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Panic Attacks at 3 AM
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Panic Attacks at 3 AM |
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Defective Member
since 2003-09-19
Posts 73Salisbury NC |
Soundly sleeping until the pink pill wears off then I wake up to hell and scramble for the little yellow and blue ones I have sitting by the bed just waiting for me to reach over Medicine takes days When seconds are minutes And minutes are hours But They say they say its all in my head They say there's no physiological reason for this I, I can't bring myself to believe that this is all for nothing but then again I can't bring myself to believe much in anything these days. I can't explain what this feels like except that I'm out of my head I never thought I'd end up with this disease leprosy of the mind. (I thought I could end up normal) So I sit here drawing tiny circles at 3 AM to keep occupied to keep from having to wake anyone up just to talk me back to sleep. I can't describe the way a panic attack feels. A lot of people associate them with having a hard time breathing but mine feel like I'm the only one left in the world, and if I go to sleep I'm going to die. Sometimes I stay up for days having these, even though I know that everything is fine, telling myself that is cold comfort. The doctors can call them "panic attacks" if they want, but for me they are pure hell and I wish that on no one. [This message has been edited by Defective (12-13-2003 10:14 PM).] |
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inkedgoddess Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-19
Posts 7392Ohio |
this sounds like one for sure, and it is horrible to watch, having witnessed my daughters, find a support group please,they do help |
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Mad_Hatter Member
since 2003-06-29
Posts 393Canada |
This one's hard, you're beautiful for writing this and it makes you more normal than most people. Nicely done.. |
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