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Lil OnE Member
since 1999-12-14
Posts 234Pasco County. Fl. |
Well, I don't know what you all will think of this, but it's how I feel about my counselor. She's fake and she really doesn't care. This is dedicated to her. We all have very similar problems... -go ahead. Feed me some more. We all live with anger and pain... What? Do you think I'm a stupid whore? Next time you'd better practice your lines before feeding somebody your crock of smit, 'cause it's not working on me, you stupid god-damned bitch! Don't even think about it, don't go and get me started. You don't know the pain or the suffering -no, you don't know the pain. It's one memory at a time, memories take time to be erased. The season has changed the tables have turned. If I had any dreams, they've all been burned. I can't find my stop need to derail this train. This world's so messed up can't even go insane. And yet, I choose to stay here in hopes that it'll all go away. In hopes that I'll fill the vacancy you label "What I expect from you today" Don't know why I'm here, Don't know why I think I can stay. Don't know where I went wrong, Don't know why this world's so gay. I'd rather die standing than live on my knees. Yeah, I'd rather be dead, So just kill me please!!< !signature--> You don't know me, but you don't like me. You say you could care less how I feel. But how many of you who sit and judge me have ever walked the streets in my shoes?-Korn ~Lil OnE~ [This message has been edited by Lil OnE (edited 01-13-2000).] |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
LO I won't be the one to strike the fatal blow. But I will add if you want to talk I am a good listener, and I am only an email away. I'm around if you need an ear. Like the poem to btw  Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen closely. ~Isis~ (Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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Lil OnE Member
since 1999-12-14
Posts 234Pasco County. Fl. |
Isis... thanks for the offer. It's not something I can talk about, it's something that will never escape beyond my mind... not by choice, but by lack of words, lack of tears, lack of strength. But if there's anything I DO need to talk about, you can count on the fact that I'll e-mail you. Thanks again! You don't know me, but you don't like me. You say you could care less how I feel. But how many of you who sit and judge me have ever walked the streets in my shoes?-Korn ~Lil OnE~ |
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Lil OnE Member
since 1999-12-14
Posts 234Pasco County. Fl. |
Isis... what do ya mean by 'the fatal blow'? Elaborate... please You don't know me, but you don't like me. You say you could care less how I feel. But how many of you who sit and judge me have ever walked the streets in my shoes?-Korn ~Lil OnE~ |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
I liked your poem Lil One and I think you said it yourself you want to find someone who really cares about you. I am searching for that and when I meet someone and I care for them and I think they care for me my heart is refreshed. Yet sometimes I am quickly disappointed when I find that it is only me caring for them. James |
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Bojopy Member
since 2000-01-03
Posts 391 |
Lil One WOW this was beathtaking and it hurts to see such pain. I think I can relate but I bet not in the same way. anyway we are hear to listen so please let it all out! "Write down what you say if what you say is not written down" (Bojopy) |
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Lil OnE Member
since 1999-12-14
Posts 234Pasco County. Fl. |
Bojopy... I don't think you really want me to let it all out. I would take up like ten pages if I did. However, I'll be glad to give you a taste of this hell. I can't stand ppl who are fake. Ppl who you think you love, but it really turns out that they aren't the person you thought they were. Then, when they tell you that they never loved you, you realize that you never loved them... compassion isn't love. I can't stand when ppl tell you to 'not look so pissed off'-sorry, but that's how I feel, therefore, that's how I'm gonna look. And by telling me to 'look' happy, you are telling me to be fake. To strap on a mask and act like something I'm not. THEN>> you go to the counselor for therapy and they yell at you for wearing the mask that everyone else tells you to put on!!!! GERR. Confusing. Therefore, I'll do what I want, act out how I feel, and be who I am. I go to the psychiatrist tomorrow to see what anti-depressant they are going to put me on. Hella fun, let me just tell ya. Anyway... this is only a taste of how I feel. Thanks for your kind replies You don't know me, but you don't like me. You say you could care less how I feel. But how many of you who sit and judge me have ever walked the streets in my shoes?-Korn ~Lil OnE~ |
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