exodus of the boy down the hall

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mytuesdaywishes
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since 2003-09-05

Posts 254
a voice from the musicbox

0 posted 2004-03-16 07:00 PM

told me last night
you'll leave someday soon
and never look back
back at
the weightless burdens of home
the windows that watched you grow up
the stains in the carpet and balled up socks
the porch littered with your cigarrettes
each morning i wake up to you sitting there
the only constant in my life

when you leave
no one but me
and the cd you'll surely leave me
will know until the next morning
and you know
mom's gonna cry for days
while going crazy in her room
and dad will just sit and stare angry at the door
like he's gonna break it down
yeah he'll be breaking down
and as for me
i'll call you when you're miles away
and beg you one last time
to take me with you
but you'll smile
and the long distance static will say
you have to stay and save this place

atleast come wake me up
at 2 am when you leave
like those 2 am times when
we would take a break
from these cold walls
even just for gas station coffee
made extra sweet
yeah you'll wake me up before you go
wake me from listless dreams
and kiss me on the forehead
like you do when you know
i'll miss you

well mom will wring her little hands
a hollow victim of her own device
she'll say you should have listened to her
and dad will cut you off
take back promises he made to you
when you were just a little boy
and pretend that he doesn't hurt
to think you left him
like every week he leaves us
and i'll tell mom you love her
and that she did a good job with you
because that's what she needs to hear
and i'll let dad know you said he's
a lot cooler than we had once thought
because he needs to know you won't forget him

and when your truck steals you away
to the open road we always envied
the wind won't be able to tell you
how much i love you
count each of those headlights
as one thankyou from me
for my life
obviously a product of your music
and your midnight friendships
and your immortal pictures
of places and people
and things you could never explain

and all your friends
will stop by now and then
recalling your undying loyalty to them
even the ones mom never liked
and everyone will ask
why you left us all here
disoriented by our own potential
and i will look at them
with the quiet wit you taught me
i'll say to them
he couldn't have stayed here
it's not big enough for people like him
i'll tell them with sharp perspective
what i know at this very moment
i see you everyday but
you're already gone

joy has its own justice. and dreams are languid and lawless. and everything bows to beauty, when it's fierce and when it's flawless...

DavePage
Member Elite

since 2003-12-21

Posts 2917

1 posted 2004-03-16 07:06 PM

I left home at 16

I came back occasionally but I would quote my mother's to me - she said you can run away from everything but you can't run away from yourself

I was running away from myself, I was trying to find my own life

Dave

Grover
Senior Member

since 2004-01-27

Posts 1967
London, ON, Canada

2 posted 2004-03-16 07:10 PM

Excellent, Tuesday! I became totally absorbed in this terrific write! Just can't say enough good things about it... Grover.

Goodknight
Member Elite

since 2002-06-15

Posts 2386
Ohio, USA

3 posted 2004-03-16 07:14 PM

this is just terrific - a powerful story so very well told - Paul

aujussy wolf

Senior Member

since 2003-08-09

Posts 1215
Michigan

4 posted 2004-03-16 09:22 PM

teary eyed write , crying is a great release
sad so sad

.......
JDW III

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