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LOSTANDFORGOTTEN
Junior Member

since 2005-12-22

Posts 16

0 posted 2006-01-22 06:03 PM

You hurt me Dad….

Your hands were shaking,
Your legs couldn’t stand,
Eyes too bloodshot to see,
With the bottle in your hand,

Layed on the couch,
Next to my crying eyes,
Your daughter your life,
Was just watching you die,

When I needed the comfort,
I found you passed out,
When I needed the advice,
Your words could only shout,

You threw those punches,
As I hide to the side,
I tried to look away,
But my eyes were open wide,

I picked up the dishes,
Broken pieces on the floor,
The home that was my shelter,
Was turning into war,

I yelled “ dad please tonight”
Just stop and think,
If Im your love your life,
Then put down your drink.

Im your little girl,
Don’t you even see,
That your ruining us,
Your ruining me,

I cried so many tears,
My family I tried to fix,
Tried to stay strong for mom,
But dad I was only six,

Do you think about,
Everything you’ve done,
Do sit up at night,
When the guilt has won,
The blood stained shirt,
The tears alone,
The yelling and screaming,
I was left on my own,

I was left to be without you,
I was left to try and deal,
I was left to be the person Im not,
The person that has healed,

The nightmares are getting worse,
The memories are still sore,
But you say don’t talk about it,
Don’t think about before,

There still there in my mind,
My soul will always be scar’d.
Just please for once don’t pretend,
Like my life wasn’t that hard.

Cause maybe your ok now,
Maybe its all outta of you,
But its hurting me more then ever,
I just wish you felt the pain too.
-JEss

Sexy
Member

since 2005-11-25

Posts 53

1 posted 2006-01-22 06:56 PM

omg its sad..... good write. and if this is true im really sorry for you.

DejaEntendu
Member

since 2005-12-06

Posts 82
Pennsylvania

2 posted 2006-01-22 07:38 PM

nice write. I really liked
"Just please for once don’t pretend,
Like my life wasn’t that hard."
while i'm not in exactly the same situation, i know I can relate to that line so much. Parents who make bad decisions don't reflect on how it has affected their kids. They like to think our lives are easy at times, as if they didn't do any of those things.
Thank you

EagletonDiva
Member

since 2006-01-11

Posts 107

3 posted 2006-01-25 01:42 PM

For me, it was my mother. It's hard to see passed the pain, but addiction is a demon and it can destroy the best of us.

EagletonDiva
Member

since 2006-01-11

Posts 107

4 posted 2006-01-25 06:19 PM

Of all the bad that parents do, the one thing they did right was having you.

XxnoraxX
Member

since 2006-01-24

Posts 122
<3 MA,,,USA <3

5 posted 2006-02-02 04:57 PM

This is soooo sad. I had tears in my eyes by the time i finished. awesome

XxnoraxX

Belinda
Member

since 2006-01-30

Posts 126
UK

6 posted 2006-02-04 06:54 AM

wow that is really powerful ! I'm guessing that it is true and i feel very sorry for you. I'm not in that exact postition but I know the meaning of family problems, they can sometimes be the hardest !
Belinda x

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