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TanAngel
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since 2000-02-01
Posts 168
Oviedo, Florida, USA

0 posted 2000-02-27 08:35 PM



The rain brings one less a tear
For then I feel I am being watched
Felt sorry for?
I think not!
A glance from your watchful eye
And your mouth the words "Never good enough"
No matter what I am critcized
No matter what the subject
My ego melts away
There is no self esteem
What talents? I ask myself
You can list whatever you want and I will find someone who proves it wrong
I can never be better
Never be best
Sometimes I am worst
Sometimes I am ok
Never above, never below
Always the same
Tell me I'm good
Show me I'm real
Prove to me someone knows my tears!


 "Dreams are not a reality, no matter how much we wish"-TanAngel

© Copyright 2000 Jessica Farrell - All Rights Reserved
childomine
Senior Member
since 2000-01-25
Posts 818
st. petersburg, FL
1 posted 2000-02-27 08:44 PM


The "someone who proves it wrong" - I wonder who that could be.  We are our own worst critics.  A sad poem that I read is speaking of the continual search for confirmation but not getting that because of not believing it when it does come.  Left me feeling very lonely.
Isis
Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland
2 posted 2000-02-28 12:05 PM


Oh hon, I feel your pain.  I stood where you are now standing a couple of years ago.  Someone in my life gradually destroyed all my ego and self assurance.  I had slowly changed to completely sad, shy, introverted instead of my usual extroverted self.  Longing to fit in yet believeing I didn't etc.
Whomever did this to you ain't worth it, move on.
With hope and faith in yourself and some venting here in Dark, things will soon be on track your way again.
If you need to talk please email me anytime, I've been there, I understand.
This was really well written too!!   < !signature-->

 May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)




[This message has been edited by Isis (edited 02-28-2000).]

Aimster
Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297
Charlotte, NC
3 posted 2000-02-28 01:01 AM


~i felt this poem completely! i too have been in a similar situation...questioning am i good enough..whatever that means. Only because I've been to hell and back in search of this quest, do I feel I can respond to this piece. Sweetie, I came to learn we are our own worst enemies...apparenly though someone is tearing down your self-esteem. Please don't let them. You are better than that. Look around you to all this amazing talent that comes to Passions...all these people sharing their pain, love, happiness, fears...that in itself says there is hope. Believe in yourself first and foremost! If you ever want to talk please feel free to email me as well.

Take care,
Amy  

 ~Live today as though it were your last but prepare for tomorrow as though it were here~

Aiden Kelly
Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 148
Ft. Wayne, IN USA
4 posted 2000-02-28 08:22 PM


I know your tears.  been there and i can still feel that sense of unworthiness rear its ugly head when i read this. i know i have trouble putting those feelings down on paper, but you have captured it well.
~Venus~
Member
since 2000-01-27
Posts 128

5 posted 2000-02-28 08:28 PM


I can definetly agree with Aimster. I too have been to hell and back...and it's not a nice journey. Although it wasn't for the contents of this poem, it wasn't nice. But I have felt this way too. But with friends, like you, I slowly inched my way up to only semi-depression! ^_~

 ~goddess of love, passion, and desire~

I'll be here...why? I'll
be waiting...for what?
'll be waiting for you
so...if you come here,
you'll find me...

I promise.

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