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XGarapanX
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since 2008-06-19

Posts 1435
Antarctica

0 posted 2008-07-04 05:48 PM

Twisted Child with the Slit Throat Smile.

It was January...
Or June...
Hard to measure time
when it lags
by the millenium.
It was May,
or April.
Where was I?
Can't recall.
Didn't want to mark
the day,
or place,
lest it be lent
too much credence.

It was day,
or maybe night.
The guardians at the gate
were remiss,
because you are blood;
at least they said you were.
For this you were trusted.
I never liked the look
on your face,
dissembling.
I didn't know you,
but was delivered to you,
and my life was required of me
on that day.

It was time for my bath
or so you insisted.
I trusted you to know
these things.
But you stood in the doorway
and would not leave,
so I pretended
that you weren't there,
afraid,
terrified,
naked.
Did it please you?
Did it entice?
Clear skin
and tender virgin flesh?
Did I seduce you
with my innocence?
Am I the one to blame?

There was no one
to call to for help.
There was no one
to rise to my defense.
No way to shield myself
from the dagger
of your affliction,
as your seeds of evil
pierced my naked soul.
Witch Doctor
Warlock.
You did more than impregnate
my spirit
with your witchcraft--
you made me a freak
like you.

But it wasn't enough
to slake your thirst
by twisting me
into a monster
until I, too,
learned to rape
everything I touched,
you had to cut my throat
from ear to ear
and leave me to bleed
in the bathwater,
which could no longer cleanse
my filth.

Maybe that scar
is why people think
I am smiling
all the time.
It confuses them
because black thoughts
and grim deeds
seem ever to paint
a darker view
of sanity.

·´~`·»Garapan«·´~`·

[This message has been edited by XGarapanX (07-04-2008 08:25 PM).]

XxForever.BrokenxX
Senior Member

since 2008-01-20

Posts 891
Neverland

1 posted 2008-07-04 07:41 PM

W.O.W This is amazing.

{~~*~~}

"You are not loyal enough to eat my orange jelly beans!...'cuase dat's just how I roll.."
{~Emily~}

SEA

Moderator

Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

2 posted 2008-07-04 08:19 PM

I don't normally like this kind of stuff, but I thought this was wicked cool

XGarapanX
Senior Member

since 2008-06-19

Posts 1435
Antarctica

3 posted 2008-07-04 08:31 PM

I'm glad you thought so, FB.

SEA, I have tended to lean away from this sort of writing myself in the attempt to maintain a healthier perspective than I am normally accustomed to. But I've recently discovered such cathartic expression to be... occasionally liberating. Glad you appreciate the writing.

·´~`·»Garapan«·´~`·

A Romantic Heart
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-03

Posts 5496
Forever In Your Heart

4 posted 2008-07-05 03:03 AM

Oh my gosh!

Hope this wasn't a true story for you,

your writing is so descriptive and brilliant~

XGarapanX
Senior Member

since 2008-06-19

Posts 1435
Antarctica

5 posted 2008-07-05 07:09 AM

Thank you for your praise and your compassion both, Romantic one.

And yes, it speaks of my reality. My days have been spent untangling myself from this, and other forms of ruin. But I am alive.

·´~`·»Garapan«·´~`·

Spuddette
Member

since 2008-07-03

Posts 112
England

6 posted 2008-07-05 10:53 AM

Bloody hell this was a good read about a bad thing. Very amazing work. x Jan

Spuddette
Member

since 2008-07-03

Posts 112
England

7 posted 2008-07-05 12:27 PM

Sorry for swearing by the way.oops.

XGarapanX
Senior Member

since 2008-06-19

Posts 1435
Antarctica

8 posted 2008-07-05 01:36 PM

No worries, Govorness, lol! Bloody hell is the mildest and probably most appropriate thing to say about this subject!

·´~`·»Garapan«·´~`·

BrittanyJ
Member

since 2007-06-03

Posts 461
Come find me?

9 posted 2008-07-05 06:11 PM

Wow, XGarapanX...wow i'm speachless. This is far beyond amazing...I can't find the right words to describe it

Two thumbs way up!!

If you love someone, let them go. If they come back, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.

XGarapanX
Senior Member

since 2008-06-19

Posts 1435
Antarctica

10 posted 2008-07-05 06:58 PM

And I fail to find the correct words to respond to your enthusiastic endorsement. It's humbling.

·´~`·»Garapan«·´~`·

graeshine2006
Member

since 2008-06-03

Posts 368
The Prairie Lands, USA

11 posted 2008-07-06 02:48 PM

OMG - Brett it is? Please keep writing for enlightenmnet on this when you need to. This is......... no words, just tears.

XGarapanX
Senior Member

since 2008-06-19

Posts 1435
Antarctica

12 posted 2008-07-06 03:19 PM

Thank you, graeshine. Yes, it is the hour to put the time of pain aside, even a piece at a time.

·´~`·»Garapan«·´~`·

fractal007
Senior Member

since 2000-06-01

Posts 1958

13 posted 2008-08-13 11:53 PM

Hahahaha, this was great! I love the punchline at the end. If I didn't know any better, this poem is an attack on contemporary society, with its emphasis on a largely boring normal way of living despite the stupidity inherent in a lot of what's normal. Your speaker sounds like a soul rejected by society (or at least raped by it).

The poem flows well my friend.

Life's short. Think hard!
Me!

maddorani
Member

since 2007-11-18

Posts 423
houston,tx

14 posted 2011-03-31 07:27 PM

this is sooooooo amazing

XGarapanX
Senior Member

since 2008-06-19

Posts 1435
Antarctica

15 posted 2011-03-31 10:17 PM

You are MORE amazing.

·´~`·»Garapan«·´~`· "Look! Crumbs on his jacketses... Heeee took it!"

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