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Christioned
Member

since 2004-01-15

Posts 93
Huddling in the dark

0 posted 2004-01-22 07:54 PM

Note: I'm not suiccidal or depressed. I just needed to get these "Thoughts" out.

All these things are swirrling
my reality seems to be blurring
real thingd and imagined
whipping throughout my head
blending and stretching as they go round.
Truths of my life
fantasies of how I my death.
The images make no sense
I don't know what to think.
With all these thoughts
and no one to sort through them all
I don't want to be here
not to do this anymore.
Life makes no sense.
Yet I'm to much of a coward to take my knife
and to end my own useless and pathetic life.
To live is pain and my own danmnation
howevwer to die is to leave myself
in a complete and total hell.
sometimes I think God has a sense of humor
and then I think he's forgotten about me altogether.
With all of these thoughts whipping and blurring
then constantly changing in my mind's eyes,
I never know what is truly real in my own life.

Unseamedsoul
Junior Member

since 2004-01-22

Posts 11
Rowesville , S.C.

1 posted 2004-01-22 08:51 PM

Sorry about the icon thingys... I'm not sure how to use them.. Oh well... But this was good... Lacked sorta in the story telling part.. But other then that it's great.. I would like to hear more of this story tho.. =)

There's a crack inside this heart
Something that will never be healed ,
I can't give anything to anyone
Cause this whole will never be filled !!

Vagabond
Member

since 2004-01-23

Posts 163

2 posted 2004-01-23 03:37 PM

yes you are depressed. Maybe even sucidal

Vagabond the Lost One

Christioned
Member

since 2004-01-15

Posts 93
Huddling in the dark

3 posted 2004-01-26 08:43 AM

Poetry is my way of letting my feelings out when something's bothering me or when something's gone wrong. I wrote this poem after a fight with my father. I was just upset. I'm not depressed or suicidal. I just write.

Gothika_07
Member

since 2004-01-15

Posts 61
new zealand

4 posted 2004-01-26 11:03 PM

YES i do agree wiv Christioned poetry is like a story it tells things we make up or what we may feel at the certain time.
i myself write in dark poetry becos i find it fasinating and I AM NOT DEPRESSED OR SUICIDAL!
ppl shud b free 2 say their thoughts wen their upset its way betta then hurtin ur self
and i thoroughly enjoyed the poem!

keep writin XXGOTHIKAXX

green_itchy_stuff
Senior Member

since 2003-06-26

Posts 1929
New Caney, Tx

5 posted 2004-01-27 10:43 AM

I liked the poem. It kinda reminds me of me sometimes like now while it feels like I have nothing to look forward to in life right now. SOmetimes it makes you wonder what the point is.

-GIS

Hatered and lies go hand-in-hand, while love is always truth.

[I do it for the love... ...I do it from the bottom of my heart.]-Smile Empty Soul

Jelfling
Junior Member

since 2004-01-27

Posts 21
Indiana

6 posted 2004-01-28 12:21 PM

I really liked this poem. I wrote one very similar not too long ago, actually. I'll post it up when I unpack my journals. I understand about having to get those feelings out. People who say they've never been there are lying.

Christioned
Member

since 2004-01-15

Posts 93
Huddling in the dark

7 posted 2004-01-29 12:37 PM

Thank-you to all of you who understand. I'd love to keep writing in here when I'd like but I was afraid of being called a suicidal, depressed freak. Thank-you for changing my mind.

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