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Caitlin Junior Member
since 2000-04-09
Posts 15 |
today my world got a little darker i can't see what lays ahead of me anymore it used to be so much clearer a life astranged from those around me a life too perfect to know a sweet madness like this too perfect to recognize this glorious sadness that has been layed ahead of me, luring me towards it today my world got thrown away... today i died i can't breathe anymore, i gasp for air my lungs are closing in on themselves i gag and choke on my own vomit i scream until i become deaf from my own words my body becomes limp i fall from my stance and sink into the ground my head throbs and i go numb i can still see him sometimes today was one of those times i close my eyes and listen to my breathing tears stain my flushed cheeks and i wait he enters my world i see him walking towards me his voice becomes familiar again and his presence begins to enclose my body he occupies my mind and my thoughts he knows more than he did before for he is with me always now able to see all i do, all i say, all i experience he knows all now yet i am again forced to let go forced to move on and leave my past, leave the only way i know how, behind me today...today i learned how to live a new way a way set apart from all others around myself i pave my own path and listen to my inner self i let no one into my world anymore for what i love becomes cursed cursed to die abruptly, unexpectedaly cursed to change, become a new person cursed by me today was a new day my days are still darker than my being is accustomed to the spark, the light has faded the glow in my eyes is lost but i manage to find my way i wander amlesly through these halls in search of something i have yet to find my smile is now my mask the mask of my soul i do not remove if for fear of misplacing it forever fear of losing it and not knowing the way anymore i pray that someday i will become the person you know me as become the person i pretend to be every day that i am here i pray for an end to all this pain and if not that, at least the strength to make it to tomorrow i will continue to walk, continue to live continue to wander through this crazy existance i will find my own way out of here somedays may be darker and i may lose my way but i am here today and tomorrow will always come... |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Caitlin, welcome to Passions and the dark forum. Here in the dark sometimes the only light is hope, I'm glad to see you have some, and you are not gonna give up and play dead. Hope is the light, the light of all light. Welcome again. Great work!!  A heart and soul are not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
There will always be a tomorrow kid. Just take a breath go outside and look at the grass, take your shoes off and mingle your toes into the earth. I know, I know what the heck is this old guy saying??? It’s from the man that has been and lived what you wrote, I can identify with this all to much, and have been on the road of recovery several years. There is a light right now it’s small, but it’s there, and you have expressed your feelings so well in this peace. Love and light, Joel. I’ll howwwllll for your return tonight. |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
Welcome Caitlin. . . The only hope is in the light. . . and though you can't see it now. . .it's there. . . just keep walking. . .it'll show itself. . . Excellent poem. . . ------------------------------------------------------- That which gives light must endure burning --Victor Frankl |
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AVANTI Senior Member
since 2000-02-02
Posts 664INDIA/MAHARASHTRA/PUNE |
caitlin... i loved the end...it's leaves a positive feling...always a tomorrow... Welcome to passions... more light in the darkness... very well done... good work! If all was light...then I would have never learnt the dark...from which such truth evolves from which evolves the light... Avanti Rao |
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dhuron Member
since 2000-03-19
Posts 476 |
Welcome to Passions and the Dark Forum Wonderful, descriptive post. Always, there is hope...faint at times but it always remains there one of few constants. Believe in that hope. Welcome again The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, not the kindly smile, not the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friendship." --Ralph Waldo Emerson |
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SEA 
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Caitlin~ Welcome! well, everyone already said the light is in the hope , so I'll just say ....what an excellent entrance!-SEA[This message has been edited by SEA (edited 04-10-2000).] |
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Broken Member
since 2000-03-12
Posts 271The woods |
Welcome to Dark Passions Caitlin. Great first post, and especially the last stanza. ***** i pray that someday i will become the person you know me as become the person i pretend to be every day that i am here i pray for an end to all this pain and if not that, at least the strength to make it to tomorrow i will continue to walk, continue to live continue to wander through this crazy existance i will find my own way out of here somedays may be darker and i may lose my way but i am here today and tomorrow will always come... ****** It really moved me and I can't wait to read more. Take care, feel better. ~Broken |
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Caitlin Junior Member
since 2000-04-09
Posts 15 |
Thanks everyone. I actually wrote this poem days after my dad died and just recently reworded some of it to make a little more sense. Your comments are excellent and really do provide inspiration(as do your poems). Thanks again for welcoming me |
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NamelessOne Member
since 2000-04-09
Posts 197Biloxi MS |
I feel your pain Caitlin, after my mother commited suicide the only thing that kept me sane was the ability to put my feelings and turbulent thoughts down on paper.Part of that pain i think never goes away but it does get easier .The loss and the pain were one thing but if i hadn`t gotten the feeling of being betrayed and that sounds very selfish but nonetheless it was there ,if i hadn`t found a way to dispel it it would have eaten me alive and putting it into words helped immensely. I think you`re on the right track. David |
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Walter Poe Senior Member
since 1999-10-13
Posts 787 |
Oh how it burns how what you were stays with me in the long sleepless nights broken by screams in my head cutting me in two your there i can see you or is it just a shadow hiding in your form you must be here you have always been here but are you gone now How the hearts burn in the fire of absence how they ride on space now you are not here I know you cant hear come back I know you cant see come back i am so alone in myself I am so lonely in my head You wont come its gone that fleeting moment took you now i cant escape my mind or my burning broken heart Walter Poe Hello darkness, my old friend, I've come to talk with you again, Because a vision softly creeping, Left its seeds while I was sleeping, And the vision that was planted in my brain Still remains Within the sound of silence. |
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