Open Poetry #32 |
My Grandma (for muted's challenge...sort of) |
jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
this is for my grandma, and for muted's challenge...my grandma is 100 and afraid to die, to me, it does not matter how old you are when you die, it only matters if your soul is at peace with God My Grandma For all these years you have been alive and I can’t remember if I told you that I love you. I do love you. I am sorry for not saying it more often. Grandma I just wish I could hold your hand and go back in time with you to ninety years ago, when you were ten, to a time when no preacher needed to tell your heart that God was the author of all that lived and breathed, of the green and growing things and the birds that fly the sky. Can you remember giving your heart to God, when you were still young and innocent enough to believe people could be truly penitent? And do you remember the heaviness of the years as they weighed down your faith; the fiery darts from the evil one claiming repentance was not real? disclaiming the power of God’s love and sacrifice? I do. My Grandma, I need to tell you that by this unkind world, my heart was completely petrified, I had not an ounce of love left to give. I can blame no one, it was by my own free will that it got there but it was only by my Savior’s urging that it became soft and pliable again. In my heart, Jesus truly worked a miracle. He has stilled the unquiet in my soul…and My Grandma, He wants me to tell you that He loves you too. He loves you even more for He has loved you every day of your life- even when you might not feel loveable- even when you just feel old. He sees your soul young and dancing in the wind. He sees you smiling. And when you hurt, He longs to hold you tenderly and ease your pain. He simply wants your heart to be His; He simply wants you to believe. Jesus is knocking… in your heart is He residing? Just over the river He is waiting His arms outstretched to welcome you home... All these years you have been alive my Grandma and I can’t remember if I told you that I love you. I do. I love you and I am sorry for not saying it sooner. Jesus loves me this I know for the bible tells me so * |
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Decaflame Senior Member
since 2001-05-11
Posts 1635 |
She always knew. When the older people around me wonder why He hasn't taken them yet I just tell them He must not think they're done leaving their lessons behind. Now that you've said the words? It might bring about her answer. Knowing you...hugging you. |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
thank you...hugs back... my uncle died last night after a long hard illness and I will go to the funeral this weekend...I will be able to read her this, and tell her I love you in person as well...I hope my love as well as the love of our Redeemer will give her peace. |
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Decaflame Senior Member
since 2001-05-11
Posts 1635 |
He will, Karon...He will. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
peace and hugs to you and yours |
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muted
since 2004-01-15
Posts 2949Elapsing, Eclipsing, Evolving |
I felt your love in this..your spirituality shines...and i do hope you share this with your grandmother...because you have so much love it spills over! beautifully done, uplifting and inspiring |
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GG Member Elite
since 2002-12-03
Posts 3532Lost in thought |
I've been there.. not the exact shoes, but in ones that seemed bigger then my feet. yeah, and I needed these so there they are for you. The love for your grandma and faith to God shines through amazingly here, beautiful! Always, Alyssa He was a man of sorrows |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
thank you all so much, we are a large family, 40 or more grandkids, and even though we went every summer to see my grandma, I went to play with the kids, and I never got to know her as a person. I wanted to call her, but lack the words, and so I write...my fingers talk better than my mouth. Me and my little ones are on the other side of the spectrum, I only have 2, and one lives with me, we are peas in a pod... thank you again.... |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
He sees your soul young and dancing in the wind. He sees you smiling. And when you hurt, He longs to hold you tenderly and ease your pain. He simply wants your heart to be His; He simply wants you to believe. Ah, lady... how beautifully you write love... both that you give and that you embrace. I'm so sorry for your loss... I hope this gives all the answers she yearns for. |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
What a wonderful poem for your Grandmama! |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
Just over the river ~~~nice thoughts must be wonderful to have shared your Grandmother for that many years... a lovely heart warming poem, hugs to you both M |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
it is very hard when life comes to a point, through suffering or illness, where death is an answer to a prayer, but for my uncle, it was a welcome answer...sigh...his family was at peace with his passing and I got to read my poem to my Grandma and hold her and tell her I love her...it was nice... thank you suthern...you picked out the heart of my words...as you do best thank you all for your wishes and care |
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Margherita Member Seraphic
since 2003-02-08
Posts 22236Eternity |
This is very beautiful and tender. I am happy that you got the chance to tell your Grandmother in person that you love her. Love is all she needs now. Love, Margherita |
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