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Martie

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0 posted 2004-02-01 01:57 PM

I tried to hold on to you, January;
your vibrant sky and cold dreamless nights,

but you slipped by as you do each year
and left me with February.

My hands were slipping hold,
was it only yesterday,
as I dress for the blast?
Yes, I’m feeling old.

So many years and tears
are in this quiet sky.
But there is no getting around the fact
that the peach tree is gone,
the sweet fruit mulched
until the dirt
is the color of mourning.

It doesn’t matter
how many nights I saw her
holding onto my skirt
in a dream where children live.

I could still do nothing to save her.

_______

In memory of Michelle http://www.angelfire.com/zine/bereaved/michelleopen.html

I am just a traveler looking for a home, finding I carry it around with me, and sometimes it's just too heavy.

Sunshine

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Listening to every heart

1 posted 2004-02-01 01:59 PM

My thoughts are with you, dear.

Mistletoe Angel

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2 posted 2004-02-01 02:11 PM

(big angel hugs) Oh Martie, I just visited your memorial page of Michelle and it made me cry just knowing how much love you have for her forever and all the precious pictures and poetry you dedicated to her golden heart! (wipes tears) Know that though there may have been nothing you could do to save her that she will always see you as her hero and she is blessing that tree with the sweetest nectarine ever, God less You, I send extra big angel friendship and comfort hugs your way, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Martie, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"You'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around and come back home" MB20

Grover
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since 2004-01-27

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London, ON, Canada

3 posted 2004-02-01 02:17 PM

God bless you. Grover.

icebox
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in the shadows

4 posted 2004-02-01 02:28 PM

There is the touch of soul
the offer of emotion shared
but there are no words...

You are much loved as a poet here, some for the thoughts you share, mostly for the person you are.

Thank you.

Dark Angel
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5 posted 2004-02-01 02:42 PM

Martie, my thoughts are with you too

Marge Tindal

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since 1999-11-06

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Florida's Foreverly Shores

6 posted 2004-02-01 03:14 PM

Sis~
My eyes are slipping tears at this piece~
I love you~

'was it only yesterday?'

Oh ... yes, yes ... it surely was~
*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*When the heart grieves over what it has lost,
the spirit rejoices over what it has left.
- Sufi epigram <))><

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Enchantress
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Canada eh.

7 posted 2004-02-01 03:59 PM

Martie?

iliana
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8 posted 2004-02-01 04:05 PM

Martie, you are very generous to share these emotions and beautiful loving words with us. I am so sorry for your loss.

suthern

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since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

9 posted 2004-02-01 07:10 PM

It doesn’t matter
how many nights I saw her
holding onto my skirt
in a dream where children live.

I could still do nothing to save her.

Grief always alters us, sometimes defines us... the tears from your pen paint love.

Kie
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since 2004-02-01

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10 posted 2004-02-01 07:58 PM

Beautiful, such a lovely flow.

Goodknight
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11 posted 2004-02-01 08:31 PM

Martie - your poetry reveals things we just don't get to see - how wonderfully poignant and how difficult Februaries must be - your light shines mightily though - Paul

passing shadows
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displaced

12 posted 2004-02-02 04:57 AM

gawd! You break my heart

ice
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Pennsylvania

13 posted 2004-02-02 07:06 AM

Probably, you have many around you
To hold on to, when January slips,
And you fall into the abyss of February.
I offer you this strangers arms,
When others are tired and cannot break
Recurring falls...anytime, day or night
Open this note;
Though seeming mute the parenthesis signs
Might say warming things to your heart,
And when cold and lonely, sadness calls,
You will be safely surrounded by my warm arms
((((((((((Martie))))))))))

Janet Marie
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14 posted 2004-02-02 11:23 AM

just wanted you to know I was here...
by now you know the rest.

Mysteria

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British Columbia, Canada

15 posted 2004-02-02 12:34 PM

And I will join those that hold your hand this day Martie.

EvocativeVerse2
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Posts 1279

16 posted 2004-02-02 12:40 PM

Ahh Martie a sad piece. I feel for you my friend!

Remember, if you're not part of the future, you're history!

Ratleader

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17 posted 2004-02-02 02:36 PM

Martie, sometimes it's very, very hard to respond to a poem of yours. No need to quote lines or talk about how deep that peach tree's roots still run in the soil of you. You know without my saying, so I won't.

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______________Ratleader______________

Christopher

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Member Rara Avis

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Purgatorial Incarceration

18 posted 2004-02-02 03:36 PM

sharing heart-heavy sighs.

1slick_lady
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standing on a shadow's lace

19 posted 2004-02-02 03:45 PM

such beauty you have shaped from incredible pain...my heart bends towards you and all you feel...i am so sorry for your loss...helen

Richy
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20 posted 2004-02-02 05:42 PM

Dear Martie,

It is so very hard to reply, to something as sad as this,
For they’ve yet to make the words, that could even begin to express
how sorry one can feel, when such a lovely and innocent child,
is taken away from her loving parents.

Your poem is so much more, then such sad and beautiful words.
They are words that can only come from a heart, that knows a pain like no other.
A pain that no one would ever even dare to try to imagine.
A pain so unfair, no one should ever be able to understand.

One thing that is very easy to see, is what a wonderful mother you are.
And how much you truly loved and cared for your dear and blessed
little Michelle... then, and now, and always and forever.

The tender feelings of compassion, and genuine sorrow, from seeing
her lovely little picture, and the other one, with you holding her... and to
hear her sing that sweet lullaby on that beautiful memorial website you
made her, are ones, that I don’t think I could ever forget. Nor would I ever want to...

My deepest blessings go out to you Martie. As do my thoughts and prayers.
I hope that the warm comfort of family, and friends can keep you, during these
sad days ahead.

Please take care.
You and yours are in my thoughts.

Your Friend,
Richy

BluesSerenade
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By the Seaside

21 posted 2004-02-03 09:34 PM

Lots of love and gentle hugs to you dear Martie.

Not going to say you know that I know,
because I can't possibly,

But my heart still breaks for you, come February.

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