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icebox
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since 2003-05-03

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in the shadows

0 posted 2004-05-31 01:24 AM

You ask what goes through my head
when I awake realizing I am not dead,
and what unnatural force
gets me to drag my sorry butt out of my bed;
I don't have an answer that would work for you,
or for any other person that I know,
I keep going on just because
I know one day I won't.
One day I'll just stay there,
stay until I die,
then I'll need a stronger sense of will
to make me come back to do this all again;
every step I take,
for good or bad,
makes me that much closer
to the point of letting go,
but every time I've thought I'd hurry it along
I find some silly little reason to go on.

This morning,
I walked into the cinema
to watch a movie more frightening than the movie makers know,
a show about the inevitable climate shift
that comes around in intervals to reset all our clocks.
A little girl,
barely two feet tall,
come to watch a cartoon ogre
with her mother and sister all standing ahead of me in line,
was shocked at my appearance,
not exactly fine Sunday go to meeting form,
and speechless she just reached out her arm,
pointing at me wordlessly;
without thinking I acted horrified by her and pointed back,
a huge bearded mirror of the gruesome face she made at me;
we stood frozen
in unrehearsed Sunday morning tableaux of mutual shock attack,
an eternity of seconds,
while we couldn't go anywhere
because someone else had fumbled with their change,
then I watched something unspoken rearrange itself inside her mind;
she began to giggle in the kind of fit only a child forms,
and for that moment
I was glad I'd gotten up this Sunday morn.

©2004 by icebox

iliana
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since 2003-12-05

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USA

1 posted 2004-05-31 01:48 AM

*hugs* and *smiles* ....jo

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

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displaced

2 posted 2004-05-31 03:02 AM

*click into library*

Dark Angel
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since 1999-08-04

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3 posted 2004-05-31 05:07 AM

sweet

The clouds never expect it when it rains, but the sea, changes colour, but the sea, does not change.
~Stevie Nicks~

MGROVES

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since 2004-02-01

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california

4 posted 2004-05-31 05:19 AM

precious

Kaoru

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since 2003-06-07

Posts 3892
where the wild flowers grow

5 posted 2004-05-31 06:30 AM

lol.. Well, I'm glad I read this.

urdarbrunn
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since 2004-04-09

Posts 10

6 posted 2004-05-31 08:10 AM

I once was sitting on a beach with my 8 month old son. A man very similar to your appearance walked by, and of course my son was thrilled. he cooed and laughed and reached out for the man. The man stopped in his tracks and had a look of shock on his face. "They usually cry and run away from me?!"
I replied, "Well, for him, you are a wonderful sight" and I let him crawl up to the man.
The man then said," Little man, you just made my day."

Children are wonderful.

Seymour Tabin
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since 1999-07-07

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Tamarac Fla

7 posted 2004-05-31 08:18 AM

icebox
It doesn't take much does it? Good write.

Martie

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since 1999-09-21

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California

8 posted 2004-05-31 10:40 AM

icebox

I'm glad you got up too so you could write this.

Susan
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since 2004-03-27

Posts 5104
walking the surreal

9 posted 2004-05-31 12:35 PM

each day presents small gifts, yes? And in such moments we know joy. Enjoyed.

Susan

The whole of the Universe resides within each individual heart.

Nightshade

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since 2001-08-31

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just out of reach

10 posted 2004-05-31 12:49 PM

Precious write. enjoyed! Chris

Life itself is the most wonderful fairy tale.
Hans Christian Anderson

Enchantress
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since 2001-08-14

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Canada eh.

11 posted 2004-05-31 01:04 PM

Such a sweet write...makes getting up worthwhile.
She probably smiled at your kind eyes.
Hugs~

~Somewhere in my heart I'm always
Dancing with you in the summer rain~

Susan Caldwell
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since 2002-12-27

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Florida

12 posted 2004-06-21 02:58 PM

I loved this Icy!!!!

*smooches*

I have been busy of late so am trying to catch up...forgive me if you see a lot of your stuff brought back to life for a bit...

"cast me gently into the morning, for the night has been unkind"
~Sarah McLachlan~

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