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Third Libra
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since 2003-08-10

Posts 125
South Carolina

0 posted 2004-01-17 06:36 PM

God has filled me with fear
So no longer I am placid here nor there
I am left wondering where in Hell my heart lies
In the darkness of the night, or in the blood so right

Very compelled may I be to the holiest of evils
Where I sell my soul to the kiss of devils
I lose my place in sanity and all called reality
For me to drown in nothing but pure insanity

So where shall I find my place in the light
Out of this damned heresy, in the mouth of the night
Where I tread on the tongue of the beast
No mercy given to thee, for I am the monster's feast

My soul
My vanity

No longer I taste the miracle of the day
As I dwell in these bowels of Hell and Devil's say
Since this heretic chosen as inspiration for murder
Evil lies in uncertainty, rotting in your dogma forever

Still I sit here; I talk to Christ in many tears
For I know of the rejection from God, and invitation of fiery spears
Can not I be human in this world of guilt and scars
Where perfect cirlces lie so far

It is not his will
To free us all
Pull me from this free will...

Cut me from this gentle piercing hostility
So my blood can fall in peace seethingly
I do not want to feel this umbilical sobriety
Where I die painfully in Satan's residue of cruelty

Nevertheless, in nightmares the obvious still fades
On the poisonous back of a million's say
I shall burn for many days
My own residue of judgement of the wrong soon becomes hate

In these flames of human nature I burn
As done Sleeping Beauty
For eternity...

Love is only an excuse to hurt and to get hurt... Knowledge brings ye fear.

River
Senior Member

since 2003-09-16

Posts 627
my own little world

1 posted 2004-01-18 01:04 AM

*hugs* hey, this was put together very well, just wanted you to also know, if i read right, you think that God doesn't want to see everyone free from hell? it says he does want us all free in the bible. he loves everyone, not just some of us. =) anywho, have a groovy day & God Bless!

- River

rest upon existence. seek life,
and forever never die.

Third Libra
Member

since 2003-08-10

Posts 125
South Carolina

2 posted 2004-01-18 10:42 AM

Thank you for readin' River. Personally I know that God doesn't want anybody in Hell, at all. But I guess I was in a black mood, and decided to write from a certain perspective. Ya know, of one who believes he has been forsaken by God, only sees the darkness type thing. hehe, thank you again.

Love is only an excuse to hurt and to get hurt... Knowledge brings ye fear.

Michelle_loves_Mike

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since 2003-12-20

Posts 1189
Pennsylvania

3 posted 2004-01-18 10:46 AM

It does seem that with all the laws put on us by "god", that we are not meant to win,
Sadly,,,if "god" ever really did care,,,his "holy men" the "church",,,has made that a fairytale,,,hidden under rhetoric and so many layers of guilt,,that it may never be seen again...
I really like this work Libra,,,
Michelle

I wish all could find the true happiness I have found,,in the eyes of Mike

Third Libra
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since 2003-08-10

Posts 125
South Carolina

4 posted 2004-01-18 02:39 PM

I very much agree with you, on this point. But why is that so, I do not know.
Thank you for reading!

Love is only an excuse to hurt and to get hurt... Knowledge brings ye fear.

Gothika_07
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since 2004-01-15

Posts 61
new zealand

5 posted 2004-01-18 03:59 PM

hey..
i really enjoyed this poem.
and this religous topic i don't usually enjoy.
but thank you heaps becoz i really did enjoy it and hope you do more!

xxgothikaxx

Third Libra
Member

since 2003-08-10

Posts 125
South Carolina

6 posted 2004-01-18 10:23 PM

Thank you, Gothika! Yes, I never do really enjoy religion conversations, or topics. But I guess I had to write one, eh.
Thanks again.

Love is only an excuse to hurt and to get hurt... Knowledge brings ye fear.

Copperbell
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since 2003-11-08

Posts 956

7 posted 2004-01-20 09:58 AM

Hey, just a thought on your topic. If there is a devil and if there is God, then don't you think the devil would really want to hide the fact that God is for you, and that God loves you?

I think he would also want to hide the news that the Bible says that Christ has defeated him - that Jesus came to destroy the devil's work and that He won.

And He won on purpose for you. 'Cuz He loves you. I hope you don't mind - I couldn't help myself to say that you are loved my friend.

Third Libra
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since 2003-08-10

Posts 125
South Carolina

8 posted 2004-01-21 08:29 AM

Thank you for replying, Copper. And I, too, do feel that if God and the Devil do exist, then with all his heart, God loves us. And that Satan is very pissed off. I mean, who wouldn't, if they already knew that they were going to lose in the end? But still, as it says in the bible, Satan will still try and bring as many people as he can into the fire. That's just how it is. So, if God does exist, he loves us all, and would like us all to make it into heaven. I mean, they do say that he is 'Love', right?
All in all, I'm trying to say I agree. Thanks again.

Love is only an excuse to hurt and to get hurt... Knowledge brings ye fear.

xEmperorEmber
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since 2000-03-28

Posts 136
tx

9 posted 2004-01-22 01:03 AM

You should really check out the things that i am about to start posting here soon, i think you could really relate to them. As for this it was nice, i enjoyed it.

Thank you and goodnight
Ember

"Disconnect and Self Destruct One Bullet at a Time...."

Vagabond
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since 2004-01-23

Posts 163

10 posted 2004-01-27 12:08 PM

Play with death and you get what you regret

Vagabon the Lost One

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