Open Poetry #31 |
the big yellow machines |
jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
Both pride and pleasure welled up inside when I watched you work for you did not just drive a big yellow machine you became one. Even from a distance the simultaneous concentration and yet easiness was evident with yellow buckets for hands your arms reached out and calculated their way into the earthen landscape. As your near perfect gaze set the level and grade huge black wheels spun forward and back a nudge or a powerful lunge they dared no resistance to your insistence. And at the end of a long day when you became my son again you were never too tired for a smile, a hug, and a hi mom...oh what I would give for just one more hi mom. Inside this void that death has ripped my heart is sliced wide open with nothing but memories of you to backfill the gaping and it hardly seems fair that big yellow machines keep moving... |
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aujussy wolf
since 2003-08-09
Posts 1215Michigan |
major emotion releasing ...cool write |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
oh JB... |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
this is another of my 'documenting' of memories....that and trying to deal with the highway construction that I have to pass on my daily commute, there is only so much that tunnel vision can deal with.......sigh thank you |
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Sunshine
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since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Your son is very, very proud of you, his Mom... and I know he is sending a "Hi, Mom...love you..." |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
ah lady, you brought tears to my eyes, your comment, I could actually visualize, thank you...so much |
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Sunshine
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since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
I'll ask my Dad to visit with him... together, they will provide us with many good memories from which to draw upon. I do know, my friend. |
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Bonnie j Senior Member
since 2003-06-27
Posts 1588Ohio |
I feel your pain dear Jellybean. Great big hug coming your way from Ohio. Bon-Bon |
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JL Member Ascendant
since 2004-04-01
Posts 6128Texas, USA |
I feel your pain! Living in Houston is a constant reminder of “the big yellow machines.” I think construction started right after the wheel was invented, and will continue into the next century and beyond. JL |
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Balladeer
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since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Simply incredible writing....the ending could not have been written any other way. I can see inside your heart here, K. |
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Sadelite Member Elite
since 2003-10-11
Posts 2519 |
Jelly Bean, My heart goes out to you and your family. Loss is something I've never gotten used it, and it tears me up to see others go through it. It was over thirty years before I started to write of those special people in my life and memories. I'm glad you're doing it much sooner. Writing is helping me some to unfold the feelings I've had tucked away. My thoughts are with you. Your poem touched me very much. Cathy |
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GG Member Elite
since 2002-12-03
Posts 3532Lost in thought |
I used to call my uncle and tell him jokes all the time. He died... one night I read this great joke and lifted up the phone to call him. As soon as I did that I realised, again, that he was gone. For weeks I was angry at anyone who had anything 'funny' to say. In my eyes all humor had gone, and it only seemed practical that the rest of the world should think the same. Death just isn't fair... This read just aches so much. But keep writing, its good to get it out. Know that he is with you still, and he loves you more than ever. Always, Alyssa He was a man of sorrows |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
thank you all, so much! sharing pain somehow makes it more bearable, and I thank God for all of you here |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
There isn't any fairness... but there is love that will last even longer than the horrific pain... and memories to pass along to a little girl. How beautifully you write heartbreak... how well you show how special your relationship. He IS proud of you... I've no doubt! |
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