSTAND ME, WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME THAT IS SO HARD FOR EVERYONE TO SEE?

A YOUNG LADY IN PAIN, MY LIFE, NEVER SEEMS TO CHANGE.  

ONE MINUTE EVERYTHING IS FINE , THE NEXT I'M READY TO BREAK DOWN AND CRY.  

MY LIFE, MY LIFE. WHO CAN I TRUST, WHO CAN I TURN TO?  WHAT IS THE POINT IN MY LIFE?  I UNDERSTAND EVERYONE HAS A PURPOSE IN LIFE, BUT, WHAT IS MINE, I FEEL PAIN.  I'M ANGRY AT THE WORLD I FEEL REJECTED BY MY FAMILY, CAN SOMEONE HELP ME, TALK TO ME, MAKE ME UNDERSTAND WHERE IN THIS MESSED UP WORLD DO I STAND.

NOW I FEEL ALL ALONE, NO ONE TO GUIDE ME, NO ONE TO HOLD MY HAND NO ONE TO HAVE MY BACK.I HAVE TO FIGHT, I HAVE TO STRUGGLE THROUGH LIFE ALL ALONE.

YEAH, MY PARENTS HELP FINANCIALLY, BUT WHAT DOES MONEY HAVE TO DO WITH ANYTHING?  MONEY DOESN'T MAKE MY WORLD GO ROUND.  IT'S CALLED LOVE, I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO LOVE ME, CARE FOR ME.  IT'S HARD FOR ME TO LOVE MYSELF WHEN I DON'T EVEN FEEL LOVE FROM MY FAMILY.  IF I'M NOT LOVED BY THEM, THEN WHO?  WHO CAN I TRUST, WHO CAN I TUR TO, WHO CAN LOVE ME AND WHAY SHOULD I LOVE MYSELF?  I FEEL SO FRUSTRATED, SO UNWORTHY, SO VIOLATED AND ONCE AGAN ALL ALONE, IN THIS DANGEROUS WORLD.  

IF I DIE WHO WILL MISS ME?  NO ONE BUT PROBABLY MY SON.  THE PERSON THAT GET'S HURT OUT OF ALL OF THIS BECAUSE JUST LIKE IT'S NOT MY FAULT FOR THE THING I FEEL IT'S NOT HIS.  HE DOESN'T DESERVE THE EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS THAT I'VE HAD.  

I TRY SO HARD TO DO RIGHT, SO HARD TO BE LOVED, BUT IT DOESN'T WORK, SO I GIVE UP, I GIVE UP ON LIFE, ON MYSELF, I GIVE UP!  I HAVE NO MORE STRENGTH TO FIGHT.  

SOMETIMES I WISH MY MOTHER WOULD'VE HAD AN ABORTION WITH ME OR SHE COULD'VE AT LEAST GIVEN ME UP FOR ADOPTION AND MAYBE, JUST MAYBE I WOULD'VE HAD A BETTER LIFE.  BUT NO! SHE DID THE WORST THING  IN THIS WORLD...SHE KEPT A BABY TO KEEP A MAN AND BY DOING SO SUBJECTING ME TO A LIFE OF MISERY, HEARTACHE, AND PAIN.