Why?

Deity hates me,
Or does he,
You love me,
Or do you.
An unsolved mystery,
Of thoughts and feelings.
It ought God would not,
Shed a tear for them.
The ones he let die,
The ones that still cry,
Look at the heavens for the answer to why?
So why do we listen,
For the words,
For the reasons,
For the ones guilty of treason,
I cry, why?
Sinner, saint,
Mourner, hater,
The broken, breaking others,
My crime,
Knowing why,
In my last moments,
Will I want to die?

This song is really a song, so its rythm may be hard to catch, but I have tried to show my lyrics as best I could. It has great meaning to me.
P.S. I am not suggesting suicide is an answer to anything, and if you read this poem carefully, the last line isn't really about suicide.