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danni
Senior Member

since 1999-11-20

Posts 688
wisconsin

0 posted 2000-03-28 01:45 AM

for so long
all i ever wanted to do
was be everything
you desired
and all that you needed
i only wanted
to love you

for so long
i only ever hoped
that my love would be enough
to make you happy
to make you change
all i ever wanted
was to be
with you

for so long
i swallowed my pride
and sacfrificed my dignity
to play the fool
for you
only because i wanted
to spend my life
with you

for so long
i hid the anger
and cried unwitnessed tears
i couldn't bear to let you know
that you were destroying me
i never wanted you
to realize the power
you had over me
until it was time
for me to walk away
from you

for so long
i wanted to hurt you
to see you writhe in misery
over what you chose
to let go
i only wished you
the same pain you bestowed
so thoughtlessly on me
i longed to see my torment
inflicted on you

for so long
i allowed myself to fall
to become as callous as you
and i watched as i became
everything
i never wanted to be
and never thought i would
all for the sake
of destroying you

and now
so long after i succeded
in the ruin you
i realize
that is not what i ever wanted
although i cannot love you again
i do not want
to see you hurting
i only hope you can move on
as i have
and find the one who is
all i could never be
just as i have found
the one you never were

please forgive this piece. just a little something i've been dealing with and wanted to see how it would come out without really thinking or writing it down first. i'm sure if i were to work on it a little more, i could make it better. anyway, thanks for reading!

Aiden Kelly
Member

since 2000-02-14

Posts 148
Ft. Wayne, IN USA

1 posted 2000-03-28 02:25 AM

don't apologize, danni! i know where you're coming from, hon. you've said it so simply yet profoundly. my heart is heavy...i know those feelings all too well. (ever heard the song "insensitive"?) especially like how the last few lines conclude it..sad yet hopeful....great work!!!

dhuron
Member

since 2000-03-19

Posts 476

2 posted 2000-03-28 04:36 AM

I think this poem is fine as is. It is great. All the emotions of a breakup and the aftermath. great job

The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, not the kindly smile, not the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friendship."

--Ralph Waldo Emerson

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

3 posted 2000-03-28 08:38 AM

Loved the thoughts here...I have mixed emotions about someone I loved that chose not to love me. Now that we are apart I have thought to myself maybe now she will see how it feels when I am not there for her just like all the times she was not there for me and on the other hand I have thought she is free to fall in love with me or not fall in love with me and I can only hope that she will find the one she needs just as I desire to find the right one. James

Dark_kisses_Within
Senior Member

since 2000-03-21

Posts 680
Kansas

4 posted 2000-03-28 11:28 AM

Very nice poem Danni! No need to change a word in it. Everything is very well explained and ur feelings just flow out easily.
Great Job !!!

Peace

I do not love you for being perfect.....
I love you for being perfect for me!!

Sandra Cox
Junior Member

since 2000-03-24

Posts 48
Essex, London,UK

5 posted 2000-03-28 01:41 PM

Great poem! I can, unfortunately relate to everything you have said but I'm still waiting to find the person I could not be for him! Good luck to you in the future!

Sandra

morteZ
Junior Member

since 2000-03-16

Posts 17

6 posted 2000-03-28 08:54 PM

Danni, I can only agree with what has allready been said. If I could add anything more to what is allready here, it would be a simple thank-you for the way it touched me.
I hope that does'nt sound all weak, but your poem made an impact. morteZ

Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

7 posted 2000-03-29 12:07 PM

Danni I agree too, nothing to apologise for. This is wonderful work, working through all the feelings.

There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self...
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)

Broken Wings
Member

since 2000-03-18

Posts 157
Miami, FL.

8 posted 2000-03-29 01:02 AM

I also think this poem is perfect the way it is now. It touched me deeply. Well Done!

take care,
Broken Wings

"As you learn and grow, you will realize the greater the pain, the greater the growth."
-IYANLA VANZANT

danni
Senior Member

since 1999-11-20

Posts 688
wisconsin

9 posted 2000-03-29 01:26 AM

thank you all so very much for the very kind words. they are always so greatly appreciated. the break-up wasn't recent, but the letting go of anger and wishing him happiness is. it was a long hard road.
and mortez, my friend, that didn't sound weak at all. it is a great honor to me to have been able to touch you so.
once again, thank you all!

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